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“How to start living: 1. Sit down 2. Pick up the pencil, the red pen your teacher failed you with, the marker that still won’t come out of your mom’s favorite rug, the hot pink crayola crayon that resembles the color of your wall in the 3rd grade when you decided you would be the girliest girl on the planet, the charcoal you used when you decided that you wanted to be an artist, anything in reach. 3. Write a list of all the things you would do if you weren’t scared. Write it in the notes of your phone, in the spare page of your planner, on your bathroom mirror, on the too white walls of your bedroom, the construction paper your niece draws on, the prayer box you keep in the glove compartment of your car, the acknowledgement page of your favorite book, the embarrassing poster of your teenage idols, anywhere that’s there’s space. It doesn’t matter. Every embarrassing, half cocked, foolish, idealistic, plain stupid item. Write it down. 4. Cross off an item today. 5. Then tomorrow. 6. And the day after that.”

• eat chocolate
• listen to music
• order pizza
• buy new clothes
• watch movies
• masturbate

“You’re great daydream material”

“i thought about kissing you today and yesterday and the day before that. i know i’ll think about kissing you tomorrow and the day after that and some more days after those days. i think about kissing you slowly and tracing my fingers along your lips. i think about kissing you in your car, in the rain, on your doorstep. i think about kissing your dimple, your cheek, your spot. i think about kissing only you, not anyone else, just you.”