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I used to be called trash-heap-on-an-alt-account. An alt account for the weary, I'll post everything I want to... avatar drawn by yours truly, also the header... hey, call me font with the lower case f. main blog: voidlun.tumblr.com

Water from Disneyland’s Pirates of the Caribbean. Scooped out of the ride in summer of 2010. The bottle was all the way full, and it now almost halfway gone. As of today, it still smells.

For yohoyohoadisneylifeforme

My Pirates water is almost completely gone, down to about ¼ of the bottle :/

stop drinking the pirate water

Sorry it’s good and it heals me

I hate this post so goddamn much. I cannot believe how many of you think I actually drank the water. I hope when it all evaporates away that this post goes with it.

Guess what assholes

2020 really taking everything from us huh 😔

I am sad (happy) to report: my water has officially 100% dried up. Which means it’s time for this post to die along with it.

Imagine saying the water dried up as if you didn’t drink it

About 10 years too late with this info

I bet you wished you knew that so you could really age that water before drinking it

‘boy i sure wish i was asleep,’ i whisper, clicking Next Chapter fourteen fucking times

i was initially ashamed of myself but now after seeing how many reblogs there are im ashamed of all of us

I suspect quite a few people on this site don’t realize they are struggling with the effects of chronic trauma. In particular I think more people need to learn about the symptoms of C-PTSD.

Distinct from general PTSD, Complex PTSD is caused by prolonged, recurring stress and trauma, often occurring in childhood & adolescence over an extended period of time. There are many risk factors, including: abusive/negligent caregivers, dysfunctional family life, untreated mental/chronic illness, and being the target of bullying/social alienation.

I’m not a mental health professional and I’m not qualified to diagnose anyone, I just remember a million watt light bulb going off in my head when I first learned about C-PTSD. It was a huge OH MY FUCKING WORD eureka moment for me—it explained all these problems I was confused and angry at myself for having. The symptoms that really stood out to me were:

  • Negative self-perception: deep-seated feelings of shame, guilt, worthlessness, helplessness, and stigma. Feeling like you are different from everyone else, like something is fundamentally ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’ with you.
  • Emotional avoidance of topics, people, relationships, activities, places, things etc that might cause uncomfortable emotions such as shame, fear, or sadness. Can lead to self-isolation.
  • Learned helplessness: a pervasive sense of powerlessness, often combined with feelings of desensitization, wherein you gradually stop trying to escape or prevent your own suffering, even when opportunities exist. May manifest as self-neglect or self-sabotage. (I remember watching myself make bad choices and neglect my responsibilities, and having no idea why I was doing it, or how to stop myself. Eventually I just stopped caring, which led to more self-neglect.)

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A hydra appendix. With every appendectomy, two more regrows

Searching for the Crab, found the Hydra

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As it turns out, a worm was just discovered that is actually like this, Ramisyllis multicaudata:

To quote said article:

“The team also found that the worms’ branching is well beyond skin deep. Incredibly, every time Ramisyllis forks itself, all the internal organs divide, too: The gut, the nerves, everything splits and runs the length of the branch. This also creates a unique, muscular band or “bridge” that threads between the organs every time the critter splits. These bridges can visually demarcate Ramisyllis’ main trunk, which is pretty useful when you’re observing an animal shaped like a tumbleweed.

The farther you get away from the head, the weirder the worm gets. Aguado and her colleagues were able to closely examine the tips of the branches, which are crucial for the species’ reproduction.

When Ramisyllis decides it’s time to procreate, its abundance of wandering derrières go through a transformation. The branch ends basically convert into genitals, filling with eggs or sperm. These reproductive units (or “stolons”) grow eyes and their own brains. When mature, the stolons detach and swim away, their freshly acquired “head” and eyes steering them to mate with stolons of the opposite sex. What started as a wriggling snarl of buttholes becomes a swarm of autonomous, sex-seeking torpedoes.”

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Is it not enough to simply have a hundred anuses? Must you also use them?

This slaps harder than anything the Beetles ever released

This is… the greatest thing…

I’m sitting here, listening to this repeatedly with the biggest case of the music shivers ever. I’m in aural heaven

This might sound stupid but I’m actually crying here.

I’ve had a really hard day, and then I watch this as a silly distraction and I’m suddenly struck by the… the BEAUTY of this, the mix of the ridiculous and the sublime

People from all around the world seeing the same objectively ABSURD thing and choosing not to just laugh or make fun, but join in and make something like this for the sheer joy of community and transformation.

To go “Yes, this is silly. Yes, this is worth something. No, these things do not contradict.”

Humans are the meaning-making animal.

GROWING PAINS

david wojnarowicz / alexander harding / su xinyu / @pearpoem / lorde / open house (1998) / billy collins / mitski / as i was moving ahead occasionally i saw brief glimpses of beauty (2000) / alain de bottom / hollis brown thornton / kalyn roseanne

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being known is being loved

"i know your pizza order" "you have freckles on your ears" "you make this face when you're tired" "you order green tea on a good day black on a bad day" "you always make that face before you try something" "the tips of your ears turn red when you're angry" "i knew you'd say something" "you must be exhausted to miss the class" "your favorite pie is pumpkin, right?" "i know your phone number, don't worry" "you miss me, i can tell" "you fiddle with your pens when you're bored" "you don't like converse unless they're high tops" "your favorite cereal is cinnamon toast crunch and you first ate it when you were 8"

being known is being loved.