I am undecided.
Not sure why I’m doing this. I feel like I might as well just strip away all the motivation left in my body. I feel like I’ve lost. I can’t seem to put my finger on what it is that makes me feel this. All the strength left in me has vanished into the air. Never to be found again. Why is that? I’m not happy. I am not angry. I am not sad. I am in the gray area that lies in between. I am undecided. I don’t understand the point in paying attention to my lessons in school anymore. Why stress over friends who you thought would never leave, but have suddenly evaporated? What will it do? I want this girl I like to like me back and to be able to have this self assurance that I am not making a fool out of myself. But it’s too late for that. I am a lost cause with no chance in being found. I just want to look forward to something. Reach the peak of nirvana and never look back. I want to pick a handful of people and take them with me to the most perfect place in the world. Glowing lights and bright green meadows. We are all dressed so well, and we’re just happy. A field of flowers and mutual love for one another. No fear and no stress. I want it gone. I want it gone.
