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I’m not a poet. I’m just a woman.

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20-something // she/her // about // gg tags
summer's begun: 1. everybody wants to rule the world - tears for fears “welcome to your life, there’s no turning back”  2. island in the sun - weezer “we'll never feel bad anymore” 3. nine in the afternoon - panic at the disco “‘man, it feels good to feel this way'" 4. alright - supergrass “are we like you? i can't be sure” wishin' they were us: 5. rich girl - gwen stefani “i hope you can all keep up” 6. can’t get enough of myself - santigold “living a, living a fantasy” 7. teenage dream - katy perry “you and i, will be young forever” 8. that’s what i like - bruno mars “all this is here for you” 9. poker face - lady gaga “a little gamblin' is fun when you're with me” uncomfortably numb: 10. gimme more - britney spears “they want more? well, I'll give them more” 11. we r who we r - kesha “i'm so sick of being so serious” 12. sos - rihanna “it's not healthy... for me to feel this way” 13. all night - chance the rapper “now i can't really hear what you gotta say now” 14. ride wit me - nelly “oh, why do i live this way?" 15. super rich kids - frank ocean “super rich kids with nothing but loose ends” the summertime blues: 16. oxford comma - vampire weekend “why would you speak to me that way?” 17. belle - jack johnson “so you'll have to speak to me some other way” 18. golden - harry styles “i don't wanna be alone” 19. be ok - ingrid michaelson “i just want to feel something today" 20. this must be the place (naive melody) - talking heads “home, is where i want to be but i guess i'm already there”

The thing about seward calling Renfield "friend" is that I think he means it, in the most paternalistic and annoying way possible. He also calls him "my pet lunatic" at a point, again earnestly. He's trying to invoke intimacy - a feeling of "I truly get him" - without realising that intimacy requires actual emotional investment and equality of treatment, otherwise its just a violation.

See. I think hes earnest because it's the same exact language that Van Helsing uses with him (friend john, pet student). Jack is trying to repeat the attitude Van Helsing had towards him because he sees himself as Renfield's guide towards sanity or at least a better understanding, without realising its the quality of the relationship that he had with Van Helsing that is different and made that attitude appropriate.

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On a more serious note, Jack calling Renfield “his friend” and referring to Renfield’s captured-to-be-fodder critters as “his pets” have the same euphemistically twisted energy to them.

I'm happy to see all the meta this year, re: the parallels between Jonathan and Dracula at the castle versus Renfield and Seward at the asylum bc last year, it wasn't really a popular topic of analysis from what I remember, and without spoiling anything, I do think doing a read-through of Dracula last year put Renfield in a different light on a re-read, and it's honestly a relief to see Renfield being treated with more respect and sympathy this time around, as opposed to him being a joke character, prop for Seward's storyline, or his mental illness being stigmatized as something that makes him evil, creepy, and undeserving of sympathy and compassion.

Likewise, as someone who does like Seward as a complex and very flawed character, I'm glad to see more discussion about the way he and Dracula are foils to each other instead of such posts being dismissed as character slander - a lot of characters in the novel parallel Dracula in unique ways, so it's a legitimate topic of analysis if approached in good faith! - as well as viewing his treatment of Renfield in a more critical light bc while he isn't actively malicious in terms of intent, it was a little frustrating last year to see some of that critique reduced to how it's unfair to hold him to modern standards when his actions still nevertheless caused harm and some Victorian contemporaries would have seen them as wrong, not to mention that many of our 'modern' standards regarding mental illness are not progressive at all.

GOSSIP GIRL AU (prompted by breathsoftruth): Blair as a vampire, Dan as her fragile human lover

Blair Waldorf, New York vampire royalty, has everything she wants: wealth, immortality, and a string of disposable humans to feed on. Until she meets one human, a writer with annoying hair and excellent punctuation who she feels a strange connection with.

So maybe she doesn’t want to kill Dan just yet. That doesn’t have to mean anything! Two people from such different worlds could never be friends, let alone anything more. And the all-powerful Queen B could never give her heart to such an easily breakable human… let alone one who lives in Brooklyn. Could she?

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Omg congrats on 600 followers! Honestly any fake dating with Jonah x Amy would be amazing, although I love number 44 and/or 48 on your Google Docs <333

This is my first Jonah x Amy fic and I offer two caveats: 1) I’m still not sure if there is a particular vibe people who read for this pairing preferring, so...here we are, and 2) I have only made it through 4x12 of Superstore but am pretty familiar w/ what happens the rest of the series. 

Prompt: “You know we’re not actually dating, so why did you propose to me in front of my family?” / “I’m sorry, I panicked.” --- Title: the scene of the complication Fandom: Superstore Pairing: Jonah/Amy Other Characters: My crippling insecurity writing for a new fandom, sleep soft mornings, dumbs being dumb (but, like in a cute way) Additional Tags: friends to lovers (or idiots to friends to lovers??), fake dating shenanigans, alternative universe where Amy’s HS pregnancy test was negative and she and Jonah met in college Word Count: ~2,100 ---

It started with a chance meeting ten years ago, and somehow it’s brought Amy Sosa here: awake in her childhood room with Jonah Simms beside her, sleeping off upwards of half a dozen tequila shots. Maybe she shouldn’t be surprised. She knew that day they met in the lecture hall that Jonah was a person who would make her life exceedingly more complicated. 

And ten years later, here they are, practically leaving complicated behind in the rear view mirror. 

(“What are two hopes and one fear you have for your first lecture on your first day of college?” the guy sitting to her right asks. 

Amy doesn’t answer at first but this stranger just waits for her, all blinking, bright eyes and freshman eagerness. It’s barely morning. Is this her life now? 

“Hope one,” she says, holding up a finger, “that I’d sit next to someone quiet. Hope two,” she holds up another, “that no one would talk to me before I managed to find coffee.” She holds up a third finger. “And this moment right here is what I feared.” 

For some reason, her shortness delights him. His smile is open and affectionate, and he nods in appreciation. 

“Noted.” 

And Amy fully intends to never speak to this wide-eyed panda boy ever again, but then their General Psychology professor informs the class that the person they’re sitting next to will be their assignment partner for the semester. 

The next lecture her partner – his name is Jonah, she learns – brings her a cup of coffee and doesn’t speak a word until she takes a long sip. 

Complicated.)

Jonah snuffles in his sleep, his eyelids fluttering slightly. His hair is doing that thing it does when he’s hot or drunk or has run a hand through it too many times, where a single lock of hair hangs in the middle of his forehead. Amy resists the very real urge to brush it away. Because, yeah, she has those kinds of thoughts a lot and they also make things complicated. They’re friends. Maybe even best-friends, but definitely not ‘tenderly brush a lock of your hair away’ friends. 

Do those kinds of friends even exist? 

Jonah stirs again, and now that it’s clear he’s actually waking up, Amy reaches for her phone and opens Candy Crush. The last thing she needs is to get caught staring at him like some weird stalker.

“Oh, god,” he groans, his voice scratchy. He stretches out with another groan, his foot bumping against Amy’s as he does. Rather than move away, he kind of just rests it there on top of hers. And this is something she is all too familiar with. Drunk and/or hungover Jonah is yet another complication. More accurately, his propensity to cuddle indiscriminately is a very real complication. 

“I need—” Amy reaches for the glass of water on her night stand and hands it to Jonah, stopping him mid-thought. “Do you have—?” She hands him two ibuprofen. “Thank you,” he says. 

“You’re welcome.” She looks back at her phone. 

Jonah swallows the two pills and drinks the entire glass of water, and then lays back down, curling slightly into Amy’s side.  

“I made so many mistakes last night,” he says.

“I’m aware. As are your 80 Instagram followers.” 

“I liveblogged it?” 

“And tagged everything with the hashtag ‘best noche ever.’” He groans again and turns his face into Amy’s side. She sets her phone back on the nightstand. “What got into you?” 

god ryan murphy really doesn't give a shit huh. truly so fucking sick of this dude

bro......… this whole thing is SO fucking sick. dude is just out here straight up lying and threatening to destroy the lives of anyone who dares to speak out against him because he knows he has enough money and power in the industry to do whatever the fuck he wants. THREE shows currently in production and there's supposedly no writing at all happening on any of them so it doesn't count as scabbing? jesus fucking christ get fucked dude

“What is it that the child has to teach?

The child naively believes that everything should be fair and everyone should be honest, that only good should prevail, that everybody should have what they want and there should be no pain or sadness. The child believes the world should be perfect and is outraged to discover it is not.

And the child is right.”

— Rabbi Tzvi Freeman

“Westerners are fond of the saying ‘Life isn’t fair.’ Then, they end in snide triumphant: ‘So get used to it!’ What a cruel, sadistic notion to revel in! What a terrible, patriarchal response to a child’s budding sense of ethics. Announce to an Iroquois, ‘Life isn’t fair,’ and her response will be: ‘Then make it fair!’” –Barbara Alice Mann