“I feel like getting married, or committing suicide, or subscribing to L'Illustration. Something desperate, you know.” - Albert Camus, A Happy Death

Needle and thread under a microscope

Girls will say they busy and be in their bed relaxin or sleep

Sounds busy to me

Reblog if you are busy 

This user has ED but supports and encourages recovery

This user has an ED but supports, loves, and encourages recovery.

What my blog (and most other ed blogs) is NOT for:

What my blog is for:

those little things on ur nose aren’t blackheads, don’t try and get rid of them they’re sebaceous filaments and they’re permanent and literally everyone has them

every girl has that little pouch of fat on her lower tummy, despite what magazines try n show u, you have important organs there that need to be protected don’t try and get rid of ur pouch

ur body is smarter than u think and it knows what to do when u eat more than normal. one bad day, or even week, of eating poorly isn’t gonna ruin anything at all I pinky promise

if u think u look good up until u try taking a selfie, it’s not ur fault - our faces are asymmetrical and when u see ur face flipped it will look unnatural to u, since u don’t see it that way when u look in the mirror. to everyone else it looks perfectly fine

no one’s stomach looks the same at 8pm as it does at 8am. no one has a chiseled six pack after a day of eating, not even the super fit people u see on tumblr, because ur stomach naturally expands after eating and expecting to have a flat tummy before bed is very unrealistic

no one notices if the bags under ur eyes are bad today. no one pays attention to the bump in ur nose or the zit on ur chin or the piece of hair that u missed when u were straightening. literally no one notices these things except you so stop worrying about it ur gonna be fine

sometimes u just gotta get over urself

this made me cry I needed it so bad

weird eating disorder things

{trigger warning}

- hyper awareness of the fat on my body

- counting calories of other people’s meals in my head

- obsessively measuring my wrist with my thumb and index finger

- not being able to sleep if I haven’t worked out

- feeling extremely uncomfortable in anything that’s not an oversized hoodie

- feeling sort of proud in a sick twisted way when I notice the bad side effects of my disorder (thin hair, easy bruising, lightheadedness)

- getting really excited to go grocery shopping and pick out vegetables and low cal substitutes

- feeling like my disorder isn’t real/valid whenever I eat

- planning out my meals and workouts for the next day 24/7

Feel free to add on more weird things/habits your disorder makes you do

may the gods bless me for the next 2 months

Ooh I like this! It’s similar to what I’m doing, so with a few tweaks to my own, I can get to this 🌻

no jiggle June starts here who’s with me

going back

back to obsessing.

back to late night thoughts.

back to self destruction.

back to compulsive behaviors.

back to wasting time.

back to procrastinating.

back to spending most of my time in bed.

back to self sabotage.

back to ruining everything i touch.

back to not getting shit done.

back to posting on all my accounts.

back to overthinking.

back to spending too much time on my phone.

back to feeling helpless.

back to oversharing.

back to feeling lonely.

back to feeling worthless.

back to spending too much time my socials.

back to feeling hopeless.

back to realizing i don’t have a purpose.

back to binging.

back to being fat.

back to having urges.

back to being stuck in a cycle.

back to going too far.

back to my bed.

i’m going backwards instead of forwards.

i can’t be who i was before.

what if i become worse than that?

I really wanna have abs

Try this easy workout, it’s the one kpop idols do.

The idols abs are called 11 abs.

You have to do it three times a day:

One time in the morning, one during the day and one before bed.

Workout:

-> 1 min elbow plank

-> 10 normal crunches

-> 10 angled position crunches

-> 10 straight leg position crunches

-> 15 leg raises

Repeat this three times, so three sets in total.

I think it’s a very easy workout to go through.

I need about 9 min to go through the three sets.

But I gotta tell you it burns after the first day, but keep going, you got this and it will get better over time.

Also dont forget to stretch your core throughout the workout (I stretch after every set).

Hope I could help you 🙈

Lots of love ❤ and stay safe 💎

I have a party in a week. Gonna do this twice daily to try and get those abs to be at least slightly better by then

Reblogfing again because I just did this now, Its actually pretty easy. Just be committed me..

Reblogging to delude myself into thinking I’m going to do this

I’m back to tumblr ed community (duhh) and i dont know who’s active who’s not, so please like this/reblog if you’re:

- active ed blog in may 2019

- 18+

- started at higher weight (i started at 210 lbs/95kg) (optional but it’s nice to relate)

- not promoting eds, just posting memes and thinspo, but no unhealthy tips, especially on purging etc.

- seriously don’t purge

- just don’t

reblog if you need to lose 40 pounds (18kg) or more

You’re going to be a skinny girl this summer!

You’re going to be a skinny girl this summer!

You’re going to be a skinny girl this summer!

You’re going to be a skinny girl this summer!

I hope this blesses the hell out of me