i wanna buy myself so many things but i also want to save some money


i wanna buy myself so many things but i also want to save some money
When you realize that someone is only being nice to you because they want something
when all your friends are in a relationship and you’re just there like
-people think I’m rude when I really just don’t know what to say or do
-I’m trying to make friend and be more social but I just feel super awkward..
-can I just he alone?
-when I do finally find someone I want to talk to I can’t shut the fuck up and then they get tired of me. Then the introvert cycle just restarts because I clearly can’t behave socially acceptable
-I suck.