feel like maybe i want to burn every bridge i ever crossed
“we’ll still be friends right” baby they are gonna drop you on your ass so fast you won’t know what hit you!!! but actually your life is okay and things are going well and oh god if they had stuck it out a little longer things would be good now
I guess im mostly pissed off that they’re never going to talk to me again and i know that and they were being a fucking liar.
#just kidding i find their social media activist presence embarassing#just a little#post on tumblr to death instead of doing anything for woke points#rich parents no job chronically online social media activist#AND I WAS GONNA HAVE THAT BOYS BABIES#sweet lord. I’ll really do anything for a scrap of affection huh.#i will endure so much mediocrity… and for what? to get dumped by someone that i am out of their league?#they make (made?) me laugh though and i do miss being friends#but we are just in two different places in life#living with your parents and being unemployed and sheltered vs having an adult life and job#i need to date someone who’s like 30
got super into baldurs gate in the biggest twist of events known to man
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bought a new car. #life
this is funny because it shit out on me twice and it needs a $1400 repair. #life.
had to take a break because i went insane lol!! relapsed, started even more medication, looking into intensive trauma therapy!
bought a new car. #life
I AM FUCKING PISSED OFF TODAY!!! WOKE UP ON A RAMPAGE!!!! had a dream about monroe texting me asking if we could still be friends and I was like :3 yes ! and then it got weird and bad and nasty because they kept hitting on me and trying to feel me up like old times and it ended with their parents being awful to me and telling me that they always hated that i was fat and stupid and wasn’t worthy of their kid and that they’re so grateful that i didn’t marry into their family and monroe wouldn’t stand up for me and was letting them ream into me and then asked if we could ‘still keep fucking’ and if they could ‘still dominate me’ even though i was banned from their house and their parents demanded i never see or talk to them again! so that was great and then i had a dream i was on a boat that was too small for all of us on it and orca whales (but scary?) were trying to nuzzle the boat and i was out swimming with my friend grace and it was like 50 feet below us and then the boat sunk and my hair was in my face and i was sinking and the whale was circling me and the boat sunk and everyone got rescued without me and then i was seeing from the eyes of the whale and following myself and i could hear the whales thoughts that it was trying to help me and wanted to catch up to me and look at me and i was too scared and then i woke up
things are actually going really well lately - i feel like i am closing another chapter of my life and moving forward!
work has been kicking my ASS. lord…
jesus christ. suicidal feeling for the first time in a while. fucking sick man i love it.
i have a huge gay crush on someone my GOD
painting my own french tips! so hard???
hallucinating so vivid lately, first it was scary and then it was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen and then scary again!!!
they were supposed to be here today. i want to talk to them so so bad. it feels like i am getting punished for them breaking up with me
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we are not halves of the same whole, but we are two wholes that complete and better each other. we are braver, smarter, and stronger together. our lives are fuller and richer every day.
please talk to me again please
saw the barbie movie! cried hugely during most of it.
feeling a wee bit low
haha. the urges!!!
ten days into this. 23 to go. hell on earth happening to me because i can’t talk to my boy friend