broken angel.

PLEASE TELL ME IM NOT CRAZY FOR BEING MAD

So apparantly I got no fucking friends

I was in town and they said they're hanging out, class got canceled and I called them to ask if I can hang with them for fifteen minutes before I got to leave

These mfs made up every excuse on the planét to keep me out of it

Just say it to my fucking face what the fuck

Plus I run all the way to the other side of town for them to say they don't want me

Well they didn't but they didn't let me come

Oh but by the way tomorrow when one of them want me to come over to give her weed it's fine

WHAT THE FUCK

- S. C. C.

As a kid I always felt safer with people my own age - adults tended to underestimate me and treat me stupidly, as if I didn’t understand the world around me. They overlooked my issues. But now, after all the things people my age have done to me, I have no one to feel safe around but my own family.

Sorry, I'm not a better friend. I mess everything up. All I want is for you to be happy in life.

- S. C. C.

I think my problem with friendships is that I thought from a very young age that friendship meant that I gave parts of myself away without expecting anything in return. That maybe, if the part I gave was good enough, that stranger could love me.

Maybe that is how it works. Maybe I just have nothing left to give. I wouldn’t know.

Definitivamente no tengo mas que dar, lo di todo y no fue suficiente y ahora solo estoy sola amando a gente que ni siquiera me respeta

— Robert Tew

Love to see a girlboss winning

— Josh Grayson, Sia

btw it’s not just aroace people who can value platonic relationships over romantic/sexual ones. you can just do that. even if you experience attraction and enjoy sex you can simply choose to prioritize your friendships equal to or over your sexual relationships. the idea that your sex partner is the most important person in your life is a societal concept, not something that comes naturally to most people

I love being alone <- girl who has known nothing but loneliness her entire life and so has no choice but to take comfort in it

anthony going back to smosh and danandphilgames coming back to life who had that in their 2023 bingo card

cinematic parallelisms

i had to act like it doesn’t hurt me.

incorrect smosh tweets 7/?

kinda wanna disappear for a while.

My current plan to recover from my mental and emotional existence is to just go so deep into being insane that I'll come out sane on the other side. Being a chronic people pleaser plagued with impostor syndrome stretched me too thin, and that leash simply snapped and I am now a completely untethered, unapologetic vermin.

Fuck having impostor syndrome, if I'm not entitled to be here they should've barred the doors better. If I'm doing everything wrong because of imaginary rules that nobody told me about, that's their problem, you should have made your confusing system more idiot-proof.

I'm not here to please everyone and do everything right. I'm here to make bad art, chew on furniture, make people laugh, cook awful food and look at pretty landscapes, and piss off the people who don't want me to exist. If I have an unseen infinite debt somewhere that I can never pay back, I'm going to keep running that tab until I die. I'm alive purely because the universe is shit at pest control.

i never thought "i'm alive purely bc the universe is shit at pest control" would be my motivation of the day but damn this dude went hard