“Da, I saw the suffering firsthand! I saw people’s lives saved by the Church! I’m not going into foreign service to be another fookin’ bureaucrat!”
The elder McMurray looked affronted, his black brows coming together like gathering thunder clouds. “Y’ think foreign service is bein’ another fookin’ bureaucrat? Y’ think y’ can’t save lives with diplomacy?”
“Have you looked around lately, da?” Kelley gestured broadly to the well-appointed kitchen, granite and steel, a sterile $42,000 of stuff they never touched except to swig orange juice from the carton. “We’re wasteful shites! Diplomacy makes money!”
“An’ how bloody wrong is it t’ make money? We’re successful. We fookin’ earned it!”
“On the backs of the poor! We don’t need all this crap, Da. We could fit four other families in here and it’s just you and me haunting the damn place. We could sell this off and downsize and give the leftovers to help others succeed.”
Oh, that was the wrong thing to say. The thunder clouds broke open, Peter’s voice roaring from his throat as he straightened, “This house was designed by your mum an’ you will bloody well appreciate that her touch lives on in this place!”
Frustrated, Kelley swept the Georgetown acceptance letter off the kitchen table to skitter across the floor. “Maybe if your fookin’ diplomacy saved lives, we wouldn’t be living in mum’s ghost!” Both McMurrays glared daggers at one another, until Kelley broke first, spun away, and stomped out of the house to cool his head.
Cooling his head hadn’t worked too well and Kelley ended up walking some six miles all the way to Arlington. While Kelley was an idealist, there were sections of Arlington where being a clean-cut Asian-looking kid in crisp business casual at night was a distinctly bad idea, and Kelley wasn’t a stupid idealist. Grumpy at the thought of having to return home, he hurried to the Metro station and caught a train back towards McLean.
He hadn’t meant to fall asleep.
His dream started out blandly enough: the photographic flip-book of the last day or two, silver sparkles in black granite, the wheeze of an ancient fan in the office of the charity where he fixed aging computers and replaced obsolete baud modems with broadband, dull and dusty computer guts, the resiny rose scent of the rosary against his chest. When one of the computers started spinning like a top, the nonsense of it broke Kelley out of the moment and he realized - as he often did - that he was dreaming.
That was the best part of sleeping, really. In dreams, he could do anything. Godlike, he waved his hand and the entire system was upgraded. Wishing idly, the air conditioner was fixed. A passing fancy cleaned the floors and pressed the uniforms and blasted years of car exhaust off the exterior of the old church building. In his dreams, Kelley could fix the entire world. Reveling in his power, he shot into the sky like Ironman, rearranging the air to suit him with puffy clouds and gentle mists.
A woman stepped out of the mists in the sky. She wore a toga, her brown face sculpted in the severe lines of a Greek statue beneath hair pulled up under a woolen circlet. A black rod rested in her fingertips like a wand from the Harry Potter movies. Kelley froze mid rocket-leap. You don’t belong here.
But this isn’t your space. It’s mine.
No. It’s mine. Something else strode up next to the woman. Not a someone, for this was like a person in the same way that the Atlantic was like a pond. With a gravity like the moon and stars for eyes in a black hole face, the something-else pulled Kelley into its orbit. You wake in your dreams.
The world wobbled slightly, then righted with a tightening that felt like a vice on his temples. I’m usually lucid, yeah. What of it?
You did well to call me, Marietta. You may awaken. The woman smiled at Kelley, lifted her hand to wave with a wiggle of fingers, and faded away. The primordial star-stuff stayed. I have too few dreamers. You will serve.
Serve what? Okay, really, time to wake up now. This is bullshit. Kelley clasped his rosary against his chest - only to have the resin and rose-paste beads disappear. That’s not supposed to happen. That’s mine.
And this place is mine. I am Morpheus. You are Kelley Ichirou McMurray.
Yeah, thank you so much for the reminder of my parents’ lame attempt at cultural fusion. It’s time to wake up. The vice on his head tightened and Kelley realized it was a night-sky hand cupping the top of his head. Morpheus. As in… Greek myth Morpheus?
I am not a myth. Mine is the realm of sleep, and you will serve.
Kinda already spoken for here. Catholic. Going into the priesthood. Already claimed by the Almighty.
The All-Seeing does not see all. This place is mine. As are you.
I’d like to object. Strenuously.
It takes two weeks for the hallucinations to begin. In less than six months, you will die. Serve or be barred from my realm.
This dream is weird, I’d like to wake up now, and I’m still objecting. The edges of the world went white, the vice grip disappearing. And Kelley woke up a stop before McLean.
There was a woman in the car with him, riding four seats ahead. As the train pulled to a halt, she grasped the rail in front of her and stood up. Her face was smile-lined and her hair greying at the temples; she looked plush and warm and friendly. Fishing in her purse, she beamed at him and pulled out a business card. Where had he seen her smile before? While he pondered, she pushed the card into his hand, stepped back with a little wiggle of her fingers, and walked onto the platform.
“Marietta Bower, horticultural specialist,” he read off the card. “Marietta? Wait…”
Kelley lasted four days without sleep before he called the number on the card. “I give. I’m in.” A week later, he was in Baltimore. At Loyola. Under the omnipotent eye of the Almighty.