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shrift

@shelikestowakeupandjustfakeit / shelikestowakeupandjustfakeit.tumblr.com

I'm shrift on Dreamwidth and AO3, _shrift on Twitter. I'm a nerd who lives in San Francisco. Sometimes I write stuff.

Coming out of my cage and I've been doing just fine

Gotta gotta be down, because I want it all

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It was only a fish

IT WAS ONLY A FISH

#now I'm out of the sea #and I'm up on the land #and I'm growing a leg #and I'm learning to stand #now I'm taking a step #I'm no longer a fish #I don't know what I am #but I'm going to RUN NOW #OUT UNDER THE SUN NOW #THERE I GOOOOOOO

fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

The seething continues.

I love when dogs and cats just let you pat the shit out of them and they enjoy it so much. Like yeah dude real quick I just need to play you like a bongo and they’re like god yes I’ve been waiting for someone to play me like a bongo