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"Vakriti Evam Prakriti" (Even that which is unnatural is natural)

garak being a kind and soft person at his core, while still being able to kill people and sleep at night are important, coexisting parts of his contradictory personality and are big reasons for why he's so compelling, but so difficult to write

garak can feel guilt and shame, garak can premeditatively kill without thinking twice about it after the fact.

garak can feel legitimate regret in empok nor for actions that werent really his own, and he can sleep like a baby after destroying vreenak's shuttle.

necessary deaths don't mean a thing to him. not even when that death is his own. (broken link)

They closed the Death Wendy's over a year ago and I'm still mad about it. It was a Wendy's located in the middle of a six-way intersection, requiring many pedestrians to cross the street 3 times in a row in order to get to it

It was one of the city's top ten spots for car crashes, multiple people died there, and the service was terrible. I miss it dearly

daily affirmations:

i am kind

i am in control of my emotions

it does not bother me when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

everyone in the house has the right to be in the kitchen

i am kind and in control of my emotions even when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

something genuinely insane about going somewhere and getting to feel “i had some of the worst years of my life here” and “i was loved here, once” simultaneously.

the structure rots and the plants reclaim. But i remember

the dutch bike helmet discourse is still so funny. scores of indignant dutch people going on about how they dont need to wear helmets because everybody is used to bike based stuff and knows how to handle themselves, periodically interjected by people who work in emergency rooms in the netherlands talking about how many cases of bike fall related head trauma they see regularly.

dutch person: unlike you stupid americans, we have ample bike infrastructure and everybody knows how to navigate bike lanes

dutch ER worker: half of the people i treat are in the ER because they cracked their head on the pavement. my job would be easier if our country wore helmets.

a client mailed me a customized wig head for a helmet style wig commission and you’ll never guess which famous tumblr post has happened to me

it’s supposed to get here tomorrow but I’m nervous in case it fucks off to Guam again for yet another tropical vacation

too cool to jerk off to pictures of women with impossible hip to waist ratios yet not cool enough to jerk off to the concept of being killed, the rōnin pervert wanders this land in search of a slightly-higher-concept yet not totally abstract form of fetish posting

i love this. penultimate episode of naddpod (campaign 1). every character is getting the chance to have very sweet personal asides about what the future might look like for them after the big battle. but thirty minutes before the end our storied dungeon master brian murphy said ☝️ hold on. one last thing. we're not getting out of the story yet. not without confirming that jaina bronzebeard. undefeated dwarven wrestling champion. beloved npc of over 60 episodes. eats box

i’ve been thinking a lot about emily axford recently (as one does) and this maybe just because i’ve also been relistening to naddpod constantly (and falling asleep to it which has definitely caused some emily related stress dreams??).

she is so concerned and considerate of the way she presents herself as a character (ex. apologizing for the beautiful emotional moment in clo ho) while also being the most party focused player at any table. then assholes on the internet have the gaul to sit on their screens and type about how she is too “chaotic” or “takes focus” or whatever. izzy was so right, it’s just exhausting to exist and excel as a woman. she’s so genuinely good at this game, she adapts in every environment genuinely cares about the story and her party. not to mention how well timed and deeply funny she is as an improviser. emily axford succeeds with such force it continues to knock murph and brennan back in ways they both consistently say they deeply admire. it’s wild to be at the top of your field while being told you’re climbing too high…

also she’s beautiful and impeccably dressed always.

ideal living situation is what i call the 'sitcom special' : having all your closest friends live in the same apartment building or neighborhood where you each have your own space but can wander in and out of eachothers homes at will, seemingly always welcome and never at bad times. and also all of you only have jobs when its important to the plot.

Adding to this: the convenient yet seemingly affordable 3rd space to congregate at that is convenient for everyone

what annoys me about explaining evolution to people who don’t think it’s real is that everyone’s idea of how it works seems to be from this

Whereas the reality is far more like

Was not expecting this many of you to resonate with Millennium Death Plinko