Back when I used to hang out with people this was so real
That fucking bpd rage where everyone's voices makes you want to scream and every noise around you makes you want to sh and you're so mad you can almost feel the cuts everywhere
“u okay?” no i just want to feel loved by someone without thinking they’re lying to me
please i want to be someone's priority please answer my texts eagerly, cling to me, kiss me, be desperate as much as I for contact, call me and let's talk for hours (what was the last time someone called me?), please i want someone, superficial friendships aren't enough i want more, i want to know you'll always be there no matter what and that you know i will be there for you too, im begging, i am on my knees, i want reciprocated, unshakeable devotion
im so tired
can u sexualize me again i miss feeling like i meant smth to u lol
The feeling of emptiness it's back. It's worse than usual, it's terrifying, it has never been this strong before.
Sorry I split on you I perceived abandonment for a fraction of a second
the sexual tension betwen me and never speaking to anyone again
i just wish i could explain how fucking low this low feels
i dont care (this affected me deeply and made me cry for several hours)
How it feels when you see old messages where they called you affectionate nicknames
do you guys ever remember an event from your childhood and realise that it was actually a severely traumatic thing for a little kid to go through, and not just an ordinary thursday evening in your house?
*me, literally sick with want* whatever
I think I’m very hard to deal with
Me trying to convince myself it’s my fp’s loss after he abandoned me even though every second without him is pure fucking agony
i don’t care i don’t care i don’t care (im going to sob my fucking eyes out)
