My conversation with my boyfriend after he unintentionally softly yelled (yeah literally) at me while on vc because I keep on calling him while he was playing some games and before I go to bed tonight:
Him: Love? I can't focused on the game because I felt so guilty, I'm sorry hm?
Me: *holding my tears lmao* *but then cried silently, looking away*
Him: *laughed softly* Silly, you cried when I apologized but didn't when I hurt you. *looking so guilty aww*
Me: Love, it's okay, maybe my red days are coming lmao *laughed too*
Him: No it's not okay, I'm sorry. *says the three words*
-and the rest is history til we say goodnight's and ily's-
My man probably didn't realize that it was my past trauma reacting in the situation, he knew I wasn't treated right before and was taught that saying "sorry" was the last thing I deserved even if someone really owe me one. So him being so kind and careful, and apologetic most of the time make me realize that I really deserve better, and greatful to him making it up to me everytime even at the tiniest thing he could've ever done. 💖
I know it's tough for everyone but please, please be extra nice and patient with little kids right now. they're going through so much, we're not going to understand the amount of worldwide trauma these kids have for years, but for context: a five year old who has memories only from the age of three has spent HALF their conscious life under quarantine. they haven't interacted with other kids in person. they've only seen people with masks. they've spent all this time in a home with distressed adults and little stability without truly understanding why. for a massive chunk of their conscious life. so if a kid comes up and talks to you just let them have your attention for a few minutes. don't snap at a child crying or having a meltdown in public, and don't make the parent feel guilty. it's not that difficult to be kind.
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I was not thinking where can I go
I was not even looking at any path
nor looking at my own destination, I just...
walk wherever my feet could lead me..
and that was the wonderful decision I've ever made.
“Life went on without you. Of course, it did. Of course, it does. It was just an ending, not the end.”
— Lang Leav
the sun utters love to the moon in sunsets and sunrises spilling over into every part of each other with their hearts full
Sometimes I think about how it might be going to hurt me again, and an instant pain is being built up inside; made me think twice of whether letting you 'in' my world, is a different version of parallel universe I had in my dream.
Sometimes I think about how it might be going to hurt me again, and an instant pain is being built up inside; made me think twice of whether letting you 'in' my world, is a different version of parallel universe I had in my dream.
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