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Anonymous asked:
I know you had an ED for a bit but could you talk about it? I feel like I'm struggling and I don't know a lot of guys who are open about that type of thing and I'm unsure if it's something I'm struggling with...
Yeah, I’m pretty open about it. I struggle with body image a lot, just like a lot of people. Add in the depression/anxiety (which I’m also open about) and I got mentally beaten down into thinking I didn’t matter unless I was lean or skinny. At the time I was wresting with issues surrounding the Military and had gained a lot of weight while still trying to re-enlist after getting medically separated from the Marines for a medical condition I do not have.
I lost about half my bodys worth of weight in just under 5 months(~250->132) because I had a severe exercise addiction (cardio 4-5x a day for hours) and was eating well under 700 calories. This lasted a couple of years.
The thing that really gets me and still got me is that no one, except my girlfriend at the time, really said anything. Everyone said stuff like “You look great!” and no one cared how I was doing it. She stepped up a few times and said she was worried and I usually got really, really defensive.
Eventually, I got back in the service and gained some weight back but still was way underweight. I was eating..better but not well enough.
I was still only about 150lbs when that picture was taken and those two pictures are about a year and change apart. The reason I bring up service at all was because a lot of my life was tied into it. It’s a long story for another time, but it kept me in a really toxic place (and still does admittedly).
But then people started commenting that I got too “small” and needed to get bigger and all I wanted was to just fit in and feel attractive and accepted. So, I did. I started doing basterdized bodybuilding type stuff and got up to about 165. I still ate like shit and was really unhappy.
Then I discovered Powerlifting a few months later. I liked it. I wanted more. It made me happy. I decided I was tired of eating like a rabbit and wanted to enjoy myself. I commited to getting as strong as I could and doing it for me.
Fast forward two years from that point and now Im ~210 pounds and my best all time lifts just breached the 1500 barrier yesterday. Something I never thought I’d get close too. I still struggle a ton with my body image but I’m a lot happier because of it. I’ve learned that I’m not going to kill myself for other people. I’ve tried to do that enough myself over the years and if people only are going to like me based on my bf% or my height or how developed a particular muscle group can get, then those people are not worth my time.
My tip to you is dump the toxicity. Talk about it. Come to terms with it a little. Life is too short to spend it hating yourself and trying to please other people all the time at the sacrifice of your health and sanity.
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myheart-istheworstkindofweapon
The Money Tubbs only comes around every 5628 seconds. Reblog the Money Tubbs and you’ll find money!
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OMG, that’s so fucking cool! Someone from the science side of Tumblr needs to come along and tell me what’s going on here!
howardphillipslovecraft
the bubble is freezing you fucking idiot
thank u science side of tumblr
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stuff we should leave in 2015
1) fucked up hairlines: leave your shitty barber if he leave ur shit crooked or if that shit start growing back in in two days my nigga. he fuckin you up for life, fuck that nigga. shit you could be helping him out since being a barber ain’t his calling. help him find his way. bless up.
2) read receipts off: turn them shits on. who tf gon check you for not responding to a message on a phone that you pay for? own that shit my nigga. yeah bitch i read your message three days ago. no i have not responded, be blessed.
3) going through phones: lemme tell you, your woman/man/etc. is gonna cheat on you if that’s what tf they wanna do. and if they’re smart, they will have already cleared the shit out of the phone anyway. why stress yourself out behind somebody you can’t trust? fuck that shit, leave they ass hangin if you really feel like they’re cheating on you (cuz your gut is usually right)- thank me later. even if they weren’t, at least you can sleep easy now not stressing bout their shady ass my nigga. bless up.
4) feeling bad about your body and not doing anything about it: put down that triple mcchicken and large fry and pick up an apple. drink as much water as you can every single day. go to the gym, work off your anger. watch your body change and shit. or stop complaining about it to everybody around you. bless up.
5) pretending to fuck with people you don’t fuck with: bruh fuck that nigga, fuck that bitch. don’t be a phony ass hoe, cut they ass off. stop tryna “save face”, stop tryna keep people comfortable while you aint comfortable. you’re number 1 my nigga, remember that. bless up.
6) lying to protect feelings: ay man, that shit don’t help nobody. you not sorry? don’t say you sorry. does this shirt look nice on me? no the fuck it does not. you think this haircut fits my face? no the fuck it does not. you got some extra cash i can borrow? no bitch, you ain’t gimme my money back last time. do i look fat in this? yes bitch you gained weight (see previous post). do you like this song i just wrote? no it’s garbage, get a different job. all this lying we’re doing is just making everybody soft. be straight up, be blessed.
7) contemplating sending ‘that’ text: send that shit my nigga. you typed it up so you really feel that shit. fuck what text you get back, don’t be a scared ass bitch. let it fly. bless up.
8) staying stuck with the same music: broaden your horizons, artists and producers work hard to put shit out there for us to hear. listen. i mean dump it if it’s trash, but listen tho. bless up.
9) hating on stoners: don’t waste your energy… we too high to gaf. be blessed, roll a j.
10) tryna control everything: you only control yourself fam, stop stressing. worry about you, let everybody else do their thing - especially if their thing don’t affect you. mind your business. bless up.
11) asking for head with stanky smelling genitalia: fuckin wash yourself yo. niggas asking for head with sweaty gym balls, bitches wanting head with pussy that smell like a pacific ocean full of dead fish. tf they do that at? you want somebody to get down there and take the soul from your body but they bout to die from toxic fumes. that aint poppin my nigga, take a bath, change your diet, groom your genitals. or be abstinent. bless up.
12) raw fucking people that you can’t co-parent with: wrap up, pop a pill. don’t ruin a kid’s life behind a quick nut. bless up.
13) hyping up people’s sex: be straight up bruh. stop having these niggas thinking they’re sex gods. stop having these hoes thinking their pussy is life-changing. if the sex is trash the sex is fuckin trash b. not saying you gotta leave em, but uh… the sex is trash. sex is important. be blessed.
14) slut shaming: if that lady wants to fuck, let her fuck. stop being salty cuz she won’t fuck you. bless up.
15) not using coconut oil: use that shit, be blessed.
16) being scared: do your thing fam. take that step. shoot your shot. stop thinking your current situation is permanent. that grass could be greener my nigga. i mean it might be brown and trashy, but it could be green af with flowers and shit. man up, woman up, bless up.
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😂😂
Belgian architect group, Gijs Van Vaerenbergh, built a church in Belgium, and it’s pretty plain from certain angles. From others, the structure reveals itself to be something else entirely: a building that’s almost entirely see through.
The project, named “Reading Between the Lines,” is a composition of 100 layers of stacked steel, that are equidistantly staggered in a way that illusively change in appearance based on where the viewer is standing.
Holy crap, I’d love to see that in person.
sadorfdreaming
Awesome!
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Reblog In 5 seconds for good luck
seitanickush
this worked last night lets go for round two
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This picture is in time with the average heart rate. What you’re hearing is the sound of your blood pumping, which you aren’t normally aware of. This picture tricks your mind into making yourself aware of your heart rate, so you hear it.
Whaaaat
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wordsnquotes
You only really fall apart in front of the people you know can piece you back together.
Sarah Dessen, Saint Anything ( (via wordsnquotes)
Source: wordsnquotes.com
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$980,000/4 br
SLC, UT
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Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other
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Yes please.
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