I raise my head up and wonder where I've been time has lost its meaning when I'm so trapped within
your distress is palpable I feel it in my bones it makes me quiver and fret to know how you feel so alone
the alternative is that I think too much alone with my thoughts and nothing else I am afraid to what I'll hear I know I couldn't stand it I'll keep pushing myself so that I don't know what those thoughts mean and what discord they'll sow
I knew I should be running I couldn't bring myself instead I have to navigate the twists and turns you throw my way it might seem more complex it's turning out to be too simple had I know, I would have never tried I guess I'm learning
peeling pieces of my soul off I don't need these memories these rejected thoughts this hope
I can't quite see what you're saying but if I squint just enough I might find out
don't get it all twisted I know that you're wrong my apology is courtesy to help ease the truth
there is only so much light I can gather too much and I'll grow sick I'm drowning in the dawn
I thought I couldn't sink lower where is the end I am drowning in this ever deepening spite filled well
rising up to a height I can't mtaintain my strength fails me, I'm certain give me hope in the darkness, I fear I won't make it out, even if it is insincere
I pour out my soul its weight buries me struggling to breathe from its force towed under with no choice
hidden barbs hold my focus I'm digging in the dark fearful hearts and bold in mind I know what I need
holding on by a thin thread I find myself clinging too much so afraid to let go- that I'll fall I slide away and collapse instead
I look upwards in hopes to find some way to reach to escape from these emotions the swirling abyss within myself
can you see what I'm saying can you meet me even halfway can you hold your thoughts inside or push yourself onto me as I cry
twisted monsters push inside damaged though I would not try to fight this poison from within
closed to my mind I am not available to be aware too surrounded by darkness my thoughts become purged from my own reckoning
I should have seen the truth in my being but I was so distracted by words that I've heard they echo, like bad dreams filling my soul with hateful screams I am nothing, but what others seem to tell me
dancing to a different beat I speak to the wind and it answers me whisper or yell I hear it all the same truth is in the patience to understand what its saying
I often stare outside hoping to find feeling and true meaning when trapped I can't see above