10lbs down this month

I couldn’t get out of a dinner w/ my boyfriend and his family, we went to a place called poki dot, it’s basically like... mega ed binge galore, like a foot tall sundae, 2,500 cal milkshakes, and oooo, I felt so skinny skipping dessert and his mom took a pic of me and him and who do I look SO MOTHER FUCKING FATTT😞😠😡🤬🤯😖😫😔

So I’ve been at this plateau of 151 lbs for about a month (after losing 20) and I have been binging on waffles and pancakes for a week, then I did a two day fast and guess what number I saw after a huge binge??? 146! I know it might be high for some people but progress

I need an Ed buddy to vent and rant too, mainly on snap so yeah

15-17 (I’m 16)

Any gender

Sw: 145+

Gw: 125-

Probably won’t do body checks personally

Me: walks 15k+ steps 5 days a week at my hospital job

Me: I can’t afford any more calories than Diet Coke :/

Did y’all know how not bad cinnamon rolls are, like if you get pillsburry wothout the I ing, the roll Is only 75 cals! Which might be a lot but binging on a whole pack for only 600 isn’t as bad as many other things to binge on. Plus if your parents make them in the morning and you can’t get around eating, say the icing makes your stomach hurt and just eat one roll

Roll without icing (75c)

Roll with icing (140c)

After fasting for 4 days, I promised myself I wouldn’t binge, then I forgot I work in fast food...

So my mom knows about my ED. A lot more than my dad, sooo my mom doesn’t keep a scale at her house, but my dad does. I’m eat their house every other week and I went to my dads today to grab a few things, won’t be back for two more days and forgot to weight myself, I was planning on ending my 3 day fast tomorrow, but I probably am going to binge, so I am extremely upset

I’ve been on a fast for just over 60 hours, I’m getting headaches and physically feeling my body giving up on me at this point so I might stop, I don’t want to eat dinner tonight and I can avoid eating until then, but we have to work out tomorrow for my class at school and I know I won’t be able to do even the half of it, I’m already the biggest in my class so if I’m behind in jogging everyone will think bad of me. I also have to be really strick about not binging once I get off of this fast but I probably will give in :/, I’ve learned that there are faster ways to lose weight than fasting but I’m so determined to make this my longest fast since I’m already half way there :(

These are probably out of order but I’ve gone down nearly three pounds, lost 20lbs (9.3kg?) in the last two months, I’ve been at a plateau of 152 for two weeks and I’ve been one a fast lasting almost two days so far, hoping to get two more days since my dad doesn’t notice

I didn’t eat anything after my lunch yesterday, I maybe had 1200-1500 cals yesterday, not good but not 2000, I’m 2 pounds less today 150.6 (68.4) which is good i guess, I started making a weight reward, which is hard because I’ve bribed and rewarded myself with food and I’m trying not to do that. If you live near a smoothie king I highly recommend it, they have 32oz smoothies (healthy) for only 230, which is crazy and they’re used as meal replacement smoothies. Anyway, I’m looking to be in the 140’s (66’s this week but my dad only buys unhealthy food :/

I’m eating at a hibachi steakhouse with my friend, I didn’t eat anything yesterday for this but I’ve had almost 1,000 cal binge in the last hour and now I’m scared because I can’t find accurate nutrition labels and I don’t have an actual menu. Even worse the stuff I did have this morning was all sweets and cake :’(

I need to start keeping track on my eating disorder and becoming more strick, I’m letting myself slack too much so I’ll be posting all of my daily meals on here

Sw: 170

Cw: 150

Gw: 110-115

Ugw: 95

Breakfast: 2 strawberry bars (100)

Strawberry smoothie (100)

Lunch: 8 count nugget Chick-fil-A (140)

Dinner: chicken noodle soup (150)

Snake: 44 vegan crackers (100)

Total: 590

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