I don’t think anybody still reads these

but i’m only ever on this site anymore to scream into the void

I don’t really know where else to put this

I don't understand people at all. I think today was good though

i’m up to a week without nicotine again, one more day and i’m back up to a record. i have been smoking a lo less weed over the past couple weeks too. i think it’s pretty good for me to not wake up, immediately start smoking weed and then just keep doing that until i go to sleep

also if i quit smoking entirely i’ll save like $400 a month.  I want a car, I want to be able to just...go.  I’m starting to feel hopeful.

One of my friends moved close to her

She's lonely so they're going to be friends

She said she would fight her if she saw her and I knew it was a lie when it was coming out of her mouth

Still hurts

Every once in a while I try to convince myself I'm emotionally well adjusted

What a sick fucking joke

i woke up way too early and cried for like 20 minutes

you know things are good.