March 1, 2018
I hate you because you hurt me
I hate you because two weeks before that you said I made things better
I hate you because I had finally started letting myself see the possibility of you in my future
I hate you because you walked me to class and hugged me and I almost broke
I hate you because the next day you didn’t walk me to class
I hate you because I didn’t even get a chance to show you that you were wrong about us
I hate you because you used to look at me with so many stars in your eyes and I stopped seeing those stars there a while ago
I hate you because there was so many things I still wanted us to do
I hate you because every time I think I’m finally a step closer to getting over you something pushes me two steps back again
I hate you because I need you the most now and you’re not even here
I hate you because I still want to fix what went wrong
I hate you because I miss you everyday
But most of all
I hate that I kinda love you
– k.h.
I wonder if you miss me. If you ever wish you could text me. If you think about my stupid jokes and my stupid feelings. I wonder if you wish that you could hold me one more time, because I do.
nochordmusic
I haven’t had a good night’s sleep since the last time you held me in your arms.
I wonder if you ever think about messaging me, and never do
- Please, I’m waiting.
the saddest thing is to be a minute to someone, when you’ve made them your enternity
nochordmusic
I don’t sleep anymore
I stay up
All night
Wasting time
Doing nothing
Because now
There’s no one waiting
For me to come to bed
Anymore
nochordmusic
Somewhere along the line, I stopped believing I was worth it.
teenscoolest
did you know that bashing my music taste increases your chances of changing my opinion by 0%
Sitting at the foot of your bed, looking back at you, I noticed your smile was the biggest I’d seen in a while. “Come here,” you playfully say, and I fall backwards into the pillows. You lay your arm around me, pulling me in tighter, as my head finds your shoulder. I close my eyes, knowing oh too well what was coming next; for when I opened them once again, your hazel eyes were just an inch from mine. Your gaze slowly lowered to my lips, and before I knew it, my eyes were closed again and my hand rested on the side of your face, my fingers twirling through your hair. And after my smile vacated your lips, you left one final kiss on my forehead, a warm parting to another beautiful beginning.
-2:27pm ; 6.15.18