Words for You #7

There's danger written

Behind your smile

-

Waves of your soul

Brewing

A storm. I can sense

The destruction

It'll cast over my life

But the concept of being

Free, like boundless

Water, falling from above

Is tempting

-

I'll take the risk

For you, always :)

-eshaninjer

“Do you know who you are when you look at life and you talk about yours, do you feel proud?”

i don’t feel no pain no more

my goal was to not feel

to be invincible

but here i am

not feeling

existing in a world of stone

i weave through statues of

strangers who can’t hurt me

my footsteps fill the stillness

as they echo off the concrete

the stagnant air sits like

a bubble around my body

at a standstill 

alone in this marble city

i do not feel pain anymore,

but the ability to feel is what

motivates me to live life

vulnerability is what

makes me human

i just want to feel something

to start living again

12/07/2018

I’m lonely in real life 

But never in my head.

You are my sole companion

Yet you fill the void left 

By dozens.

You complete me, 

Fill in, the missing pieces 

Of heart and soul.

-

Without you, I am but 

Another sinkhole in the 

Pathway of life

-

I want to let go

But at the same time, 

I want to hold you closer

-

I want to move on

And be able to see past 

The spotted canvas that has 

Become my reality.

I want to but 

I can’t,

I can’t let go of you without 

Breaking myself;

Without you, I am but 

Another piece of cracked pottery,

Lying on the sidewalk,

Waiting to be mended by 

An artist, who will never once 

Look my way //

-eshaninjer

via weheartit

Death is a liar

Death,

You are not

a double rainbow after a storm,

birds chirping after a long winter,

the light at the end of the tunnel

You are

a swelling brain from ischemia,

a heart barely fluttering,

a moment of panic when

the noose around my neck

failed to do its job quickly

I’m left here suspended,

the knocked over chair

too far from my twitching feet

You are

blackness flooding my vision

my lungs grappling for air

as the rope dents my trachea,

strangling the life out of me

Too slowly

Where’s the absence of fear?

The escape from his punches?

The quiet from her screams?

The release from loneliness?

Before unconsciousness hits,

I realize you’re neither beautiful nor freeing

like you promised and I believed

You are a lost girl

hanging from the beams

who, too late realized

she wanted to live

I thought you would save me,

but you lied, Death

You are much worse than Life

i don’t think about breathing i just do it and survive

morning is for mourning the good times in rewind evening is for leaving the bad times left behind

*I’m Sorry*

It’s been twenty-three hours, twenty minutes and two seconds no, three and I’m yet to hear from you. I’m not sure what I did wrong but knowing me, I’ve made of mess of everything we had. 

I want to reach out. 

Say something, anything. I don’t care if you disregard the emotions I bled the last time we spoke. I’ll look past it all if only you’d talk to me, tell me what went wrong…

Words hold power. Communication is vital for growth. 

Don’t you trust me? 

Am I that forgettable? 

Replaceable?

I’d hate to hurt you but I’m not sure my soul can take this negligence.

Maybe, I should let go. Let it play out without further thought. Leave it to faith. She has a knack for these things, under her guidance, it’ll be okay. I hope.

And who knows? This may all be in my head, we’ll see. 

-eshaninjer

Ps. This has no prior context. It’s just a collection of thoughts that came to mind. Hope you were able to make something of it, let me know :)

Waiting

Silent

Are the moments

I spend alone,

Waiting for

You

To walk by

-eshaninjer

We’re all loops & bends

Cords slithering

Cables twisting

At our own pace

With one aim: to reach power

Dreams of lighting up the world,

Making it a more livable place

But as we near the circuit,

We’re electrocuted

Our hopes struck down

By the rebellious world 

We’re all fried loops & bends

From a pointless voyage called life