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Beam me up! Before you go go

@stephanidftba / stephanidftba.tumblr.com

I've had a Tumblr since 2011, that's how old I am 💙 they/them pronouns 💙 StephaniD on Ao3

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ATTENTION all Garashir girlies, particularly those of you who like to do the "make Cardassians more reptilian" redraws, and all the Gornfuckers in Star Trek fandom... right-wing assholes on Twitter have been trying to replace Pride Month with "Dinosaur Month" and made it a hashtag (#DinosaurMonth). Predictably, the tag has filled up with dino art in the colors of various pride flags, paleontolgists reminding everyone that their profession is full of LGBTQ+ people and allies, etc. but no one seems to be drawing any porn... YET.

Obviously this must be rectified. ASAP. The tag won't be fully reclaimed until we start posting the things that make the homophobes and transphobes cry and start abandoning it. So your time has come, scalies: get on Twitter and flood it with Julian Bashir impaling Big Dino Garak and Kirk eating Gorn cloaca. And obviously this goes for any other fandom where people are into fucking dinosaurs. Jojo fans, fill it with Diego Brando getting laid. Fire Emblem fans, have Rhea in dragon form motorboating Edelgard. This is what the Internet is good for and we must use it to its full potential, just like we flooded the anti-abortion headline with Shrek and furry porn. Because DINOSAURS ARE GAY.

Remember how i nearly got murdered?

Well I haven't! Surprisingly...

Anyway sarcasm and eye catching title aside, I'm going to make this as short and sweet as possible. In 2019 a man managed to raise 8k euro in order to try and have my wife and I killed for trying to help our good friend leave him. Flash forward to now and said good friend is in desperate need of a new wheelchair because of covid messing with medicine supplies. I'd sincerely like to believe that if that man can raise that much money to kill me then I should be able to raise a fraction of that amount to help the person I'm literally ride or die for.

If you want to help or just want more details including a news article, I encourage you to click on the gofundme below. If you can't support directly I sincerely ask that you help me with this goal by spreading this around. Thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope you all have the best of days.

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we should globally ban the introduction of more powerful computer hardware for 10-20 years, not as an AI safety thing (though we could frame it as that), but to force programmers to optimize their shit better

I reblogged this like 9 times kinda jokingly, but software should be able to run on older and less powerful hardware, and consume less power on newer hardware. Like, this is a real problem imo

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that alphabet completionist blog has activated something in me so now i think i'm just gonna start making posts where it seems like a quirky little joke at first except underneath i subtly try to include all the letters. already made one but it didn't catch on so now i have to make more. i realize this might be a bit silly and pointless of me but i don't care. i wanna win the alphabet

you could at least tag me if you want to suck my dick

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ

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For anyone who finds themselves getting overwhelmed, to the point where you cannot move and your thoughts are extremely loud, I want you to know that you're not alone.

When you're stuck in that state of mind it can be unbelievably scary, and it's always okay to take a moment, and recollect yourself.

Remember to focus on your breath, and try not to let your brain spiral into negative thoughts. You're going to be okay, and it's completely alright to be overwhelmed from time to time, the world can be very, very stressful.

Please don't ever feel guilty for taking time to recharge.

When I mentioned my (apparently hot) take that I believe self-diagnosed people are valid, I got a handful of (my first!!!) hate comments.

So I thought I'd elaborate.

People who are self-diagnosed with anything might just end up being default settings. That's okay. What's not okay is denying someone aid on the basis that they don't have a diagnosis.

I always carry earplugs because a bunch of my friends have auditory sensory issues. None of them are diagnosed with anything, but I've helped them through panic attacks nonetheless.

If a stranger came up to me at a loud event and, seeing I have earplugs, asked for a pair, I wouldn't hesitate to give them. Don't bother giving them back, I buy in bulk.

Maybe that person was a neurotypical with sensitive ears, or maybe they were an autistic person with auditory sensory issues. I'll never know. But if my response was, "Do you have autism?" that would just make me a jerk. If their response was "Yes," and I then demanded paperwork as proof of their autism and therefore eligibility for ear plugs? That would mean I'm violating their privacy.

One of my friends had a panic attack at a loud event where she was working, and someone took her shift without question when they asked if she was okay and she said she wasn't. That's being a cool person. Saying "Well, you're not diagnosed with autism," and refusing to help her on that basis while she is clearly in distress is not cool. Even if she is neurotypical, anyone in distress merits help. Just because someone can swim doesn't mean they need breaks to keep from drowning, and refusing them a lifesaver on those grounds is just being a jerk, especially if there's no one else who could use the metaphorical lifesaver.

One of the main reasons I'm pursuing being a psychiatrist is so I can give my friends the diagnoses that I know would make their lives easier. I have the privilege to be diagnosed. They do not. I want to help give people free therapy and diagnoses since, at least in the United States, money is a huge barrier keeping people from diagnoses.

I have a totally irrational bundle of self-hatred for not jumping off the 50-foot diving board at the local water park. Like I’m fucking ten.

I don’t want to but the fact that I cannot simply command myself to do it and have my body obey pisses me off. I’m the boss!!! You can’t wimp out on me!!! Now I HAVE to do it to show my shaking knees and racing heart who’s in charge!

would it be cheating to hire a sex worker just to come to the water park with me to cheer me on and say “you can do it I believe in you”

“don’t you have a partner” yes but my partner is a reasonable person who would probably say things like “you don’t have to do this if you don’t enjoy it” or “I will love you even if you do not jump off the scary platform and hurt your nose” which is not the kind of healthy rational supportiveness I need to do stupid things I don’t want to do

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“The first Gay Pride flag was made in 1978 by a man named Gilbert Baker. He gave a meaning to each color.”
Beginners (2010) - Directed by Mike Mills

this doesn’t have a fake answer and i know earnest polls get reblogged less. but uh…… what if i ask nicely.

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Yeah, this one's better. Go the 75+ people!