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ASHAMED OF MY BODY

hi so i went to try out my dress today and i was so ashamed:my calves look too muscular,my arms are fat,my legs are totally disgusting,my stomach looks like I'm 28 weeks pregnant,my back is not straight,my face is kinda chubby i just hate it ALL .

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teaandskinnylegs

10 years old

fatty meals and chubby thighs

runway models with bones well defined

saying no to a burger and chips

after all a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips

12 years old

balanced meals and pinching thighs

brainwashed friends with pro ana

and wanting to be hurl

after all boys don’t like fat girls

14 years old

skipping meals and thinner thighs

five miles run for one cube of cheese

counting calories, not wanting meals

after all nothing tastes as good as skinny feels

16 years old

no meals and gap in thighs

arms like matchsticks, poking out ribs

size two dress and body so mini

after all everything looks good on skinny

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tiredtofeelnasty
Personal thinspo

things I’m looking forward to experiencing again (based on my past experience):

  1. a defined face
  2. hipbones
  3. seeing my bone structure
  4. bony “angel wings”
  5. no more baby cheeks
  6. a prettier, more proportional face
  7. narrow waist
  8. slender fingers
  9. an enormous thigh gap
  10. perfect long legs
  11. dropping from a DD to an A/B so that I can go braless and bralettes are comfy
  12. running my hands across my bones
  13. a prominent bony breastplate
  14. collarbones that could collect rainwater
  15. freckles settling in on my bonier face
  16. makeup looking more flattering
  17. my hair framing my bonier face
  18. wearing my bodycon and shape framing dresses
  19. wearing super tiny-waist skirts
  20. lifting up a loose shirt or sweater to see my ultra skinny body
  21. my boyfriend jeans hanging off loosely
  22. fitting in only the smallest of sizes
  23. wearing my hair up without worrying about how my face is framed
  24. bloating after eating no longer makes me look 6 months pregnant
  25. shutting up anyone who thinks or tells me i look fat
  26. being prettier
  27. skinny arms
  28. perfect manicures on my slender nails
  29. shopping for food doesn’t make me embarassed because I’m skinny
  30. occasionally getting “junk food” isn’t embarassing
  31. qualifying for modeling if i wanted to
  32. being stopped on the street and told I’m pretty
  33. my favorite clothes fits me flawlessly
  34. one less problem to worry about
  35. everything fits me
  36. wearing white & light colored jeans without it looking grotesque
  37. wearing shorts knowing they actually flatter me
  38. wearing belts with everything to keep it on me
  39. clothes being too big on me
  40. a sense of accomplishment and pride
  41. fitting into my aesthetic
  42. my bones peeping out
  43. people mistaking me for a model
  44. walking around a beach without shame
  45. knowing i scare people with how perfectly skinny I am and how little I weigh for my height
  46. not being embarassed to change in front of someone
  47. not embarassed to get a massage (unless they comment “you’re too bony”)
  48. not shy of the camera
  49. traveling is more fun
  50. being able to go to restaurants from time to time or pick special days when i can actually eat what I’d like to or try new food
  51. saving a ton of money on food & spending it on other cooler things like traveling or clothes
  52. being light enough that if someone tries to pick me up or give me a piggyback ride, I’m lighter than they expect & thus not embarassed
  53. being more awake even when tired bc I’m always hungry
  54. less surface area to shave
  55. occupying less area in general
  56. being able to not eat for long periods of time
  57. walking around in lingerie without being embarassed
  58. surprising people who havent seen me in a long time with how much skinnier and prettier ive gotten
  59. control over an aspect of my life
  60. control over something that no one can mess with or take away from me
  61. not sweating anymore unless its over 40 degrees C
  62. looking skinny even in snow gear
  63. being cold at night during summers so i can cuddle in a duvet or warm blanket like in the winter
  64. bruising from things hitting my hipbone reminding me of how skinny i am
  65. the power of saying no to food and starving myself
  66. being my own thinspo and thinspo worthy
  67. giving advice & feeling worthy of doing so
  68. feeling worthy of my blog & of going on tumblr
  69. holidays, family time & memories suddenly become so precious
  70. people jealous of my successful weight loss
  71. being a pro at walking bc my endurance from so much walking is really high
  72. a walk to the shower is more fun bc my reflection is skinny
  73. getting a pastry in a nice cafe is charming and appropriate, not laughable
  74. being as skinny as a faerie or a nymph
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skinnyinsummer-blog1

basically all of the above 🍒