Been posting a lot of depressing posts on here in the past year about everything I wanted to say without anybody locally knowing who I was and I love tumblr for that. Just wanted to share the music that was made from my depression, hope anyone going through a hard time makes it to tomorrow to see better days to come. “This mixtape is pretty much my struggle from 18-23 just trying to get my life together going through break ups, broken bonds, and disloyalty. i made it solely just to vent because i didn't want to talk to nobody about what i was going through, so i vented through music something that's always been there since i was a kid. Hopefully some of you relate and one of my songs help you through hard times i get emotional on some songs but that's how you know my pain real. Hope you enjoy it”
I need a new outlet to vent I got out of the mindset of depression but I have no idea what I want to do now I guess I should go live more huh lol
Tell me why I get a job with my boy 45-an hour away from my house and I only got the job because of my boy is taking me to work everyday cause we work the same shift. I’ve waited 2-3 months looking for a job because my car is broke down and my parents think even 25 minutes away is too far to try to help me get to work. But tell me why now that I’m no longer expecting help from them I tell them don’t help me with ANYTHING I’m 100 percent independent I’ll buy my own soap if I have too & they have the nerve to tell me they’ll help me get to work 😑. You let me sit on my ass for 3 months trying to get a job under your circumstances and did nothing but deny my offers but now I no longer need them and they “want to help me be successful” if they don’t get this backwards ass energy away from me I literally dread waking up in the house because I feel there bad energy. You know how much of an emotional wreck I have been just trying to please them and when I finally do shit on my own they want to help fuck type of shit is that
🎶 The Ultimate Music Ask Game! 🎶
1. Are you an albums person or a singles person?
2. Do you still buy CDs (or other physical media)?
3. Do you listen to more oldies or more current stuff?
4. Is there a song you love but don't like its music video?
5. Is there a song you don't like but like its music video?
6. Who's an artist you really like but it's embarrassed to admit it?
7. Would you wear a t-shirt of a band you're not into?
8. Is there an artist or song that you like, despite being of a genre you don't usually like?
9. Do you have a favorite band?
10. Favorite solo artist?
11. Favorite songwriter?
12. Who’s the most obscure artist you listen to?
13. Who’s the most popular/mainstream artist you listen to?
14. A song or album from the 50s or earlier:
15. A song or album from the 60s:
16. A song or album from the 70s:
17. A song or album from the 80s:
18. A song or album from the 90s:
19. A song or album from the 2000s:
20. A song or album from the 2010s:
21. A song or album from this year or last year:
22. What’s your favorite song or album from the year you where born?
23. Do you and your partner/best friend share a special song? One you’d call “our song”?
24. Do you play any instruments?
25. Is there a song you used to like but can’t listen to anymore because you associate it with someone you don’t like?
26. Have you ever pretended to like an artist/song just to fit in or please somebody?
27. Do you enjoy making playlists? If so, are there any you’re proud of and would like to share?
28. Have you ever made/got a mixtape as gift to/from a friend?
29. Songs you love to dance to:
30. Songs you love to sing along to:
31. Who’s your favorite fictional band or artist?
32. When was the last time you cried when listening to a song, if ever?
33. Your favorite artist from your city/state/country?
34. Your favorite song in your native language (if it isn’t English) OR in your second language (if English is your first):
35. A song you like in a language you don’t speak:
36. A song you like with lyrics in two or more languages:
37. If you could travel in time and go to a concert of an artist who’s no longer alive or a band that’s no longer together, who would you choose?
38. Which was the first concert you went to?
39. Which was the last concert you went to?
40. Which was the best concert you’ve ever been to?
41. Have you ever been to a music festival? If not, would you like to go?
42. Your favorite(s) “no skips” album(s):
43. Do you enjoy musicals? If so, what’s your favorite?
44. Have you watched any musician’s biopics? Do you have a favorite?
45. A non-musical movie or show with a soundtrack you love:
46. Do you like comedy songs? If so, do you have a favorite?
47. Is there an artist you used to dislike but learned to like because of a friend’s influence?
48. Who’s an artist you think it’s criminally underrated and deserves more recognition?
49. Is there a cover you like more than the original version?
50. Is there an artist you used to love as a child/teenager but now is embarrassed to have ever liked?
51. Is there an artist you used to love as a child/teenager and still likes, even if you don’t listen to them as much?
52. Do you make playlists to be listened to in a specific order or in shuffle? Or both?
53. Is there a song you hated the first time you listened to but then loved after listening to it more times?
54. An album you loved since the first time you listened to:
55. An album you learned to love after listening to it again and again:
56. A song/album/artist you wish you could forget so you could have the experience of hearing it for the first time again:
57. [Send me a color and I'll tell you the first song it reminded me of.]
58. [Send me a song and I'll tell you the colors it made me think of, without looking at cover arts or music videos.] *Bonus: if you like making palettes, make one based on the song!
59. Do you listen to music when it's raining or do you stop to hear the sound of the rain?
60. [Send me a song and I'll tell you what time of the day or season of the year it made me think of.]
61. [Make me choose between two artists/songs/albums.]
62. Artists/bands you think have an impeccable discography, with no bad albums:
63. Do you prefer live recordings or studio recordings?
64. [Send me a color and I’ll post an album cover art of that color.]
65. Are there any songs you know the entire lyrics by heart?
66. Share your favorite playlists that you or someone else has made!
Sometimes you gotta leave reality and enter your bubble of solitude in order to figure out what you truly want to do
I’m sad ashell because the reality is I’ll never get back what I put out and i just gotta be cool with it. I’m almost healed from my past cause i just accepted everything for what it is with no regrets but how long am I gonna be the only person who shows myself some love? Why do I still feel like i just need an embrace from another human being if they don’t care for me the same? It’s a miserable feeling but sooner or later I’ll just get over the fact that I’m a loner and just live
this healing shit take forever don't it
Tell me about it
Wrote 3 love letters and 2 songs to a girl that don’t need me. But if it was up to me I’d be with her every 4 seasons.
“I like to listen. I have learnt a lot from listening carefully. Most people never listen.”
— Ernest Hemingway
Had a dream about my brothers birthday because it’s literally today but in the dream they threw him a surprise party and I was the only one that wasn’t excited or anything because I was being forced to be there but I tried until we started playing this game that I wasn’t paying attention to the rules about and ended up ruining everyone’s time so i just left and went upstairs to be in my room just to find a whole bunch of chaos going on upstairs with just a whole bunch of random people I grew up with my house changed with some wild remodeling and I literally was looking for my room until I woke up it’s pretty weird but that’s how you know my mind doesn’t find any good in being in social gatherings and when you just want to escape sometimes there isn’t one
Wishing I could tell you what’s going on…
If I didn’t make music daily life would be 10x harder
Trying to forget her is like throwing my passion for music away I just can’t bro 🤦🏾♂️
I’m to the point where I don’t think I’ll find another girl that I view as perfection but everyone has flaws so I should’ve never put her so high on that pedestal maybe I wouldn’t care so much but that’s just how I’ve been feeling for the past couple months
Wish I could’ve met Mac Miller when he was still here..his swimming album was my first album purchase ever and it’s just crazy as I grew older I feel all the depression things in his postpartum album circles that was really my idol I used to want to be as happy as Mac was but turns out we always felt exactly the same since faces