Above Ground, Clint Smith
belovéd ones with mood disorders: the lights getting weird again and so will your brain don’t blame yourself
Shout-out to everyone who is trying right now…Trying to do the right thing. Trying to stay strong. Trying to hold on. Trying to let go. Trying to love themselves. Trying to find happiness. I see you. I'm there too. We're in this together.
[Image description: A hand painted posterboard sign at what looks like a protest. Sign is in all caps and reads, "HRT is older than Viagra, Lasik, and heart transplants. Stop calling it "experimental" /end ID]
[Image description: A hand painted posterboard sign at what looks like a protest. Sign is in all caps and reads, "HRT is older than Viagra, Lasik, and heart transplants. Stop calling it "experimental" /end ID]
yeah cocaine sounds alright i guess but have you ever tried being a gay 14 year old reading this line for the first time
served my duty as an autistic artist and made a bunch of autism creature reaction images
there's something so compelling to me about the fact that sometimes leaving a blade or bullet inside the wound it made is the only way to prevent you from bleeding to death. something about the ironic symbolism of it. when the thing designed and intended to kill you is the only thing keeping you alive.
also yes i do enjoy a bit of penetration imagery and the perverse intimacy of violence. if you must know.
touch starved but for physical violence
It's like looking in a mirror, weird.
the thing I hate about how some people ask diagnostic questions for autism is the phrasing. for example, someone once asked "do you often like to wear ear/headphones or ear plugs?" and no, I don't. I hate wearing them because i get super paranoid and start having very bad intrusive thoughts. on that superficial level, I would say no, I do not like to wear those. but that's not what the question actually means. the root of the question is really just "do loud or repeated noises irritate you?" but for some reason, people like to say it in the most sly underhanded way possible. asking those serious intentioned questions in such a obscure way completely ignores people with multiple disorders. it assumes everyone is completely the function standard human who is only experiencing one issue at a time, rather than a complex divergent person
huge fan of reading and learning, but also an even bigger fan of sleeping and being unconscious.
— Albert Camus to René Char, Correspondance (1946-1959).
"Life today is too hard, too bitter, too weakening, for us to suffer more new servitudes coming from those we love."
Are you in the rain? In the air? Here? Can I so lucky as to be so close ? Are you here
babygirl i will invent stages of grief you have never seen before
you are doomed to hurt forever but! not all of the time. the pleasure forever ripples too
fuck it. shout out to "high functioning" neurodivergents
the ones who can mask easily, the ones who can get social cues, the ones who have managed to go most of their life not even knowing they were ND because they didn't present as the stereotypical ND person.
the ones who can pay attention in class, understand social etiquette, who understand societial expectations
the ones who don't feel neurodivergent enough bc they don't struggle in the same ways/areas a lot of NDs do, or they can't relate to other NDs' experiences because they always understood these things easily
the ones with high empathy, the ones who DO get the joke, the ones who are constantly told that they can't possibly be neurodivergent because they don't act like what you'd expect a neurodivergent person to act like.
you are neurodivergent enough. you are valid, and so are your experiences. not struggling as much as others do in some places doesn't mean you dont struggle at all. your condition and diagnosis is valid. your symptoms are valid. YOU ARE VALID. not checking all the supposed boxes doesn't mean you aren't neurodivergent. you are enough. you are valid. you are loved. you are valued. you matter. you belong in neurodivergent spaces, you deserve to use whatever resources are available to you, you are allowed to take up space in these communities. and i am so, so proud of you.
feel free to, and actually, i encourage you to reblog this with your experiences. we belong in this community as much as anyone else. please also tag this w/ any neurodivergent conditions i may have forgotten 💙
Can I say something? Can I say something about "the game"? I don't get it. Generally I count myself lucky to be an autistic who has noodled out many of the strange facets of allistic culture but this one eludes me. Like, huh? I lost the game? Okay?? Does anyone care? Ostensibly people care about losing the game but I don't think anyone actually does. The only real value in the game is being able to make someone else lose the game. Which apparently is supposed to make them feel bad? It's just so annoying and I've never seen anyone be like "you just lost the game" in a way that doesn't make me want to literally open hand slap their face. It falls under the category of people doing things that they know will make the other person upset and then laughing that the other person is upset. Which for me is one of the most blood-boilingly commonplace forms of socially acceptable cruelty.
I’m constantly flipping between “I couldn’t possibly be autistic! Someone would’ve noticed!” And remembering that I used to sort beads for fun. Like I had one of those boxes of pony beads and I would dump them all together then sort them into their own pockets because it was fun.