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i miss being cold.i miss black coffee and shaking hands.i miss breathing fast and feeling like my heart is a caged bird.i miss not being able to sleep well.i miss hunger pains.i miss cold water and sliced cucumber.i miss cycling till im dizzy.i miss seeing stars everytime i stand up too fast.i miss dark circles and big hoodies and being constantly tired and diet coke and low cal soup and chewing gum and seeing lower numbers and salty rice cakes and feeling proud of myself and being in control.i miss loosing weight so fucking much.i want it back.

Fun little eating disorder things:

• feeling like shit after one meal the entire day!!

• fatigue!!!!

• self hatred!!!!

• thinking you’re not sick because you’re a fat fuck!!

• caffeine addiction!!!!

• insomnia!!!

• depression!!!

• anxiety!!!

• pushing the people that love you away!!!

• wanting to jump in front of oncoming traffic!!!

it’s the exclamation marks that really got me

Not me, all credit goes to her ^

reblog this if you’ve ever been called fat by a family member

Why do you do this?

Is it for the small thighs?

Is it for the tiny waist?

Is it for the dainty wrists?

Is it to outline your ribs?

Is it for the prominante collar bones?

Is it to have someone to hold you?

Cause if so….

same lol