This independent working girl life has me stressed out and mad exhausted 😩😩 I just can’t wait until I’m a fucking spoiled trophy wife, 28 years old chilling with my husband in our chalet in Switzerland 😒 I swear I can’t wait for all these sacrifices to pay off and land me right into the life of my dreams

I want my children to grow up in healthy and nurturing family dynamics, where they feel pushed to fulfill their potential and work hard for their own self motivated achievements. I want my children to always feel safe and resilient. I want my children to be avid readers, lovers of arts and literature, academically gifted and hardworking, talented and embedded in highbrow activities like violin playing and horse riding. Above all I want them to be balanced and never feel either extreme of poverty or ostentatious wealth

I’m not living my life in a way that reflects I’m chasing and living my passion. Of course, it’s because I can’t prioritise this due to the strict strategy I’m currently undertaking; but regardless, I had a bit of a eureka moment at work the other day when I realised I was dedicating all my time to a job & studies that don’t represent what I truly want to chase in my life. I’m not living in accordance to my true deeper ambitions - like writing and entrepreneurship. I realised I’ll never be content, settled and happy until I acknowledge deeply within myself that all my daily actions are contributing to my bigger dream. That’s why when I’m out and about chilling and having leisure time, I have a sense of discontent; because I know that in my daily life of grind, I’m not dedicating it to what I truly love. And I can understand within myself that this is because I don’t have the privelige to make this complete dedication a reality; right now, my current goals require me to work at this job, forgo a lot of my own passions and projects, save money like crazy, be studious and get closer to completing this degree, so that soon enough I’ll have established myself in a place where I can freely devote my time to my passions, and be content and calm, knowing that every day of my life is not ‘in waiting’ for that moment - that moment is happening!

This podcast is a literal eargasm. I’m listening to it right now, in my activewear, sitting on the floor of a yoga studio leaning against the window of a city skyscraper looking down on the Cartier store below me.

This podcast is a must listen for aspiring trophy wives. I remember reading a BBC article shared on tumblr about how the wealthy/elite were using more subtle signifiers of their status [ie, their sustained attainment of stable wealth] such as organic groceries and private tutors, etc. This podcast elaborates on those notions in the most incredibly intellectual, and educational way. The reason it’s so important for aspiring kept women to listen to this is because it teaches the wisdom of authentically assimilating into wealth; rather than chasing ostentatious and flagrant displays of money (cough cough, Gucci t-shirts), the subtleties of expenditure directed towards the premium service economy (chauffeured vehicles and private piano tutors for your children) indicates that you can sustain a complete lifestyle of comfort, and subsequently elevated status.

Even if you have absolutely zero interest in the aforementioned; the podcast delves into really fascinating analyses on social mobility, cultural capital, and how class divides have historically cultivated in societies, as well as how they are actually divorced from economics a lot of the time.

I’m just starting to get back in my mojo. The enormous overhaul of my entire life in the past one month has left me hazy with difficulty to concentrate, but I’ll be back on my [trophy wife] grind soon, lol.

Til next time....

I just have no idea if I thrive and feel happiest in the bustling city or in suburban, laid back areas full of greenery and nature. I am so over the city. Now that I basically live in the thick of it, I realise how dull and uninspired it truly is. Walking around the city in the morning, in congested, polluted, packed streets crowded with thousands of bodies is insanely agitating and drives me mad - I notice I am just ANGRY all the time walking around or getting about during peak hour/peak times. I’m angry at all these strangers for walking too slow, walking too fast, making eye contact, not making eye contact, bumping into me, blocking my way - it’s this incessant buildup of mental pollution coupled with being surrounded by way too many strangers marching into the capitalistic machine loop of hell. I used to thrive on the dynamism, but I’m a little sick of it all now. The thing is, I get so bored in suburban areas far from the city that simply have local shops and amenities; I’m calmer and happier there, but insanely bored and looking for more. I don’t even know what I prefer! Frankly, I don’t think I’ll spend the rest of my life living in Australia. It’s changed for the worse in recent years and I can see myself far happier living in Europe with my family when I’m older. I think the smartest thing to do is immerse myself in the ‘cosmopolitan life’ while I’m young and absorbing knowledge and experiences like a sponge.

Come. It’s morning. Let me brush the stars From your hair.

— Noelle Kocot, “Sappho to Erinna,” 4

a rainy day, some constitution notes, and a lot of sleepiness. 

I’m just sitting here, eating a bowl of chicken laksa and thinking just how motherfucking, goddamn GOOD it feels to be free! And I mean, completely fuckin free. If I wanna come home at 3am tonight, I can do that. If I wanna pack my bags and go to motherfucking Sri Lanka tomorrow, I’ll do that! I don’t ever, EVER have to live that prototypical Arab girl life of restriction, limitation, strict rules and surveillance ever again. I don’t answer to nobody, and nobody can control me anymore. really dedicated myself to this dream, worked my ass off, and acheieved it ALL at the age of only 19. I remember being in high school, completely TRAPPED and having zero freedom, and thinking that life was always gonna be like this, that I’d always be restrained to the horrendously limiting, strictly supervised life that I and other Arab/Muslim girls were condemned to. I never thought I’d make my own dream a fucking reality but I DID. I literally manifested my entire dream and now my entire life is in my own hands. And I did it all officially, legitimately, securely and intelligently. I covered all my tracks and did everything completely secretly. I didn’t take ANY shortcuts, I did everything the legitimate and hard way, because I knew once I did this, there was no going back. I did it all on my own and worked hard as fuck to make sure I’d be completely financially secure even if I stopped working for 12 months. Man, fuck, sometimes it still hasn’t hit me that I’m totally FREE. I’m living the dream of every contained Middle Eastern or Muslim girl. I really fucking did that.

Boudoir series

I’d like to thank the person who sent me this question. It’s one of the things that prompted me towards writing my first article

Please send me perfume recommendations :)

You’re never asking for too much, you’re just asking the wrong person.

01x05 “Company Slut” - November 8, 2017

Cartier “Tank Française Watch” - $31,000.00 (no longer available)

I love this photo so much 😍😍

Get comfortable expressing your boundaries. Say “No”, say “this makes me uncomfortable,” say “I’m not interested,” say “I need.” You have to advocate for yourself. You should not sit and be silently mad at people because they have crossed boundaries you never expressed.

Your boundaries and your needs and your desires are a reflection of who you are and your character. If you feel like no one really knows you, consider it may be because you haven’t told people who you are. Find effective ways to communicate who you are to people who matter.

The director of cybersecurity from the Electronic Freedom Foundation is offering to help women who have been threatened with compromise of their devices.

I better see EVERYBODY reblogging this

April Book List

-In the Company of Women: Inspiration and Advice from over 100 Makers, Artists, and Entrepreneurs by Grace Bonney

-Talk like TED: The 9 Public Speaking Secrets of the World’s Top Minds by Carmine Gallo

-Hard to Love: Essays and Confessions by Briallen Hopper

-Brown White Black: An American Family at the Intersection of Race, Gender, Sexuality, and Religion by Nishta J Mehra

-We Live for the We: The Political Power of Black Motherhood by Dani McClain

-Pleasure Activism: The Politics of Feeling Good by adrienne maree brown

-In Defense of Food by Michael Pollan