@slowlyrusting

"We are reduced to asking other what we are, We never dare to ask ourselves."

Can I say something? Can I say something about "the game"? I don't get it. Generally I count myself lucky to be an autistic who has noodled out many of the strange facets of allistic culture but this one eludes me. Like, huh? I lost the game? Okay?? Does anyone care? Ostensibly people care about losing the game but I don't think anyone actually does. The only real value in the game is being able to make someone else lose the game. Which apparently is supposed to make them feel bad? It's just so annoying and I've never seen anyone be like "you just lost the game" in a way that doesn't make me want to literally open hand slap their face. It falls under the category of people doing things that they know will make the other person upset and then laughing that the other person is upset. Which for me is one of the most blood-boilingly commonplace forms of socially acceptable cruelty.

I’m constantly flipping between “I couldn’t possibly be autistic! Someone would’ve noticed!” And remembering that I used to sort beads for fun. Like I had one of those boxes of pony beads and I would dump them all together then sort them into their own pockets because it was fun.

ngl I thought the puzzle piece as an autistic symbol meant like. I am a vital puzzle piece to your society. humans would never have invented half the things they did without us. you're telling me it means I'm missing something?? buddy. listen. listen to me reeeeaal closely. no human has all the pieces to humanity. no one. no one has all the features enables no one has all the strengths weaknesses or quirks. no one has a whole puzzle. we make the freaking complete picture together. that's the freaking point.

BLs to Recommend to Your Queer Friend

I put these in each bracket in levels of accessibility, as in “how easy I think they are for a non-BLer to enter into” without explanations of genre needed. 

Bleeding Heart Romantics 

  • Semantic Error
  • Bad Buddy
  • A Tale of Thousand Stars

Earnest Queer

  • The New Employee
  • My Ride

Drama Llama Indoor Kids

  • Our Dating Sim
  • Cherry Magic
  • My Love Mix Up

Repressed Arthouse Aesthetic 

  • Old Fashion Cupcake 
  • Love Life On The Line
  • Restart After Come Back Home

Hot Mess Gay Babies

  • The Eighth Sense
  • Moonlight Chicken

Hawt Mess Kinky Fuckers 

  • Bed Friend
  • KinnPorsche
  • My Beautiful Man 

Bonus Round: 

Adventure bois with a side of queer

  • Manner of Death
  • Not Me
  • Long Time No See
  • 3 Will Be Free
  • He’s Coming To Me

From @mestizashinrin who asked me: 

“recommend a queer person to first start in BL”
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Don't sabotage your identity trying to name it. Let it be undefined, permeable, mixed, peculiar, unapologetically authentic. Be in peace with being unprecedented, with not fitting anywhere, with being adrift. Before flight, there's a free fall.

unstoppable force (me hating when i have unread messages) vs immovable object (not having the energy to text back and carry a conversation)