his jealousy, your insecurities, his job and your fears; it was just all too much and after 2 years of relationship you were getting tired, tired of waiting him to come home to you, tired of being put after his job..always.
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You put on your dress
while looking at the phone, it was 6 pm and you had no idea of where
your boyfriend was. He just disappeared 2 days ago, after another
That was almost the daily
basis now: his jealousy, your insecurities, his job and your fears;
it was just all too much and after 2 years of relationship you were
getting tired, tired of waiting him to come home to you, tired of
being put after his job..always.
Maybe it was better just
to finish all this..for the both of you.
You were putting on your
coat when you heard someone trying to open the door..was it him? Was
he drunk? Or maybe a thief? Some crazy fans?
Your heart started
pounding like crazy when the door opened, you found yourself against
the walls a couple of deep brown eyes were looking at you, his silver
hair were all messy, his black jacket in his hands and the shirt half
plugged off; you knew he wasn’t drunk..you knew him too well..he was
probably just tired.
You started to normally
breath again and decided to just go away..you didn’t want to fight
again, you were not strong enough.
-Where are you going?
-I have to meet with my
friends for dinner
-You don’t know them
You looked at him, his
tired reddish eyes staring at you while you couldn’t help but putting
your purse back on the table and started walking towards him.
You went into your
bedroom, bring some of his clean clothes and put it in the bathroom,
you then walked again in the living room when you found him on the
couch, his head in his hands
-I prepared some clothes
in the bathroom so you can have a shower.. I’ll go now
He didn’t lift his head
while saying it, he just asked in a soft voice, like he was
You didn’t want to fight,
you loved him after all, more than he loved himself. You send a quick
message to your friend and sit next to him
-What is going on
-I just had some stuff to
He said coldly, without
even looking at you
-I mean.. what’s going on
between us? You never disappeared like that..i know we fight a lot
but how could you just walk away like this? I was worried.. but you
probably didn’t care
Your voice was breaking
while talking..how could he just be so cold?
You sighted and just left
to go to your bedroom, was it even yours anymore?
You got changed and looked
at the wardrobe, took a suitcase and put some of your clothes in..
you didn’t even realized you started sobbing and tears run on your
Maybe it was better that
way, he wasn’t the one, he didn’t love you enough; you tried to
convinced yourself that you were doing the right thing but your
sobbing became stronger, your tears started running and you couldn’t
control it anymore.
You sat on the bed as you
were shaking, how could this happened? How did you get here?
You loved each other so
much, what about know? You knew you loved him but did he?
Maybe not anymore.
You felt asleep like that,
alone on the bed not knowing what was he doing and if he cared.
The morning after you
decided to call sick for work and went into your bedroom’s bathroom
to take a warm bath; you started undressing when you heard the door
opening and you saw him coming inside.
-Gotta brush my teeth
You’ve been together for 2
years and you have seen each other naked a plenty of times but you
felt uncomfortable now, so you automatically tried to cover yourself
with your hands
-What? You don’t want me
to look at you now? Like I’ve never seen you naked before
You reached for a towel
and walked to the door when you felt his hand grabbing your wrist
-What the hell is going
-Nothing..just leave me
now..you’re hurting me
-I won’t.. you have to
tell me everything now. Do you think I am stupid? Like I didn’t see
the suitcase or heard you sobbing last night. Do you think I don’t
You felt like suffocating,
in the shared bathroom with all the steam and he pressuring you
against the door
He helped you stand up as
your sight began to darken
He opened the door and
took you on the bed, you saw his worried eyes while he was looking at
your body, caressing your arms with his strong hands.
-Are you ok?
-Yea..It was too hot in
-I’ll bring some cold
You couldn’t answer as he
disappeared behind the door, coming back a few second later with a
glass of iced tea
-Maybe some sugar will
You drank a bit of it
while he sat next to you, looking at you like you were going to
disappear in any moment
-I am sorry
-It was just the heat
everything, disappearing..the fights. Do you think it would be better
to brake up?
Your heart stopped, you
heard the glass falling on the floor but you couldn’t move, you were
-Ya Y/N are you ok?
Aish..I’ll just clean this ok? Don’t walk cause there are glasses
You looked at his back
while he was leading to the kitchen, your legs started to move by
themselves and you didn’t care about the glasses on the floor. You
reached for him and started crying hugging him from behind before he
could leave the room.
His hands held yours as he
turned around, he looked at you and kissed your head. You had no idea
of how much you missed his touch, his kisses.
He then cupped your face
and you could see tears in his eyes
-I am so sorry, you know
that I love you right?
-I missed you so much
You reached for his face
and kissed him while you run your hand through his hair
He lifted you and bring
you on the bed, his hand running on your body as he kissed every inch
of your skin, like he wanted to mark you as his.
You couldn’t stop staring
at him while he was sleeping next to you, both of you covered just
with the bed sheet.
-You’re creepy girl
He opened his eyes and
smiled at you
-I’ll go and brush my
He softly kiss your
forehead and left.
-Let’s start over, ok? No
more dramas or fights..just us
-I promise I won’t hurt
you again, I promise to love you and show it to you
-I will do the same
-Are you sure you want to?
-I am, I want to stay with
you as long as I can, even if you are messy, arrogant and rarely at
You giggled and sit on the
bed, covering your body with the sheets
-Marry me then
Your eyes widened, was he
-Marry the messy, arrogant
and rarely at home me and stay with me forever
Once again you were froze
as he kept looking at you, standing with his boxers in front of the
-Marry me, I am being
He reached for the night
table next to the bed and opened the drawer
-Aish you wanted this?
He asked while opening a
little blue box and giving it to you, there was a ring..an engagement
one in it.
-So..are you going to
marry me or not?
Your hand cupped his face
and you softly kissed his lips, then you hugged him as you started ti
-I know it’s a bit old..
it’s been there for a few months now..but we can change it If you
don’t like it
-You shout up a bit and
He did as you said, skin
to skin, heart to heart
-Y/N.. it’s ok if you
don’t want to
He whispered in your ears
You faced him and put your
forehead against his
-I want you to be my
messy, arrogant and rarely at home husband