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waiting for my spaceship to come back for me

@space-feminist / space-feminist.tumblr.com

nina, cis female, she/her | you can often find me on my music sideblog or my avatar sideblog

If you could answer this, put your country/state in the tags, and share this it would be appreciated! I'm an ex-homeschooler from Texas and I'm genuinely curious on what people from outside of America think about homeschooling or if it's even a thing elsewhere

I hope they find the idiot rich ppl I hope a teenager doesn't have to die a horrible nightmare death and then I also hope they immediately get slapped with a $500,000 bill to repay the taxpayer cost of rescuing them from their idiocracy and then also another $1billion dollars inconvenience fee of making us all hear about this for 3 days straight.

GRADE SCHOOL SJWS stop using social justice language to explain shit to your conservative parents IT’S NOT GONNA GO THROUGH now all they have are some new words to make fun of. don’t tell your mom she’s being fatphobic tell her she’s being a dick

fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

You know, it's nice knowing just enough of something to know that I don't know anything so I can go look it up. Today I saw someone on Twitter expressing displeasure with the way an item from the WPA Slave Narrative Collection was written, and immediately a bunch of people jumped in to say, "That's how she TALKED, it's called DIALECT," and I thought, "That's from the WPA Slave Narratives and the interviews were conducted by white people, right?" and I consulted the Library of Congress and the Library of Congress said, "by the 1930s, when the interviews took place, white representations of black speech already had an ugly history of entrenched stereotype dating back at least to the early nineteenth century."

And only like one person responded to that tweet with that Library of Congress link that provides a little context rather than uncritically say, "No this is accurate and she definitely talked that way and it was extremely important to write all the words the way they did." They didn't have linguists conducting the interviews, guys. Come on. So shout out to me for looking it up and also shout out to the minority of people who also looked it up and shared it.

there's a similar problem with Sojourner Truth's famous 1851 speech to the Women's Rights Convention in Akron, Ohio. it's commonly remembered as the "Ain't I A Woman?" speech, in a broad "southern slave" dialect- but that version was published 12 years after the speech in question, and a version printed only a month following the event is very different and far less stereotypical. the latter was also released with her specific blessing, the transcriber having gone over it with her before publication, suggesting that it's likely much closer to what she really said

but it's not what white readers expected from a formerly enslaved Black woman, so it's not what Frances Gage wrote in the 1863 transcription that everyone remembers

(it's also been pointed out that her first language was Dutch and she never lived in the south, so there would be no reason for her to have a southern accent)

i feel like every human should max out at one disability or chronic illness. like when i hit adolescence and my brain chemistry went “bipolar time now?” the response should have been an error message like sorry! this slot can only contain one (1) item and has been filled with childhood asthma. i would even allow the possibility that you can overwrite previous disorders like “you have equipped chronic migraines and so no will no longer display symptoms of bipolar disorder.” i just think it should work that way.

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Oooo... the most recent peer-reviewed scientific study on Betelgeuse shows it's really, really, really running on fumes, to the point that the most likely scenario is that it's going to go nova within 10 to 100 years. Not 100% certain, but very likely.

It's close enough that the exploding star should look about as bright as the full moon for a few months, but it's not close enough to hurt us.

Really. Promise. On top of everything else, its poles aren't pointed at us, and that's what shoots gamma ray bursts from bigger star collapses.

(render of what Betelgeuse supernova may look like)

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Congrats your old acc got on the world heritage posts blog

https://www.tumblr.com/eldergoodra/720014092000247808

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i have to be real i fucking hate that post. im dead serious. i do not like that its being circulated around again because its always just been an in for people to be ableist to me about a brain condition that i cant help. the person who declared it a 'world heritage post' did so without my permission and i just attempted to contact them to get their reblog of it removed. i wish they had contacted me beforehand because now im just getting more people in my inbox making fun of me for my inability to be coherent. it is extremely insulting.

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like theres a reason i deleted the original post. i didnt want anyone to reblog it anymore. i had people literally going out of their way to laugh at me for my 'funny brain condition' and i was getting sick and tired of this. i have stated i dont appreciate this post getting spread around, like i dont know. it has to be at least five times now. and still it follows me everywhere. my aphasia isnt a joke. i didnt realize i had it at the time. dont reblog that post anywhere if you see it in the wild for my own safety and mental wellbeing.

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u can however spread THIS post around all youd like! because im tired of seeing THAT one everywhere and the more people that know this the better

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A lot of folks are responding to the whole Reddit situation by calling for the return of decentralised forums, and I think it's important to remember that, contrary to certain popular narratives, the reason early 2000s forum culture has fallen by the wayside is not because people are Just Lazy. Certainly, ease of use is part of it, but a much larger part of it is how vulnerable self-hosted forums are.

Basically, the problem is that even the largest and most carefully managed self-hosted forums can be rendered unusable more or less indefinitely by a single sufficiently determined hostile actor. This can take the form of both attacks on the forum's social infrastructure (i.e., via sock-puppet accounts, botting, organised "raids", etc.) and attacks on its technical infrastructure (i.e., via hacking, DDoS, etc.). In either case, a self-hosted forum has effectively no defence, and the majority of decentralised forum communities survive only by virtue of their relative obscurity; once a self-hosted forum manages to attract the attention of That One Guy who's willing to devote his life to shitting the place up over some microscopic slight, it's effectively game over.

Right now, there are essentially only two mitigation strategies:

  1. Gathering huge numbers of communities under a single, massively centralised technical infrastructure that's simply too large and robust for any one hostile actor to bring down; and
  2. Hardening the community's social infrastructure either by going private and invite only (i.e., the Discord approach), or by making use of a vast centralised pool of volunteer labour to aggressively enforce community standards (i.e., the Reddit approach).

To be clear, these are not intractable problems; other solutions may well exist. However, any proposed plan for bringing decentralised public forums back needs to address them; if you're going in operating under the assumption that forums have become marginalised simply because corporations are evil and people are lazy, you're just setting yourself up to learn the hard way why self-hosted forums no longer seem to be capable of growing beyond a certain point.

i'm mourning the loss of prev tags obviously but i also think about how one time i had a post go viral among terfs (not a post about terfs, just a post on my music blog that got popular and unfortunately happened to hit that audience) and how whenever i saw it reblogged by an obviously terfy username i'd go back up the reblog chain and block the terf that person had reblogged it from, and then the terf that person had reblogged from, and so on until i got to normal blogs. being able to trace the chain of people who'd reblogged a post was useful for more than just conversations with the mutuals and it's a real stupid move to take it away

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A very, very gentle reminder that "prev tags" is now completely useless, bc you can no longer click back thru the reblog chain and see the prev tags. You can see the reblog in front of you, and you can find the original post - by itself, completely devoid of context - but you can't click thru to the previous reblog. This is apparently intentional, since I literally emailed support about it - being able to click back thru the reblog chain and being able to see the source post in context on op's blog are fundamental parts of the user experience imo and I am pissed - and their response was basically like yeah we meant to do that but if you want to talk about it you can go to our WIP blog, where the ask is literally only open one day a week and we will completely ignore you.

While we’re complaining, I’m also getting really tired of staff replacing commonly used, muscle memory features with new features to force us to repeatedly click on the new feature, only to “hear our concerns” and “roll it back” when it was only ever a transparent way of forcing us to interact with the new features

Replacing the search tab with tumblr live, replacing the BLOG tab of all things with tumblrmart, and now replacing the add tags button with an add community labels button. It’s getting kind of infuriating!

And I’m not even opposed to tumblrmart and community labels! I’m using them. I just hate getting slapped in the face with them for weeks at a time!

That’s not even to mention replacing double-tap to zoom with double-tap to like (a feature which was already present on posts but now applies to images you’re looking at), replacing “swipe down to exit image” with “swipe down to see a random assortment of images from people you don’t follow and never will”, and whatever godforsaken thing is going on with the new video player that never loads

And this fucking guy that won’t go away even while I type this!!