my blog's becoming a mess, and i realized i haven't even properly introduced myself so here i go;
my name's Jaime, but you can call me Murs. i'm 20 years old and i use he/him and they/them pronouns. welcome to my blog.
fandoms and tags under the cut

my blog's becoming a mess, and i realized i haven't even properly introduced myself so here i go;
my name's Jaime, but you can call me Murs. i'm 20 years old and i use he/him and they/them pronouns. welcome to my blog.
fandoms and tags under the cut
thinking about parksborn in their late 20s-early/mid 30s and peter seeing a family with an infant on patrol or helping may clean out the basement and finding old baby books, and just immediately getting hit with a wave of "i want that". hes always wanted a family of his own, always had so much love to give, and may raised him real good, so hes pretty confident in the fact that he could raise his own child just as well.
and then theres harry. harry who avoids the subject all together or tenses up whenever peter even just alludes at it. and peters not trying to force him into it, because if harrys not ready, hes not ready, and peter can wait, and he wont bother harry about it anymore.
until they have an argument. harrys been all distant lately, coming home late, being busy at odd times, etc. the kid thing gets brought up, peter asking if thats the reason harrys acting like this, asking if he was pushing it too hard.
harry breaks.
just completely breaks, screaming about how, yes it is about the kid thing, how hes been going to therapy (after years of refusal) to try and better himself and get his shit sorted out, to try and undo every little thing that norman had done and instilled into him, because harry is not fucking up this potential kids life. hes not turning into norman.
he cries and cries and cries, peter holding him as he whispers words of comfort to harry.
they talk about it calmly the next day.
harry'll go to therapy for as long as he needs to, until he feels and knows that hes ready. and peter will wait. because he's always gonna wait for harry.
a few years later, their daughter is born, and harry is the best damn dad there ever was.
(might turn this into a full blown fic)
screenprint i did of khaji! beetle burgerrrrrrr
I would also like to preface this by saying that this is based on my experiences with having BPD and the diagnostic criteria in the DSM-5
Peter is 100% Harry's favorite person. I mean look at him. The way that he makes every excuse to be around Peter so much so that he practically begged him to work at his company? The passive-aggressive "So you told MJ, but not your best friend?" when he learned that Peter was Spider-Man? And then insists that he work with him as a superhero to kinda push Miles out of the way? The entire high school flashback scene? Not to mention that Harry held Peter in high regard even before he learned that he was Spider-Man.
Also, remember that the symbiote only emphasizes thoughts and emotions that already exist. So when Harry's probably splitting on Peter about the whole Spider-Man thing, the anger is only amplified by Venom.
Now, before y'all say that "all this only happened after Harry got the symbiote," that is simply false. During the final fight with Venom, Peter says that he "came over every single day after school. Even slept over after [his] mom got sick." While yes, Harry not being able to "see her like that" was a component afterward, that doesn't explain Harry's attachment to Peter beforehand. I would also like to comment that Venom says that Harry's mom "always said" that Peter and Harry "make each other better." This is all theoretical, but she might have noticed that Harry's mood or behaviour might have become more outwardly stable or better when around Peter, which from my experience is something that happens when existing around (or even sometimes thinking about) your FP.
Because, at the moment, Harry can only focus on the rage he has toward Peter, he can only think about the bad things, as evidenced by Venom claiming that Peter was there "Until [he] got sick again," which is objectively not true, but BPD alone can exaggerate thoughts to extremes, and the symbiote on top of it makes it worse. Venom continues, "You abandoned us when we were fighting for our lives," and that it didn't feel like Peter was trying to save them when he was. One of the main symptoms of BPD is an intense fear of abandonment, so much so that the person will take extreme measures to make sure that that doesn't happen, such as leaving before they are hurt, or, in this case, hurting the other person first so abandonment seems justified and therefore hurts less.
In the second phase of the fight, Venom declares: "We know what's best for you! For everyone! We gave you everything you ever wanted." This likely has something to do with BPD affecting one's self-image, which may change from 'the most worthless scum of the Earth' to what I like to call 'I can fight God and win.' As Venom, Harry believes that he now has the power to "heal the world" all by himself, enhancing his temporary superiority complex. Only several lines later, however, Harry's unstable self-image flips from 'knowing best for everyone' to 'being a complete failure,' because Venom states, "We've never been good enough for you... or Dad."
Venom goes on to say that Peter "threw [them] away" and then "replaced [them] with Miles. He poisoned [Peter] against [them] even more." Again, this characterizes Harry's intense fear of abandonment, because 'if Peter spends more time with Miles, then he won't have time for him anymore, and therefore matter to him anymore and he'll be left alone.' (These are thoughts I've had on bad days when my FP spent time with other people)
When Peter tries to fight Venom's claims and says that Harry's his best friend, the exaggeration and impulsive thoughts continue, and he says "Then why don't you trust us?" Again, Harry can only think in the negative at the moment, so he fails to see anything good that Peter is doing for him or the emotions that Peter is feeling.
During the cutscene after the second phase, when Peter says that he's "never gonna heal the world with [Harry]," you can see Venom falter, sighing and looking down before the meteorite catches his attention and distracts him.
At last, during the third phase of the fight, Venom turns his attention to Miles, the person who he sees as having caused Peter to 'turn against him' and spend less time with him. He insists that "[his] future doesn't belong to [Miles]," insinuating that Harry should be the one to have a deep and lasting relationship with Peter, not Miles, even though Miles thinks that he's talking about 'healing the world.'
After the third phase when Venom throws Miles aside and buries him under rubble, he tells him and MJ: "Peter doesn't need you anymore... He has us now." because he thinks that he is all Peter needs, when in reality it's Harry that needs Peter, though he might not realize it.
In the fourth phase, he asserts to Miles: "You took him away from us!" Which is strangely familiar to something I said when my FP started spending time with another person.
Another small thing I would like to note, when flying away after the fourth phase, Venom deliberately throws Miles off him, but not Peter. Also, when Miles is falling down with the meteorite in his hands, Venom focuses his attention on grabbing and eating him rather than retrieving the meteorite.
When Peter finally has Venom pinned to the ground and tries to blast the symbiote away from Harry, he claims that he's done and that he can't fight it, then both Harry and Venom state, "You have to KILL us." BPD is also characterized by suicidal ideations or behaviours, and if Harry telling Peter to kill him isn't suicidal behaviour then I don't know what is.
Finally, when Venom is gone and Peter tells Harry that he loves him, Harry smiles what looks like a genuinely content and satisfied smile, like that was the only thing that Harry wanted or needed to hear before he could let himself fall unconscious.
And if that’s not BPD coded I don’t know what is.
I'm having feelings about TASM Harry Osborn. (Surprising to everyone, I know. It's not like I've gotten ridiculously invested in the Osborns lately or anything.) But...he's so young, and he's so scared, and he is completely, utterly alone.
Yes, he can certainly be abrasive, especially with people he dislikes, but most of it is because (a) he is surrounded by people who are actively scheming against him, and he knows it, (b) he has NO support network whatsoever except for his assistant whom he met less than 48 hours ago and his childhood best friend whom he hasn't spoken to in eight years (who, from his perspective, gets very standoffish as soon as Harry makes any real demands on their friendship) and (c) he spends almost the entire movie being abjectly terrified because he's twenty and (like most twenty-year-old men) he thought he was immortal, right up until a couple of days ago when his dad informed him that the horrible disease which was killing HIM was genetic and Harry had it too.
Seriously. Everybody thinks they're immortal when they're twenty, and he's just been violently faceplanted into the concept of his own mortality by his abusive dad, who then promptly died. He has exactly 0 stable adults in his life to help him deal with the knowledge that he's going to die and is in fact already dying. Then the people he thought were scheming against him frame him for covering up a death and fire him from his dad's company (which is both his livelihood AND his best hope of a cure). Of course he panics. Of course he lashes out and does stupid stuff. He has...a lot more responsibility than he's really ready for and absolutely NOBODY who can pull him back from the edge. (Peter tries. Bless him, Peter tries so hard. But one friend, however good, can never fill the void left by all the myriad adults who should have protected and mentored Harry and have instead thrown him back on his own resources time and time again, and when Peter is having a crisis, which he is for most of the movie, his communication skills go out the window, so Harry never realises just how deeply Peter does care for him.)
And when he's fully, finally lost hope and driven himself half-mad by experimenting on himself, then he decides that all he has left is vengeance, and that he might as well go out hurting Spider-man as badly as he himself has been hurt. There's no excuse for what he does, but there are a lot of explanations, and it makes me sad how much of his downward spiral would have been preventable if he'd had...one single healthy parental figure in his life.
no i am not writing multiple fics in which he gets adopted by assorted healthy parental figures what do you mean
more rings anatomical edition
This info needs to be out there, it turned the tide against cryptocurrency in the public eye it might fit so too
good luck, babe!
am not feeling the proportions but hey… raimiverse parksbon waits for no reference images …
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the reason your comment was removed was valid, you were spreading misinformation
our wrists are WAY to limp to carry and then properly release the ball. not to mention the real hazard that is lesbians and their rings
if fingering the ball was the only factor then i’d agree, but the situation is a lot more nuanced than you are suggesting within this comment
I found these moths separately, and placed them on the tree together I walked away for some time and came back to the little one hiding out under the larger one’s wing :3
Made a little cutscene thing. The temptation to make this an actual game...
Maybe when I get some time.
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sharing some gofundmes of Palestinians that haven't reached their goals yet
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