Soul less

I’m in my feelz. & I’m a little buzzed.

That is all.

Why am I the one still trying? Why do I keep letting myself look so fucking stupid? I wasn’t ready to give up or be given up on..

It’s like you do & don’t want me. I still feel your softness, your love, your sweetness & vulnerability around me. I ❤️ you x.

I fell in love & started to loose myself due to stresss school & allowing myself to feel something for someone. All while doing so & I was given up during this period. I don’t know why. Will I even have answers or clarity? Will I be able to talk about this with you? I’m soooo hurt & so sad baby shark.

I hate being vulnerable. I hate crying. I hate hurting out loud. Why was I so easy to give up on baby shark?

I really hate crying. I’m all over & in my feelz. I hate this.

I have so many emotions. New emotions & emotions I haven’t dealt with. I’m looking into doing therapy.

I just told my boyfriend I love him. Over a voice memo... but I do love him.

Ive been in my feelz these past couple of days. But like really in my feelz. 😒

I’m scared to fall in love and I’m scared to fall in love w someone like X & I’m holding myself back. I know it.

I hope I’m the one you change for. I hope I’m the one that helps you grow. I hope I’m the one you love way toooo much to not hurt. I hope I’m the one.

I’m feeling blessed to be w x. Just so lucky. ❣️ he honestly treats me SO good & it’s just soo different than anything I’ve ever experienced.