Been posting a lot of depressing posts on here in the past year about everything I wanted to say without anybody locally knowing who I was and I love tumblr for that. Just wanted to share the music that was made from my depression, hope anyone going through a hard time makes it to tomorrow to see better days to come. “This mixtape is pretty much my struggle from 18-23 just trying to get my life together going through break ups, broken bonds, and disloyalty. i made it solely just to vent because i didn't want to talk to nobody about what i was going through, so i vented through music something that's always been there since i was a kid. Hopefully some of you relate and one of my songs help you through hard times i get emotional on some songs but that's how you know my pain real. Hope you enjoy it”

Everyday I wake up I’m learning to do better

She really pulled up to my dream and kissed me goodbye lol. She was so beautiful in the light I always remember her being in. The way she cared and presented herself was so attractive I couldn’t keep my eyes off her. She spent the whole dream with me didn’t disappear until it was completely over. Wasn’t really much said but I texted her “I miss her” and seen her in a room full of people but I see her clear as day. “Why you say that?” she said. “You’re the only person on my mind 24/7 feel like i can’t breathe without you” I replied. She chuckled and blushed just as I used to remember she did in reality. We kissed one last time and just embraced each other’s hearts close to each other until I awoke from my fantasy. First thing I did when I got up was play this song I wrote for her because…i just couldn’t wait to see you again…..but she don’t want to see me again.

This is the song if you wanna hear my soul hurt lol

I knew i defeated depression when I got into bed today after getting my heart shattered again, watching my car fail me again, watching people fail me again and i didn’t complain or explode wit emotions I spoke my truth and learned from my mistakes. I went to bed with a clear conscience free to peacefully fall into a dream I’m sure I’m gonna enjoy lol. I’m happy i don’t need to depend on no one for my sanity no girl, no drugs, just me. I earned this, the will to live again and I got myself to thank for it 💜

Just dropped an new single on all platforms called “Why Can’t I”

“Wish You Were Here” dropping Oct. 11th hope you enjoy this song as much as I did lol

Once the pain you feel is internal and emotional only thing that seems logical is to rip your heart out

Wrote this song for my friend from her perspective on relationships hope y’all enjoy

I’ve gotten so good at making music it’s not even funny I made this about a girl I used to like but was afraid to love her due to my past relationship trauma I sound like lil Uzi and I didn’t even try too 😭😭😭

I’m about to break my heart why did I send her a friend request? What makes me think that she’ll actually miss me? Am I a dummy? I might be for love I’m not gonna lie lol

You ever met someone so perfect for you that it terrified you into ghosting that person?

I pray nobody thinks I’m “woke” now because I’m still learning about myself still reading to educate myself to live a better life etc I really want to find a way to help everyone through the darkness because I lived there for 10+ years before I ran into the light. It only takes one person to make a difference in someone else’s life and you probably already have them your vision is probably just too cloudy to see it clearly

Like i really want to let someone know I cried tears of joy for the first time ever because I came so fucking far but I know if I go and post that on fb somebody gonna try to make a joke out of something I was serious about lmao nothing wrong wit it i just know where not to post my reality

Ight so I’m officially back on here for a while but I’m different I’m no longer depressed I see the world differently but one thing i don’t like is social media but tumblr is the only place I feel is still authentic and not tainted by popular people who just post shit to be likable everyone expresses themselves so freely on here I love it

I think I’m getting pretty good at this 🤷🏾‍♂️

Finally getting my life on track but…smh why is there always a “but” why can’t I just be satisfied with what’s in front of me and worry about my wants later I got everything I need rn 🤦🏾‍♂️

Finally got my first badge I feel like ash rn 😭😭

I need a new outlet to vent I got out of the mindset of depression but I have no idea what I want to do now I guess I should go live more huh lol