"It's over, Natsu...
...It's alright, I am here"
About Gray’s final words in chapter 84
I think the last time I wrote a meta about Gruvia was like… years ago for chapter 499/500, in the original story. ^^” Today though, after reading certain comments about chapter 84 from FT100YQ, I felt like some people need to read this- I personally do not think that what Gray said needs an explanation. Gray has been and keeps being very blunt and crystal clear about his intentions with Juvia: juvia means the world to me, I wanna become a man who can protect her, and then I swear I will make her mine, she’s my power to live… okay, that’s a lot. it’s just a matter of reading comprehension and context at this point. “I don’t want to be happy.”
I guess this is the “problematic” part. Context will help us: Gray had just had a taste of what happiness is to him: loved ones from his past (Silver, Ur, Ultear), loved ones from his present (Juvia) and even loved ones from his future (Greige) all gathering together as a family to celebrate a special occasion, his birthday. He had a taste of his perfect dream life and it’s important to notice that, not even once, he fell for this “trap”: he keeps saying to himself “it’s a dream… it’s a dream…” and finally “IT’S WRONG”.
Why is it wrong? Because he knows he’s living a FAKE reality, simply as that. Silver, Ur and Ultear won’t come back to him. He knows this is his personal utopia: the past is the past, what is lost is lost. It’s his selfish desire and he knows that accepting this fantasy means not only losing the present and future (real Juvia, Greige and the family he wants to start) but also dwelling on the past- and, after over 500 chapters from the original story and sequel, we all know he wants to look forward to the future and just be over it already. It’s a fact. Why should he stay in this fake dream, then? Why should THIS be his happiness? There you have it. He doesn’t want to be happy- he doesn’t want to be happy like this. Context. Many are interpreting it as he doesn’t want happiness in general because he’s either feeling guilty or because that bitch Juvia trapped him in a love story he clearly doesn’t want (lol)… but nope, his sentence just need context. Gray wants to be happy with Juvia and Greige. The hallucination starts with Juvia as his wife waking him up lovingly and his son greeting him with a very sweet “daddy!”. This is what he wants, what makes him happy: having the family he’s always dreamt of, that family which was stolen from him as kid by Deliora. This is his happiness- present and future. His very happiness is his power to live, his strenght… it’s that one woman he’s fighting for, he’s living for. It’s Juvia. And you know what comes next?
“I want to make Juvia happy.”
Her happiness is his. His happiness is hers. They love each other so deeply and it’s so crystal clear… as I said, it didn’t even need an explanation. If you love someone you want them to be happy- and in Gray’s case, considering the context of the chapter AND his ongoing development, this is his new hapiness. He’s not denying his own happiness as many said for the sake of Juvia: yes, she’s his priority right now, but he’s not really putting her happiness over his. They want the same thing and they will be happy together with wonderful kid(s) hopefully in a near future.
I love Gray because his development is one of a kind in Fairy Tail. He’s a special person and deserves the world. Also, let me just say one final thing: with this chapter he definitely gets the crown for the most romantic boy in FT. A lover boy through and through like Juvina would say. haha! Enjoy this chapter guys, we’re in for something big.
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