2 times sailom outsmarted kang in episode 1

His head is gonna explode after that kiss I AM CACKLING.

Kang is pressed, stressed, and homosexually repressed.

Ms. Frizzle is driving his struggle bus.

Remember this. There are two types of people in this world. The first type is a smart person. The second type is a person who thinks he's smart.

Just a reminder that I knew I would love Dangerous Romance when GMMTV revealed it in 2022.

This first episode had my blood pressure up because I HATE Kanghan, which only makes me love this more. He's the worst. He is spoiled. He is entitled. He is manipulative. He's a little bitch.

His friends SUCK!

Then, we have Sailom and his scholarship buddies. They are amazing. They are beautiful. They are perfect. They are Linda Evangelista.

And Sailom is the best boy. He is smart. He is hardworking. He is a tired gay. He is my everything.

I am THRILLED that these two HATE each other! Kanghan wants Sailom to beg him for forgiveness, and Sailom simply refuses.

Kanghan goes as far as holding court to publicly humiliate Sailom (while unbuttoning his shirt!).

Yet Sailom, the best boy, took a page out of The Eclipse's Ayan book and said "let's make this gay" and there was not one romantic thing about this kiss. This was hatred. This was aggressive.

THIS WAS DELICIOUS!

And these two are going to hatefuck too!

The enemies stage is set, and we have what I'm praying is our lesbian goddess.

So . . .

Welcome to my new personality for the next three months.

Seeing a lot of y'all very upset at Kanghan being the dangerous part of Dangerous Romance.

Yet I'm over here praying he gets worse.

Can Kanghan change his approach based on the dog conversation and be sweet to Sailom only because he wants to still bring him down? Can he be the one to destroy Sailom's laptop? Can he fail a couple of tests just so Sailom doesn't get paid? Can he be the one to report Sailom's brother?

They can't be enemies for only one episode! Kang has to be an asshole for at least four if not six! When Sailom punches him, I want it to be satisfying. When Kang realizes all this tension feels different, I want it to hurt. I want Sailom to prove again and again that he is the smartest man in the room, and he can't do that if Kang isn't acting stupid.

How's that corny line go? "I'd rather fight with you than make love with anyone else." They have to fight . . . a lot!

We can't have this

If we don't get this!

We need the dangerous before we can get the romance, y'all!

Some of us have been patiently waiting six months since Never Let Me Go ended for these two to fuck each other . . . over. Fuck each other over. Yes? Yes.

Let us have our moment of toxicity.

KISEKI Dear to Me: 3.5 CPs + GANGSTER/MOB + SALT DEATH PTSD

Alright guys, temporarily bursting out of hiatus to talk about this show because DAMN if there's anything we know works in BL-land, it's like underworld AU (hello History3: Trapped and KP lmao), and even better if this underworld AU has like DILFs and two familiar actors who WERE FORCED APART in their previous roles and who knows if that'll happen again BUT!

Without further ado...

Title: Kiseki Dear to Me, based on novel Dear to Me by Lin Peiyu Beginning: Aug. 22, 2023, 7PM (GTM+8) Episodes: 13 Total No. of CPs: THREE CONFIRMED + "childhood friends" DILFs

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CP 1: BAD BOY + GOOD STUDENT

Fan Zherui x Bai Zongyi: Fan Zherui, 25 years old, is a gang member who turned to the gangs due to family problems, and one day when he's injured, Bai Zongyi saves him, he falls in love with him and decides to leave the gang, but things go awry when his enemy Zhang Teng (played by Wayne, see CP 3) comes after for revenge. Bai Zongyi is a good student, your cutest boy next door, who is independent and has some PTSD from when he was beaten up in the rain - meets Fan Zherui and for once realises what it means to be loved, to have someone to care for him and more. TWO MEOW MEOWS?! Anyway, Bai Zongyi, according to MDL, will take the rap for some fight for Zherui, and then end up in jail, but then very weirdly the official description says that CP 2's Eddie ends up in jail for Bai Zongyi, I'm a tad confused but WHATEVER we will find out when we watch the damn show.

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CP 2: ADOPTED SON OF GANG BOSS + CHILDHOOD "YOUNGER BROTHER" PUPPY

Chen Yi x Eddie (Ai Di): They both grew up together with Eddie as the younger 'brother', with Chen Yi being 'adopted' by gang boss Chen Dongyang after his parents, also gang members die to protect the boss. Eddie has been chasing after him for the longest time, and has a sad family background as his parents are druggies and he was only able to grow up well under the protection of Chen Dongyang, and he only listens to Chen Yi. UNREQUITED-REQUITED love, but Eddie sees how Chen Yi feels deeply about Chen Dongyang (I don't know what that means from the description LMAO like??) and decides to leave Chen Yi, and somehow get embroiled in something and ends up in jail for Bai Zongyi. Chen Yi is only just understanding his own feelings for Eddie when Eddie literally goes to jail DOGBLOOD MUCH?! Anyway they will reunite 4 years later.

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CP 3: MY BAOBEIS?!?!?! MY LOVELIES WHO MADE US GET PTSD OVER SALT?! WILL THESE TWO GANG MEMBERS GET THEIR HAPPILY EVER AFTERS THEY BETTER FUCKING DO

Zhang Teng x A-Jun: BOTH GANG MEMBERS if you couldn't tell from their loud af shirts and thick ass accessories LMAO omg I cannot believe how happy I am to see these two again. A-Jun is Zhang Teng's like follower??? Has been following him since he joined the gang and both fears and reveres him, and Zhang Teng is just angry ball of angst and revenge and vengeance, if you couldn't tell from Wayne's face. I cannot believe they're in a setting! WHERE THEY MIGHT NOT GET GOOD ENDINGS WAS SALT SEPARATION NOT ENOUGH TELL ME YALL

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CP 3.5: DILFS? "CHILDHOOD FRIENDS" DADS???

Friends yall do not understand how I feel about these two uncles. IF you've ever watched Taiwan family dramas, these two, especially the one on the left Xie Chengjun, is a fucking LEGEND, he's in EVERY SINGLE FAMILY DRAMA all hundreds of episodes of them, he's literally like THE dude to idolise he's been paired up with EVERY SINGLE POPULAR GODDESS ACTRESS in Taiwan - I KID YOU NOT I GREW UP WATCHING HIM on OUR CHANNELS EVERY SINGLE DAY ACROSS 5-7 POPULAR FAM DRAMAS it's been like 20 years ISTG.

Anyway I'm NOT SURE if they are actually going to be a CP at all BUT (1) at press conference this week, these two made kissy faces at each other sooooo...?

Zhou Minglei grew up with Chen Dongyang protecting him as he was a weak and sickly child, so they're childhood friends, and he becomes super unhappy and upset that Chen Dongyang begins to protect and pays attention to Chen Yi ;-; LIKE WHAT IS THIS DESCRIPTION? Okay we could think of this professionally as like two bosses of a gang with their interests at stake BUT THE DESCRIPTION?! And ok Chen Dongyang on the right, he's obviously gang boss, and he relies on Zhou Minglei a lot to fix his problems for him. EXCUSE ME?!

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The main CPs (1 & 2) are torn apart in a particular fight, and they will reunite 4 years later LET'S SEE HOW THAT GOES THANK YOU.

500% I'll be watching this you bet your damn ass because they better give me happy ending Wayne and Junzhi THIS TIME otherwise they're seriously cursed?!?!?!? No more salt accidents fuck you writer for that ;-; AND IF THE DILF PAIRING COMES TRUE even if just bromance and meaningful side eyes, this bitch will take it.

Are you telling me...that there's a slight chance...that I might get some older queers?

Take. My. Money.

You know, this isn’t the thing that fucks me up the most about BL/“yaoi”/fujoshi discourse, but it’s high up there so I’m going to say it.

It took me my whole lifetime to accept the fact that I’m a feminine guy. Every time I was laughed at for being girly, nonviolent, called a sissy, bitch, or worse, it hurt like hell. And when I realized I was attracted to boys, that was when I started to question whether I was a real man. It felt like a stab to the gut.

I was there, little teenage me, reading BL, because I couldn’t connect with anything else I knew of. Straight romance didn’t do anything for me. I watched Brokeback Mountain and liked it, but I couldn’t relate to almost any part of it. Gei Comi (“bara”) wasn’t my taste back then — I wanted to see boys who looked a bit like me, not big hunky adults with facial hair! So I fell back to BL.

And you people on here complain about “straight girls squeeing and saying ‘my sinful gay babies!!!’” — guess what, I was around when you actually DID see fangirls say this type of thing. I was there consuming BL and slash by the truckful, ignoring the occasional homophobic comments from the author/uploader. I saw all the hate every other corner of fandom threw at BL fans, and you know what.

None of that hate was because they had homophobic attitudes.

It was purely because “yaoi is for stupid girls”, and they were “ruining the source material with their dirty gay hands”.

If girls touched anything that was “meant for boys”, including male characters themselves, it was “dirtied”, “ruined”. (Sounds familiar?)

And the boys who liked BL? Who preferred a romantic manga about androgynous guys slowly falling in love, with cherry blossoms being swept by the wind in the background, rather than just watching gay porn featuring masculine men? We weren’t “real men”.

If you thought there isn’t a fuckton of toxic masculinity in the gay male community, boy do I have news for you. Feminine, camp, flamboyant men, they all “made gays look bad”. Because of us, cishet people wouldn’t accept gay men as “real men”, so there were attempts to exclude us to protect the reputation of the unoffensive, masculine macho gays.

Obviously, it didn’t work, but damn if it didn’t make me and guys like me feel horrible that even other gay guys hated us.

It took me a long time to accept myself. Little mid-to-late-teens me, with light hypogonadism that stunted my growth and made me look very feminine. Before I started taking hormones per my endocrinologist’s advice, I barely had appetite to eat decently. I only lost my baby cheeks and started gaining muscle mass a year or so into hormone treatment.

Me, still flaming gay.

As I grew up, came out, and made queer friends, I became less and less dependent on BL for self-esteem and entertainment. But BL fans were slowly being more accepted in animanga fandom (or at least, people made peace with the fact that we weren’t going anywhere). Same for slash shippers in western fandoms. I was so happy to see all the M/M content. I was so happy to see a space where girls could share their passion (including erotica) and support each other.

When they learned that a gay guy liked the same things as them, they were ecstatic. They never shamed me for sharing their “girly” interests. I had serious conversations with them when they said insensitive or ignorant things, but it was becoming less and less necessary to do so. Fans were becoming progressively more conscious of queer issues.

And now.

Now,

Good fucking lord.

It’s so transparent. You feel so self-righteous expressing hate for women (plenty of whom are queer, but yeah, straight women too!) having interests, and god forbid, sometimes sexual interests (gasp!).

You dress it up as “concern for MLM” in the hopes that people will sympathize with your campaign to shame and harass women, men and gender non-conforming folk for daring to like content “not meant for them”, just like 2ch and 4chan dudebros in the mid-2000’s.

It makes me sick to the stomach.

Don’t pretend this is about homophobia. You don’t go after the exact same content if it’s made by “real men” featuring masculine macho “real men”.

You’ve heard of seme/uke tropes? Get ready for aggressive tops and “bottom bitches”! “Fetishizing Asian men”? Well, good thing that gay dudes have rice queens, and on the other end of the spectrum, “no fats, femmes or asians”. Transphobic themes? Some men consider “sh*male” or “tr*nny” to be porn categories! But neither anti-fujoshi nor transphobic gay men will talk about trans men — they’re “not real men”, after all, just “straight women invading gay spaces”.

And let’s not get into the rape, abuse, incest, racism, sexism, violence, and plethora of other problematic things that cis gay men portray in gei comi, original fic and fanfic — it puts dark BL and fic written by anyone else to shame.

But it’s okay, because it’s “real men” creating and consuming it, right?

Look, I get it. You want to seem like you’re doing good and fighting for queer men. I’ll hazard you even were fujoshi/fudanshi before and are ashamed of how you acted back then.

But all that you’re doing is misusing terms of a language you don’t know, from a culture you’re not part of and fandoms you don’t participate in, speaking over gay men and Asian fans, othering Asian people, and fostering an environment in which harassment of innocent fans is encouraged and marginalized people are used as scapegoats.

I feel for the trans guys, who go to fandoms to escape the hate and transphobia from the world, only to be misgendered and send hateful messages in the spaces they wanted to have fun in. Who are already accused of “faking it”, of not being “real men”, by bigots in the real world, and now have to face the same horrible things in fandom.

I feel for the queer girls, some of whom may not even be attracted to men, but to whom BL and/or slash means a lot. Who often don’t even have female characters to relate to, much less queer female characters, or simply can’t relate to them very well for a variety of complex reasons. They seek refuge in fandom, only to be misoriented, called “cishet”, having their identity erased to push an agenda.

And I feel for the straight, cis girls, who put genuine effort into educating themselves on queer issues, for whom fandom was a welcoming space where they could finally share their interests and be themselves, be allowed to have sexual interests… and now are being called perverts, deviants, and being told that they taint everything they touch.

And as much as it pisses me off to be called “basically a cishet girl”, it doesn’t get to me. At present, I’m secure in the knowledge that I am a real man, despite being gay, despite being feminine, despite liking BL. I am comfortable with myself and my identity.

But little teenage me would have been devastated.

Hey, anti-fujoshi? I don’t need your faux-activism. Kindly take your misogyny, efemmiphobia, transphobia and identity politics and leave us alone. Or —OR! Listen to the people you’re supposedly trying to protect.

Sincerely,

a gay, Asian, fem, queer as fuck fudanshi.

(x)

Only Friends: I Just Know Mew is Gonna Rob Ray

We're finally past the Boston horny period and now everyone has reach pot-nut clarity, so I can finally throw down my Clown Checkpoint.

I think Mew is planning further than just whether or not he gets a good grade on this project. He's clearly planning to take care of himself, and with the way he's clearly playing Top I suspect that he's also playing Ray. He has to know how Ray feels about him, and I think this project is a way for him to somehow also gain control of this hostel.

It's not about what you say. It's about using your eyes.

I wish I was hallucinating this moment. Then maybe it wouldn't hurt as much.

So uh….some dude apparently recreated Adobe Photoshop feature-for-feature, for FREE, and it runs in your browser.

Anyway, fuck Adobe, and enjoy!

Give credit to the 30-year-old who worked on this for free and offers this service for free!

WHAT?!

I study graphic design and my tutor recommended and used this in his classes at art college last year, it’s so good it has SO many features for free, I really recommend it, even if you’re just trying to learn the basics of PS, such a wonderful thing <3

So I drew all the times, they had knowingly or unknowingly crossed paths with each other 🥺💗

Twitter

the new gl series from Idolfactory DREAM is in pre-production

starring Fay Kanyapat as Dawan and May Yada as Kimhan

as well as Pear Neilinyah, Ploy Natcha, Heng Asavarid, Looknam Orntara and Songjet Sarochinee

Fay is openly bi 🩷💜💙

Just a reminder of what your plans are for this weekend:

Friday

Saturday

Sunday

Get a good night's rest, mi gente. Drink plenty of water. Eat a good meal. Make sure to get up and walk around every so often to get the blood pumping. Don't overexert yourself. Take rests when you need to. We gotta save some energy for Be Mine, Superstar, Minato's Laundromat, and Jun & Jun (and The Wedding Plan and Stay Still, for those of you watching).

This is a marathon. Pace yourself accordingly because we still have MORE premieres in September like Crazy Rich Handsome, Venus in the Sky, I Can't Reach You, and Naughty Babe.

Start stretching now.

The Standard Pop interview - Chairs to Share

Really fucked up actually that the "you are valid" culture which, usefulness and uh, validity thereof aside, was intended to provide some some perspective for people who may have been blamed for harmless things they could not control morphed into "if strangers on the internet do not constantly tell me I'm good and perfect they are the oppressor" and "even constructively and gently telling me that I hold some power and responsibility to seek a better situation is an unspeakably cruel act."

Once, in an argument with my therapist about a decision I made to antagonize my mother, I snapped, "My feelings are valid," and he shot back, "They're valid because they're real, but that doesn't make them rational."

It was a more nuanced and tailored conversation after that, but that particular quote struck me especially and made me realize how often I was conflating "valid" with "reasonable" or "justified."

GOD THE THEMATIC PARALLELS BETWEEN KAWI AND PISAENG!!!!

Kawi never felt successful, he always thought himself as a failure and undeserving of love, he thought he needed to fit into the society's expectations of what success is (married to a pretty and kind girl, famous and recognized, being part of the popular group of friends, having sex and drinking and doing all the "fun things") and what did he got? A GUY WHO LOVES HIM WHOLEHEARTEDLY, friends who support him for who he is and not for what he does or owns, he found happiness in a simple life doing what he wanted with the people that loved him.

And Pisaeng always felt like he needed to compensate his "flaws", he felt as if he needed to do more because he wasn't enough, because he was a man who liked men, and just for it, by default, he couldn't fit in the box of his mother's expectations, of his "friends" commentaries, of society's respectable people list. So he poured his heart out and gave his all and more for everyone, because he felt just himself would never be enough or the right choice for anyone. And he got a boyfriend who was willing to sacrifice his life just be with him, friends who stayed by his side even after he felt he failed them, he found he didn't have to sacrifice his whole identity to be happy.

Pisaeng told Kawi "I want to be with you. Because I love you, and because there's nothing more right than us being together". when Kawi felt that his choices would only bring sadness to the rest of the world. Kawi needed to learn that he's not the main villain on everyone's life, and that he is a person deserving of love as everyone else.

And then Kawi told Pisaeng the exact same thing when Pisaeng was doubting everything, when he was once blaming himself for not being enough, because he needed to know he's not some kind of disposable hero, he is a person who deserves to exist without having to gain merit for that, that he could be selfish and the world wouldn't crumble.

Both learnt to let go of things they couldn't control, that there's no such thing as a perfect future, no matter how self-deprecating or how much you sacrifice for others, no matter how much weight you put on your shoulders and how much blame for other's lives you take, the outcome of their decisions won't change.

The only thing they can do is be there for each other.

Be strong when the other one is weak.

Hold each other's hand, brace the consequences of their decisions, and fight for the things they can change, together.

They have help the other growth so much, they have become better persons each, and they did so through love, trial and error.

Kawi, who thought of himself as nothing but trash and a bad person (deserving of nothing) and Pisaeng, who felt that he needed to give his all to be accepted (provider of everything) needed the other in their life so they could find balance between them.

Kawi deserves love. Pisaeng doesn't need to prove anything. Kawi can give people happiness. Kawi can be a positive influence in people's life. Pisaeng can be selfish. Pisaeng can receive the same love he gives away.

BMF: On Amusement Park Allegories

 I’m thrilled that in episode 12 we’re back at the amusement park as that allegory for their relationship felt unplumbed. This time around, they plumbed it for all it was worth. 

In round 1 of the visit, the amusement park was an allegory for their relationship and the rides, in particular, represented sex. We saw Kawi’s hesitation in fully enjoying the amusement park. He was there just for the vibes, but Pisaeng was frustrated that Kawi was still reluctant to fully commit. There is also a valid alternate interpretation that Kawi is ace and his reluctance stemmed from that. I saw this more as Kawi trying to hold back and protect himself from new experiences and a fear of the unknown. 

Pisaeng’s suggestion that Kawi might enjoy the rides if he only tried them was clearly mirrored in that episode’s conflict around physical intimacy. In their first visit, Kawi avoids the rides and also riding in the car with the top down. He loves Pisaeng, but he’s still a little afraid of new experiences. 

In their second visit to the park, the allegory is out in full force. Now Pisaeng is afraid. He doesn’t push Kawi to do anything new like the first time. He is oddly passive, which is so wildly out of character that Kawi quickly figures out that Pisaeng is from the future and is burdened by that knowledge. 

One of the best things about this series, and part of why Kawi and Pisaeng work so well as a couple, is that they talk stuff out. They are honest about their fears and their desires. The whole amusement park is now one giant allegory for their relationship. 

In this repeat trip, their time at the park is quite different. Some echo remains of his previous lives and this time Kawi is more adventurous. He’s still terrified of the rides (apparently Krist is genuinely terrified, poor guy), but he’s done hiding from them. 

The rides are not just sex, but the whole panoply of life experiences. Kawi picks some and not others. He chose Pisaeng and a quieter life rather than a life in the closet with fame and stardom. In essence, he has tried many of the “rides” and decided that some were fun and some were not.

Then we have this exchange, which exactly mirrors Pisaeng’s fears from the future. 

Pisaeng wants to hide out in this moment, because he’s afraid of the future. Kawi is no longer afraid and doesn’t want to be robbed of those next ten years of joy, even with the uncertainty of the destination. This is a fascinating question about life. Do you choose joy and happiness, knowing that it’s transient? 

If you’re seen Arrival (spoilers so skip to the next paragraph), it has a similar conundrum. The main character chooses marriage and motherhood, knowing that it will not last. She decides that no happiness is eternal and for all the grief that will come, it was worth it for the joy she had. 

Kawi looked at this calculation and those 10 years of happiness and love with Pisaeng were worth it, no matter the uncertainty and risk. 

Kawi lived his very first life by protecting himself and his heart from everything and so never really lived. I don’t think it was accidental that he finally found his happiness when he LIVED those 10 years. No skipping ahead to the ending, because it’s not the destination, it’s the journey. That is the critical lesson that Kawi had to learn. 

Live is for living and amusement parks are for the rides and games. (And sometimes you’re the adult holding all the bags so your kids can enjoy it, and that’s part of life, too.)

I have to end with a lovely bittersweet song from Jason Isbell, If We Were Vampires  

Here’s to hoping that Kawi and Pisaeng get more than their 40 years, plus that small wedding in a hotel. 

BABES WAKE UP. NEW MILEAPO LORE JUST DROPPED.

New first encounter unearthed. It was on July 24th 2013, for the Monster University Collection by Giordano I can't believe such collection exists, which is a month before what we believed to be the first time they met. 😱😱😱

Don't believe it? Here is a video with all the official and fan-taken photos compiled by user AMAZINGXIV on Twitter:

Sorry to that man in the middle but the universe said you can't get in between the soulmates a second time, son.

collected them all like infinity stones cause DO YOU BELIEVE ME NOW WHEN I SAID GAYPOCALYPSE IS REAL

Ahem, there’s another gay show that’s about to take tumblr by storm. And the people have no idea..