wannabe skinny queen

Day 5: why do I really want to lose weight?

I want to lose weight because I’m tired of avoiding mirrors, not going shopping. I want to feel worthy when I walk into a room of beautiful women. I want to sit down and not feel like I look pregnant. I want to be able to squeeze between the desk in my classrooms without shoving all the desks apart bc I’m way too big. I want to wear cute clothes and take cute pictures and have people want to take cute candids of me. I want to take pictures in my amazing makeup and feel like I look beautiful.

Day 4: greatest fears about losing weight

My greatest fear would be losing weight and then gaining all of it back. It’s so hard to lose as much weight as I have to lose and it would be so easy to gain it back with my tendency to binge.

Day 3- thinspiration

I tend to really like the pictures of people’s flat stomachs. I think it’s because even when I was at my lowest weight I never had a flat stomach and it’s what I find attractive when looking at another girl. I also love her fishnets and how they sit so perfectly, if I tried to wear fishnets I would look like a sausage

Day 2: height

I’m 5’3 so I’m pretty short. I do like being so small but the disadvantage is that there’s no way my excess weight can spread out. Like if I’m just a little bit over weight I’ll still look like a whale but if I was like 5’11 maybe it’d be easier to hide my weight. But I don’t know because I’ve obviously never been tall.

Day 1: Your stats

I’m 5’3 and 220 pounds. 3 months ago I weighed 260 and was absolutely miserable. Today I’m still disgusting but definitely look better 40 pounds lighter.... many more to go though. My goal weight is 130 but I’m sure I’ll change it when I get there