GREYS ANATOMYYYY!!

dont say nothin just reblog if she looks like who you know we all think she looks like

Don't kill yourself, please.

If you’re suffering from depression and are looking for a sign to not go through with ending your life, this is it. This is the sign. We care.

If you see this on your dash, reblog it. You could save a life.

Follow up

I’m actually really happy about today though because even though he’ll never wanna be with me we have a really great time together and he’s really fun and like unexplainably nice and just amazing.

Ngl

I’m annoyed at myself again for liking someone and being like extreme again and liking them loads and them like not even really liking me. Wtf if wrong with me?

Broken-blossomflower 🍎TW🍏

So idk how to explain to my therapists and psychologists that I just get sad for no reason and it won’t go away. Like I have loads of reasons why I want to kill myself but nothing beats the feeling of hopelessness and loneliness. Despair and empty feelings. Nothing can explain that I just want to die and no, it’s not for a reason other then every time I walk outside and see the sun. I see nothing then a ball of death that might kill everyone one day. I don’t see a life force and sun and happy families. I see death. That’s all I ever see.

I can’t be happy. I can pretend but I’m never happy. I have thoughts, obsessions that take over my mind and actions. I have days where I am actually happy but I’m so happy that if someone talks to me I get really mad at them for ruining a perfect day. But if they don’t talk to me I’m mad because they obviously don’t want me to be happy.

I live with nightmares and anger issues and paranoia. Cameras, cameras everywhere. People listening to every conversation I have and honestly? I can’t deal with it.

I’m impulsive to the point where I almost stabbed someone because I was so scared I was going to stab someone I carried a knife with me during an episode. Then when someone came near me I got scared and started screaming. Thankfully no one but me was hurt and no one found out about the knife.

But it still happened and I do impulsive things all the time. I obsess over my weight to the point that if my boyfriend is not with me then I will eat 300-500kcals a day and exercise for an hour and a half straight three times a day. I can’t stop counting calories and thinking of ways to loose weight and get a buddy to help me through it. Help me.

I don’t know what I’m doing and I’m scared and I don’t want to die but it’s my only option. This hell was made for me and I don’t know what to do. I’m getting worse but thanks to all the help I’m getting (shout out to the NHS for actually trying to help me instead of leaving me to die. I would already be dead without you) it’s not as rapid as it could be. I should however keep taking my meds.

I don’t think the NHS gets enough credit for drowning in dept and still trying to help dying people. Stop mental health stigma guys. The NHS needs your help. Pluck up the courage and raise money for them. Even if it’s not enough to fix them, raise money for a hospital in need of more staff. Even the fancy hospitals and wards (shoutout to the best ward I know at Warnford hospital, the Highfeild unit) need your money for more staff so patients can get better care and better facilities or even keep up to date with their current facilities! Honestly without the Highfeild unit I would not have the coping strategies I need to survive. My friend Finn is still there and I’m sorry buddy. You’re amazing.

You would not believe your eyes

if i wasn’t traumatised

😂😂😂😂

Want

you may miss them sometimes, but you’re so much better off without them and you know that

Daily reminder

i wish issues with daily hygiene due to mental illness were talked about more. i feel like it’s the elephant in the room when it comes to symptoms of debilitating disorders.

so i’m proud of everyone who brushed their teeth, washed their face, showered, and/or put on fresh underwear today. and it’s ok if you haven’t done all or any of those (i know i’ve only done the first two); i’m still so proud of you for managing and surviving another day. keep going you’re doin good.