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@swaggatsby4

06/98, 25♋️ In the real world I save everyone around me like a local therapist but this, this place is something I can be unapologetically me without anyone knowing…this blog is for how broken I feel regardless if I’m saving everyone for the better I’m giving my happiness away so all I feel left is empty this is how I cope how I heal
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Been posting a lot of depressing posts on here in the past year about everything I wanted to say without anybody locally knowing who I was and I love tumblr for that. Just wanted to share the music that was made from my depression, hope anyone going through a hard time makes it to tomorrow to see better days to come. “This mixtape is pretty much my struggle from 18-23 just trying to get my life together going through break ups, broken bonds, and disloyalty. i made it solely just to vent because i didn't want to talk to nobody about what i was going through, so i vented through music something that's always been there since i was a kid. Hopefully some of you relate and one of my songs help you through hard times i get emotional on some songs but that's how you know my pain real. Hope you enjoy it”

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Everyday I wake up I’m learning to do better

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She really pulled up to my dream and kissed me goodbye lol. She was so beautiful in the light I always remember her being in. The way she cared and presented herself was so attractive I couldn’t keep my eyes off her. She spent the whole dream with me didn’t disappear until it was completely over. Wasn’t really much said but I texted her “I miss her” and seen her in a room full of people but I see her clear as day. “Why you say that?” she said. “You’re the only person on my mind 24/7 feel like i can’t breathe without you” I replied. She chuckled and blushed just as I used to remember she did in reality. We kissed one last time and just embraced each other’s hearts close to each other until I awoke from my fantasy. First thing I did when I got up was play this song I wrote for her because…i just couldn’t wait to see you again…..but she don’t want to see me again.

This is the song if you wanna hear my soul hurt lol

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I knew i defeated depression when I got into bed today after getting my heart shattered again, watching my car fail me again, watching people fail me again and i didn’t complain or explode wit emotions I spoke my truth and learned from my mistakes. I went to bed with a clear conscience free to peacefully fall into a dream I’m sure I’m gonna enjoy lol. I’m happy i don’t need to depend on no one for my sanity no girl, no drugs, just me. I earned this, the will to live again and I got myself to thank for it 💜

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What to do if you find yourself homless- written by someone who has actually been homeless

Most important: Spend the money you have on a motel. Churches probably will not actually help and shelters can be dangerous or turn you away. At a motel you have free breakfast, access to running water, and a lockable place to sleep. Do not waste money on a gym membership like the popular version of this post says to do, YMCA memberships are like $40.

2. Contact family and friends. Now is not the time to worry about being a burden. Your survival and safety comes first and that is all that matters, anyone worth having in your life will agree.

3. Start a gofundme. Even if someone can’t offer you a place to stay, they might be willing to toss out $5 so you can eat today.

4. Libraries have free wifi. Apply to any and all jobs you can think of if you aren’t already working.

5. Any home is a good home. Even if it’s a dingy apartment in a bad neighborhood. If its cheap and you can afford it, snatch it up. 

6. Pancake mix and peanut butter are filling, cheap, and last a long time.

PLEASE SHARE THE FUCK OUT OF THIS

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“The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much and forgetting that you are special too.”

Ernst Hemingway

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Once the pain you feel is internal and emotional only thing that seems logical is to rip your heart out

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I’m about to break my heart why did I send her a friend request? What makes me think that she’ll actually miss me? Am I a dummy? I might be for love I’m not gonna lie lol

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You ever met someone so perfect for you that it terrified you into ghosting that person?

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Sometimes you gotta lie to get where you wanna be because people won’t like the way you’re moving
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I pray nobody thinks I’m “woke” now because I’m still learning about myself still reading to educate myself to live a better life etc I really want to find a way to help everyone through the darkness because I lived there for 10+ years before I ran into the light. It only takes one person to make a difference in someone else’s life and you probably already have them your vision is probably just too cloudy to see it clearly

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Like i really want to let someone know I cried tears of joy for the first time ever because I came so fucking far but I know if I go and post that on fb somebody gonna try to make a joke out of something I was serious about lmao nothing wrong wit it i just know where not to post my reality

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Ight so I’m officially back on here for a while but I’m different I’m no longer depressed I see the world differently but one thing i don’t like is social media but tumblr is the only place I feel is still authentic and not tainted by popular people who just post shit to be likable everyone expresses themselves so freely on here I love it

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Finally getting my life on track but…smh why is there always a “but” why can’t I just be satisfied with what’s in front of me and worry about my wants later I got everything I need rn 🤦🏾‍♂️

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Finally got my first badge I feel like ash rn 😭😭

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I need a new outlet to vent I got out of the mindset of depression but I have no idea what I want to do now I guess I should go live more huh lol