AM

my sign to get out was him telling me he would rather i die giving birth than for me to get an abortion

it’s been about two months since we had our last fight. not having you in my life has felt so freeing. it took ending our friendship to realize the manipulation you were putting me through. giving me false hopes then ending up with the person you told me not to worry about. i just still feel so fucked over. i can’t move on with anyone else because i can’t trust that won’t happen to me again and in all honesty it is your fault. i never tried talking to you again because i know you would never see my side of it. you’re never going to believe you did anything wrong. i wish you would miss me. i still wish you would find a way to reach out after i blocked you on everything. i never got to tell you you used to be the reason i’m still here. i want to keep the good memories but i can’t help but hate you for everything you lied to me about. i’m spiraling but also at the same time i’ve never felt better. why am i still not okay?

i pooped at your house, how am i supposed to trust anyone ever again?:/

i hope he burnt all the letters i wrote him with words that no longer ring true

“forever and always”-y

all those times i ended up apologizing to you because YOU hurt my feelings. i’m glad i’m not your friend anymore