The floorboards are a bit in a wrong perspective but it doesnt really bother me as I drew this on intuition
II'll just dump my nonsense writing here right now, that's why this blog exists💩
Sorry, I didn't know what to call you and then I heard
your name is better undisturbed
Fire reaches everything
How do I know what it will bring?
Worlds apart are worlds today
Things and sounds are words they say
Jackets on the floor
keeps us warm no more
You see pictures I can't because that's how it works for some reason
Anyway, someday we'll see an end to our season
Nights when I type these lines, who knows why
I just enjoy the rhymes
Who cares about a good result?
This will mean something by default.
Also, who are they?
A hypothetical person
I guess myself in another version.
Old poems
So I looked trough the notes on my phone and found a series of poems i wrote some years ago. They're about a time in my life that was hard to get through, my first crisis so to speak. Well, life is good now but I thought I should share the poems. They are a bit dramatic but i was still a teen when I wrote them so...😌
1. IGNORANCE
I think it came around seventeen
Complications
The back of my right ancle
A swollen feeling, tight
Inflamed
Although
Its nothing
Not worth mentioning really
So small a thing
A start
The next three years
Darkness like I've never known before
2. DELUSION YET BLISS
End of summer
Ambition paired with teenage living
On our own in the capital city when term begins
Neighbour country
So much will
Or maybe a consequence of jealusy, competition
Strangely though at the time
Surprisingly effortless
That girl
So beautiful
But threatening
Skinny
She's my friend but I run against her
Others notice too
So it starts
I stop
Eating
My reflection in morning class
Gets me high
Evenings spent on stage
Sitting against a fake pillar pretending to sleep
Hearing the music
My heart
Soars away
My stomach
So empty
Simultaniously
An illusion of contemptness
The only one I've come across this far
And I belive
It's the truth
3. WASN'T FINISHED
It comes creeping back
October that same year
In the midst of success
But it's nothing to worry about
Suddenly
A stone in my chest
Yet
Dark matter will grow in me
4.DEPRESSION
Walking into something
A place
Maybe I've been
But never this deep
Young
So this is new
This place will be discovered
Wait and see
A part of me well traveled
Before I grow up
It consumes
The end of my teens
ETERNAL
I'm wondeing about them
Old friends
Family
My sister
She's the only soulmate yet
Twins it's called and a little bit of our souls are the same
Pretty sure we both know
Still she doesn't tell me
She is so much
Eternal even but maybe it goes both ways
I was away
And maybe I am selfish
That has often been so
Does she think my broken dream is all
I want to go on to reach the new era
I know she wants the same
Even if she thinks I don't see her struggles
She goes on and on in eternity