~ the past is no longer a mystery ~

Paper Hearts Finale

Originally posted by tbhobi

Genre: Angst/fluff

♡ Pairing: Reader x Jungkook // Reader x Jimin

♡ Length: 6.4k

♡ Summary: It has been nearly a year since you started writing anonymous letters to Jungkook, giving him words of encouragement behind the thin mask of a paper. He never considered you as a possible suspect behind these letters, because you were nothing more than a best friend. And you couldn’t put all the blame on him either, after all, you were too afraid to confess in fear of tarnishing your precious friendship.

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terrible tudors, gorgeous georgians, slimy stuarts, vile victorians, woeful wars, ferocious fights, dingy castles, daring knights. horrors that defy description, cut throat celts, awful egyptians, vicious vikings, cruel crimes, punishments from ancient times. romans: rotten, rank and ruthless. cavemen: savage, fierce and toothless. groovy greeks, brainy sages, mean and measly middle ages. gory stories we do that. and your host a talking rat. the past is no longer a mystery. welcome to HORRIBLE HISTORIES.

Stupid Feelings

Originally posted by jonesjughead

Anon requests: Okey, i have this crazy idea for an imagine. (Y/n) was a popular girl, she was cheryl bestfriend but she doesn’t feel like all of these popular kids. She always saw jughead in the school and always think about him bc he is different. So she left the popularity to became the bestfriend of jugg and the day she finally goes to tell him that she like him since always, he tell her that he likes betty and you can choose the end, maybe a happy one or a sad one :) (sorry my english, i’m spanish)!

Can you do a love triangle between the reader, betty and jughead, please ? Love your blog

Hi i love your writing and i was wondering if you can write a jughead x reader where the reader confesses her feelings but he doesn’t return them?

Pairing: Betty x Jughead x Reader

Description: Popular (Y/N) climbs down the social ladder to befriend Jughead, but quickly develops feelings.  The crush is only one-sided.

Warnings: one swear

Word count: 1,117

A/N: brace yourselves for a sad ending

“(Y/N)!” Cheryl snapped, interrupting my thoughts.

“Huh?” I asked, looking up at her.  She smiled sourly.

“I asked you if you’re still coming to River Vixen tryouts tomorrow,” she repeated.

“Of course!” I exclaimed, plastering a fake smile on my face.  Satisfied, she nodded and strutted down the school hallway, leaving me at my locker.  The smile slipped from my face and turned into a frown as I opened my locker.  

Cheryl had been my best friend for five years, and I knew deep down I loved Cheryl.  But her other friends?  Not so much.  I found myself constantly feeling drained when I was in their presence, and Cheryl seemed to regress into a horrible nightmare around them.  

I slammed my locker shut and strode down the hallway, not bothering to make eye contact with anyone. Anyone but one person.  I walked past Jughead Jones, and I couldn’t help but let my eyes linger for a split second longer than usual.  He was looking right at me, and we made eye contact for only a moment before I walked away.

During lunch, I sat at a table with Cheryl and her friends.  Cheryl droned on about something she and Jason had done two summers ago, and as much as I wanted to listen and give my sympathy to my friend, I couldn’t do it.  For some reason, my mind kept wandering to Jughead Jones.  The mysterious figure lurking in the school hallways intrigued me, and I couldn’t seem to think of anything else.

“Are you even listening to me, (Y/N)?” Cheryl scoffed, snapping me out of my thoughts.

“What?” I hummed.

“I said,” her voice was cold and stiff, “are you listening to me?” I glanced at her pursed lips and narrowing eyes, and her mannequin friends raising their eyebrows at me. This is not the people I want to be with.

“No,” I retorted, standing up. “I’m not listening to you, Cheryl.”

“And why not?” she demanded, also standing up.

“Because I don’t want to!” I exclaimed, throwing my hands up in frustration.  “I’m sick of this, Cheryl.  I’m sick of you treating everyone like peasants whereas you carry yourself like a queen.  I’m done!” By now all the other lunch tables had quieted down so they could eavesdrop on our conversation.

“Well,” Cheryl spat, “I don’t know why you’re still here.  Get out of my sight!”  I rolled my eyes but obliged, grabbing my bag and storming away from the table, all eyes on me.  Once I got inside the school, I leaned against a wall, closed my eyes, and released a sigh of relief.  I was free.

“That was quite the scene,” a deep voice commented, causing my eyes to snap open.  Jughead was standing in front of me.

“Oh yeah,” I breathed a laugh. “I don’t know what came over me, honestly.  I just kinda… I was fed up.”  He nodded in understanding.

“I get it,” he said, moving so that he was standing next to me.  “I don’t know how you dealt with it for so long.”

“I don’t either,” I confessed. “I guess I was just oblivious to how awful she is.”

“What made you realize that she was awful?”  I paused, unable to think of an answer.  Glancing at Jughead, I admired his raven locks and blue-green eyes.  

“Jason’s death, I guess,” I answered, unsure of myself.  “Because most of the time when a loved one dies, people will become more vulnerable. Usually grief brings about self-reflection, and it makes you realize you should be a better person.  Cheryl, although she was heartbroken about Jason’s death, didn’t become a better person.  In fact, it felt like she got worse.  She’s bitchier, more demeaning, and just more terrible overall.”  Jughead nodded at my answer.

“Well, I don’t say this kind of stuff too often,” he said, “but if you’re looking for any new friends, I’m here.”

Jughead and I quickly became close friends.  Pop’s became our usual meeting place, and we would spend every evening there.  Whether we were working on homework or just chatting, I always felt happy in his presence.

We had been best friends for a few months when I realized my feelings for him.  Every night when we sat in our booth, the butterflies in my stomach grew a little flutterier.  My cheeks began to tint a bit darker every time we hung out, and I always grew nervous when I anticipated us being together.  But then when I was around him, I felt calm and safe.

One night, I decided that I’d tell him.  I was tired of keeping this secret from him, and I figured being rejected was better than bottling up my feelings.

“Jughead,” I said, taking his attention away from his computer.  “Can we talk?”  He closed the lid, showing that I had his undivided attention.  I swallowed and fidgeted with my fingers, beginning to second-guess myself.

“Is everything okay, (Y/N)?” he asked.

“Yeah,” I tentatively smiled and nodded.  “I just… I need to tell you something.”


“I… I like you, Jughead.  I like you as in more than friends, and honestly, I think I have ever since we started being friends.”  I bit my lip as I nervously scanned Jughead’s face for a reaction.  He was motionless, and we sat in the booth in silence.  Finally, he broke the silence.

“(Y/N)… I’m sorry,” he apologized, and then my heart shattered.  I knew what was coming next.  “I don’t… you’re a great friend, truly, you are but… I like Betty.”  I swallowed and nodded.  Of course it was Betty.

“Yeah, that’s- that’s fine, it’s fine,” I stuttered out a reply, slowly standing up.  “It’s fine, really, but… I have to go, I’m sorry.”  Jughead stood up too.

“I’m sorry, I don’t want this to ruin our friendship,” he said, trying to get me to sit back down.  I shook my head.

“I don’t either, Jughead, but I need time,” I responded.  He nodded sadly in understanding.  “Bye, Jughead.”  I walked out of the diner desperately holding onto the little bit of dignity I had left. I wanted to be mad at someone, but there was no one to blame.  It wasn’t Betty’s fault; she had no idea that Jughead liked her, she wasn’t trying to steal him from me.  Nor was it Jughead’s fault, because he can’t control who he has feelings for.

As I strode out of Pop’s Chock’lit Shoppe, I knew that this would be the last time Jughead and I ever had a simple relationship.  Thanks to me, every interaction from now on would be awkward and tense.  And it was all thanks to me and my stupid feelings.

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okay so in the trailer we see el in the classroom in the upside down right? and her eyes snap open so it appears she just woke up??? and then we see her find one of those mini gates, and it cant be that much longer after she woke up, i mean, look at her

so if she found a gate so soon??? where the hell has she been for the past year??? bc mike and the boys think she’s dead/missing

is she hiding in this room??

you can see her hair here! this has gotta be 84!! and hopper obvisouly knows where she is (maybe the mysterious cabin??), so why hasnt he told anyone? is it part of the coverup? is el alive and well and in the right dimension but mike has no idea??? does anybody have any clue bc i’m????? i need season two n o w dammit

Fun Facts about Marvel Loki!

Inspired by that one popular Deadpool post from forever ago!
(I may be cheating because I’m technically including multiple incarnations, but they all “count” as him in some way- no alternate universes or timelines- so shaddup. The distinctions between them obviously matter, but not for the purposes of this list.)

  • He was in the Marvel universe 13 years before Thor was
  • He has “put a terrible slash on the internet” (Yes, that kind)
  • He likes Daft Punk
  • He likes Wicked
  • He got to use Mjolnir once. Against Thor. For the good side.
  • He identifies as both male and female, is clear about it, and other characters acknowledge it
  • He’s pansexual
  • He’s the patron god of certain sex acts
  • He basically killed himself twice to escape his evil baggage from the past (and then his mind to escape future evil baggage)
  • He wore the Guy Fawkes mask once
  • He’s also worn the X-Men uniform
  • He goes by the “God(dess) of Stories” now
  • He wasn’t evil enough to be elected president
  • Really, to sabotage his own campaign, he just called people lighting cars on fire over him idiots, clarified that he wasn’t “evil” anymore, and said he planned to basically play by the rules if elected
  • While “trying” to become president (he actually wasn’t), he made sure to face off against a woman whose life he’d ruined in the past so that she’d look like a hero when everyone realized she was right about him, which did great things for her career
  • When he was forced to erase his memories and “change,” he only made sure to remember that he loved Thor and his one friend, Verity, who believed in him
  • He used to secretly hire Deadpool and Gambit to run cons for him, then would trick them into thinking they’d betrayed each other to get himself off the hook
  • He named his hellhound puppy after Thor when he died
  • He’s totally a selfie person
  • He hates the word “smooch”
  • When he was trapped on earth with false memories (due to his own spell), he was a friendless, nerdy child. When others explained to him what was going on, he quickly regained his memories, led them through a convoluted set of steps create a second spell to free everyone else from their own fake memories, and then…. turned out to have not regained his memories at all. He thought they were role-playing with him. The new “spell” failed at a critical moment.
  • He was the protagonist, antagonist, and “innocent victim that died at the beginning to kick the story off” of one series, all at the same time.
  • He was once locked in a tree by Odin. The only way to escape was if someone cried because of his situation (the joke being that no one ever would, since everyone hated him). After a long time, he finally built up enough willpower to fling a leaf into someone’s eye, /technically/ drawing a tear that existed because of his situation.
  • Sleipnir, Loki’s 8-legged horse child from the original mythology, technically does exist somewhere in the universe. Other canon children include the Fenris Wolf and the Midgard Serpent. He’s even rumored to be the father of Hela, Queen of the Dead, but neither of them have any idea if that’s true or not, especially since she has existed longer than he has
  • He actually time-traveled and tricked Odin into adopting him
  • He once dramatically took the form of a unicorn
  • “Loki’s the bad guy! Sauron multiplied by that antiDumbledore guy cubed! His alignment is totally chaotic evil! He sends misogynist abuse for the lulz!” - His playful description of his more evil past self
Oscar Wilde starter sentences - put one in my ask box! (part one)
  • “Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.”
  • “Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.”
  • “The truth is rarely pure and never simple.”
  • “Women are meant to be loved, not to be understood.”
  • “A good friend will always stab you in the front.”
  • “Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future.”
  • “A thing is not necessarily true because a man dies for it.”
  • “Everything in the world is about sex except sex. Sex is about power.”
  • “You can never be overdressed or overeducated.”
  • “Some cause happiness wherever they go; others whenever they go.”
  • “I can resist anything except temptation.”
  • “To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.”
  • “To define is to limit.”
  • “I have nothing to declare except my genius.”
  • “Nowadays people know the price of everything and the value of nothing.”
  • “Every woman is a rebel.”
  • “I like men who have a future and women who have a past.”
  • “Youth is wasted on the young.”
  • “An idea that is not dangerous is unworthy of being called an idea at all.”
  • “Women have a much better time than men in this world; there are far more things forbidden to them.”
  • “Some things are more precious because they don’t last long.”
  • “It takes a great deal of courage to see the world in all its untainted glory, and still to love it.”
  • “The mystery of love is greater than the mystery of death.”
  • “Hear no evil, speak no evil, and you won’t be invited to cocktail parties.”
  • “The basis of optimism is sheer terror.”
  • “Only the shallow know themselves.”
  • “One should always be in love. That’s the reason one should never marry.”
  • “No man is rich enough to buy back his past.”
  • “Friendship is far more tragic than love. It lasts longer.”
  • “Irony is wasted on the stupid.”
  • “Deceiving others. That is what the world calls a romance.”

Punk!Michael Imagine

Summary: He was everything your dad hated, everything you were never supposed to associate with. Though it’s something about the way his lips feel on your skin that create a longing you’ve never quite felt before. But when trouble ensues, as it usually does when you’re close with Michael, you’ll have to choose between the mysterious punk boy and the future you’ve worked so hard for. 

A/N: I’ve been writing this for the past week and it turned out way longer than I thought but you guys voted to have one long piece as opposed to two parts, so grab a snack and get comfy cos you’ll be here awhile…anyway I hope you enjoy:)

~Approx. 7.8k words~
~Warnings: Light smut, mentions of drugs, swearing~

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sweetgums  asked:

While i'm behing the 2CT, isn't it strange that if they are twins, absolutely no one had made mention of the twin? Like, our!Ciel comes back and they're all happy of his return but no one asks about the other twin? Never? His parents are mentioned plenty of times throughout the story, but not the twin?

Hmmm… I’ve been asked this question many times, answered it many times and yet I still get the same question from time to time, so I guess this really is one of the major issues people have when it comes to 2CT^^;

Anyway, I’m lazy so I’ll just copy and paste my old post, hope that’s okay! xD


Assuming the 2ct is true, I personally would answer this question as following:

If someone in the manga explicitly mentioned the other twin, e.g. Lizzy explicitly asking Ciel “What happened to your twin brother, [insert a cool name like ‘Ciel’ here]??”, then the 2CT would no longer be a ‘mystery’ (not even a ‘theory’), but a ‘fact’ and the fandom wouldn’t need to discuss it, would it? ^^;

If the ‘2CT’ were supposed to be the 'plot twist’ Yana has been planning since the beginning (as she wrote in this post), then of course she wouldn’t let the characters mention the twin explicitly, but keep it as ambiguous as possible until the right moment for the revealing has come.

Also, there’s Sebastian’s Cinematic Record (ch61-63) which showed us the story of how Ciel summoned Sebastian and later returned to the Phantomhive manor. However, we were only shown fragments of the whole CR. For example, there’s the scene where Ciel reunited with Tanaka in the hospital corridor. Then we ‘jump’ to the next scene where we see them them in another room. We actually missed the most important part of their conversation, namely Tanaka asking Ciel questions like “Where have you been?”, “Who’s that tall, black-haired guy??”, “How did you survive?” and maybe also “What happened to your brother?”. The same applies to Lizzy and Madam Red‘s flashback scenes, too; we’ve only seen a small part of their conversation. We don’t know what they talked about prior to/after that scene.

So my answer to your legitimate question “Why did nobody ask after the other twin?” would be: “Because Yana hasn’t shown us those moments (yet)!”


As for the question why people talk about Vincent and Rachel in front of Ciel, but never mention his twin, that’s strange indeed, but I can think of some possible reasons for that:

1) some people (like Tanaka) maybe know Ciel’s true identity but keep silent on it for his sake and avoid talking about the twin

2) if two children get kidnapped for 1 month and only one of them comes back, then it’s not difficult to guess that something very terrible and traumatic must have happened to them. Maybe they don’t talk much about the twin in front of Ciel because they don’t want to hurt him particularly because he obviously suffers from survivor’s guilt (ch91).

3) Let’s wait and see, maybe there is a good reason for all this (for example, maybe Sebastian’s demon power erased everyone’s memories of the twin lol sorry just jk) and it’s just that we haven’t been shown it yet!

Spy Universe - Jun

Anon asked for the Jun part of the Spy Universe. So here we have the story of our master seducer with the body of a acrobat and a heart of gold…

Jun doesn’t take long to rummage through the pockets of the silk inlaid suit jacket belonging to the guy currently passed out on the floor. His hand closes over the heavy metal of an ornate pocket watch. Withdrawing it, he checks the time.

He’s ahead of schedule. He laughs happily, behaving like a delighted kid now that he’s done acting the seducing role of the evening and can be himself for a bit. He loves it when he manages to pull things off faster than expected.

He lifts his wrist up to his mouth and speaks into a mic hidden in his cufflinks, letting his friends and teammates know what’s going on.

“I took out Penderson. Just waiting on the cue from you guys now,” he says. “And you thought I would need an extra fifteen minutes, Woozi.”

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A mysterious woman from Hikaru’s past crashes into your lives. But what does she want from him and just what is their relationship?

Hello all, back with some new art in Hikaru’s route! We are giving an update on his release date: It is now May 2017! 

We know that you are excited but please trust in us and please be patient a little longer!

au where after getting her spine healed in the hospital regina george develops a love and respect for medicine, elle woodses her way into medical school and becomes a surgeon. she changes her name to christine palmer to escape her reputation and tries her hardest to be a caring person and dedicate her life to helping others. she falls in love with stephen strange because, despite having more going for her than the vapid attention and manipulation of men now, she still feels the need to fill the void in her heart- and stephen challenges her in a way she’s not used to (by rejecting her over and over- as he too has a hole in his heart), though she finally escapes his melodrama when he mysteriously vanishes and does a lot of self exploration. when finally presented with him again she rejects him and they both realize they’re gay and both have issues with fear of failure that caused them to give into compulsory heterosexuality…. now stephen’s magic and gay and regina/christine thrives in the hospital and no longer feels like she has to make up for the mistakes of her past or the feeling of emptiness inside her….also she starts dating the nurse from daredevil. there’s a nurse in that right? yeah. they’re all gay now

On Mermaids:

But what if mermaids only appeared humanoid at the surface?
What if, the deeper they dove, the more fish-like they became?

The light doesn’t penetrate as deeply as they swim lower in the ocean, so they adapt; eyes growing smaller, gills larger, scales along their backs emerge and spread out along their limbs, glowing softly at first, then more radiant as the darkness becomes more encompassing.

Mermaids at the bottom of the sea are hardly maids at all, but more like the creatures in dark fantasies that haunt children’s nightmares, with numerous limbs and sharp teeth. Pale and translucent skin, or else pitch black to blend in with their surroundings.

Maybe when they die at those depths, they rise to the surface and don’t change back to their human forms.
They wash up on shore as massive beasts, and humans cower in fear, afraid of the unknown things that lurk in the waters.

Stories of giant squids and colossal whales spread throughout mankind, and soon mermaids are more of a myth than anything, since the surface is a dangerous place now, and the hidden depths of the ocean are safer.

Over time their forms became less intimidating, as they still need the light to survive, but are shy of the ever present human gaze. Many take lesser forms; species of fish that can enjoy the warmth of the sun without becoming conspicuous.

And as time goes on, mermaids that once took humanoid forms no longer exist, but the variety of their species remains rich and diverse.

Some remain at the deepest of depths, introverted and peaceful with the silence of nothing. Others prefer the surface, where the light is constant and the colours vibrant, but grow smaller to avoid predation.

And then some, still fond of humans and more connected with their past selves, find they need air to survive, and breach surface frequently, living in relative peace along side us.

Maybe dolphins are these such creatures, sharing in human intelligence and mannerisms but no longer able to transform; a skill long lost to the ages.

The ocean is a mysterious world we know very little about, so why not?

A Small Flame || Jungkook || Pt. 6

Pt. 1 // Pt. 2 // Pt. 3 // Pt. 4 // Pt. 5 // Pt. 6 //

Word Count: 6660

Genre: dystopian/utopian!au, angst, drama

Summary: In this colorless world, her vision was painted with streaks of the rainbow whenever she saw him and that was enough to start a rebellion.

Fingers cracked in the darkness of the room that was illuminated only by three screens. A figure sat in front of the three screens, his round glasses reflecting the light and his hair kept out of his face by a backwards snapback. He sat hunched, his legs crossed on the rolling chair and his longer fingers flying over the keyboards, his eyes drifting from one profile to the next, whisking past them and shoving aside people that were of no use to him. He let out a sigh as he approached a firewall. He yawned, cracked his neck, and proceeded to break the wall down with several simple taps and he was in the database further.

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Timeline of Stan and Ford

I think this works.

1950: Stanford and Stanley Pines are born in New Jersey

1964: Stan twins find the ship that would become the Stan O’ War
- Ford uses a sharpie-type marker, which wasn’t invented until 1964
- They are about 13

1969: Stan breaks Ford’s experiment and is kicked out of their home
- The portrait in the principal’s office was of Nixon, whose presidency started in 1969
- The twins are around 18

1974: Ford finishes his (first) doctorate, moves to Gravity Falls shortly afterwards
- Degree is finished three years ahead of schedule
- Research to maintain grant money would have had get started as soon as possible
- By this time, it is possible Stan had already been in prison at least once and/or been held at a mental institution [Dipper and Mabel’s Guide to Mystery and Nonstop Fun]
- They are about 23

1978: Stan in Colombian Prison
- Caught as an accessory to a heist most likely (an actual robbery would give him a much longer sentence)
- Stan meets Rico in prison
- Stan and Ford are around 24
Edit: I meant 28. My bad

1980: Ford starts the third journal/ Fiddleford joins Ford’s team
- He had already been in GF for six years
- It is around this time that he meets Bill
- Just past Stan and Ford’s 30th birthday. Over the course of writing in this journal, Ford is in his 30’s

1981: McGucket’s accident/ Ford’s slip into deep paranoia/ Stan released from Colombia
- McGucket spent only one year as Ford’s assistant
- McGucket soon starts the Society of the Blind Eye
- Note: It was around this time that Ford invented the tie for the Reagan Administration
- After around 3 years, Stan is released from prison
Note: This was in Colombia, so I can’t be sure, but American jail times for being an accessory to a burglary or robbery are around 3 years— OR he escaped
- Stan is indebted to Rico after prison and is hiding from Rico’s goons

1982: The Portal Incident
- 30 years before the show’s 2012 summer
- Ford reaches out to Stan, who at this point is still in hiding from Rico
- Start of the Murder Hut
- Stan and Ford are both around 32
- Approximately 13-14 years since high school
- Stan says it’s been “over 10 years” since they last spoke

1983: McGucket memories completely lost/ Stan fakes his death
- McGucket has no memories around 618 days after the incident, according to the memory recording

1999: Dipper and Mabel are born
-  Stan was at the hospital when their mom gave birth

2012: Ford Returns
- Ford spent 30 years in the portal
- Dipper and Mabel are now almost 13
- Stan and Ford are over 62 years old.


Darlene called Stan a 70-something- year-old man, BUT she could have been just assuming, based on his appearance. Stan did not have a healthy lifestyle during his homeless years, and probably aged horrible.

Stan said they were “Pushing 70.” He probably meant “in our 60s, and approaching 70.” Which I suppose is true. He used the wording to express a shortness of years, saying he might as well be 70 with the way he’s aged and how fast his last years will pass.


Basically, 62 is as old as the Stan Twins could possibly be within the timeline of the show. There’s a 2-year cushion which would make them around 60 at the end, but 62 is the absolute OLDEST they could be, and seems to be the most likely age. Hopefully it works with everything. Feel free to rip this apart if something doesn’t add up.

À la vie, à la mort (Widowmaker x Reader Fanfiction)

My entry for the fanfic wrtiting contest of @overwritings
Thanks for taking it!

Summary: You and Widowmaker have been in a relationship for a few months, which proves to have hardships as you are an Overwatch Hero and she literally is your enemy. Also, the fact she enjoys marking her territory hasn’t gone unnoticed by Tracer. Someday, you will have to tell your best friend. But things take an unexpected turn.

Also, the Reader once had the biggest of crushs on Amélie Lacroix when she was still “alive”.

Word Count: 5227

Genres: Angst, Fluff

Warnings: Cursing, Death

Those written like this are the Protagonist’s thoughts. They’re also in 1st person narrator.

Possible sequel: Rendez-vous avec l’araignée”

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Ok here we go guys. Back on the requests. This is for the two Anons who requested Ardyn x Gentiana.

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She was soft. Her skin tasted like human, shivered under his touch like human, her breath even warm like a human, the ice goddess inside a human vessel. It was always bittersweet, when she gave herself to him, almost as an act of mercy. A demon rejected by the gods, allowed the occasional alms from the benignant deity.

Yet he always accepted the charity. In some twisted way, he counted it as a minor personal victory. As long as the tainted one was allowed to lay his hands on the goddess, he couldn’t be completely forsaken. It didn’t matter if the Draconian was aware of the encounters – the Glacian, in her fondness for mankind, bestowed the mortals her tender pity, and by sharing her own mortal reincarnation, extended it to him. He was somewhere in between: not a mortal, not quite a god.

“To Niflheim…”

She spoke softly, hiding her gentle gaze from him.

He thought back on the first time he saw those eyes, how his heart had stood still, how the stars had paled in comparison with that ethereal glimmer.

“Outside the walls of the very Empire whose technology you seek to resurrect.”

A solemn smile spread across his lips. She remembered.

He didn’t need to explain his intentions to her anymore; she knew the prophesy, she was familiar with the past, the present and the future. She could read him like an open book. But to him, she remained forever a mystery.

“Does this mean you must withdraw your patronage?”

Still enjoying the occasional stab at the gods, he wouldn’t pass a chance to test their cavalier nature. Her lids parted slowly, revealing the soft olive green, staring straight into his tainted soul. Behind that youthful glow, an ancient divinity calmly sleeping.

“The Messenger shall stay by the Oracle, the devotion is unwavering. The forsaken King is no longer favoured.”

Those words still hurt, after all this unending time, particularly coming from her. A silent rage boiled under his stoic exterior, merely manifesting as a slight tightening of his lips.

“You wound me.”

The images wouldn’t clear from his mind. The way she seduced him with her soft smile, the way she offered a momentary sanctuary in her arms, wrapping her slender body around him, taking in all his frustration, his anger, his sorrow as he penetrated her with his passion and fury…

“I still cherish the time you walked beside me in broad daylight.”

She smiled, but her lips stayed sealed. Was she mocking him? Was she enjoying his torment? Perhaps this was the entertainment for the gods, to amuse herself by revelling in this one immortal’s misery.

“So cold… but what else could I expect from you,” he smirked, his gaze traveling down her frame before falling to the ground. He sighed deep as she approached him, floating across the room without a sound.

“To expect your blessing would be naïve. It was never mine to keep, only to borrow.”

Her hand touched upon his cheek, sending a little chill down his spine. She never chose to show her full power to him, it was always intentionally kept at bay, like a lioness gently playing with her cub. Did she feel a similar magnetism when her skin touched his? Could she feel at all, or was it only an act… he wondered, now.

Her eyes adorned with a hint of the otherworldly red glow, she looked at him with a calm expression, bringing her lips close to his.

“The Astral may forgive and show mercy, but may not condone the creation of more lost souls. Walk steady, on the path ahead. The destiny of many may yet be changed.”

With her lips merely brushing on his, he closed his eyes only for a moment, but she was already gone when his arms reached for her waist, to pull her closer.

The room was more silent than it had ever been, the walls feeling miles apart. A sharp, cool breeze passed through from east to west, and he knew she had departed his realm. A delicate flower could not bloom in the snow.

He remained still for a good while, before picking up his hat and pressing it on his dark mauve mane. Letting go of her should not have felt so caustic…  After all, it was not alien to him, the solitude. The desolation of forever.

1. People will make promises… and break promises. Sometimes it’s best not to hold people to their word.

2. Be glad for your spontaneity. It is what makes you special. There will be times where it is the only thing that’s keeping you alive.

3. It’s okay to cry, and it’s okay to not cry. Do not feel guilty over the lack of tears. Your sadness is your own. You do not owe anyone to see it. Sadness is not a social gesture. 

4. Boys will come and boys will go. There will be some that hurt you and there will be some that you will hurt. They will each leave their mark on you. Choose them wisely. You do not want to fix yourself just to be broken down again. 

5. Know when to leave something behind. Some things will only end up killing you.

6. Forgive yourself. You have done terrible things, but you have also done wonderful things. You are not who you were 2 years ago. You have grown. Keep the past where it was. It has no right to haunt you any longer. 

7. There will always be people more prettier, funnier, smarter, and more talented than you. Befriend them. The only enemy here is yourself.

8. Life is not a competition. Death is not the finish line.

9. Grades are not everything. You are more than numbers.

10. Let go.

11. People are not puzzles to be solved. Some things are better left a mystery.

12. Accept yourself. We are all individuals. We are all the sum of our flaws and our gifts. 

13. Love your body. You do not have to look like that girl on the magazine cover.

14. Do not spend your time looking for someone to complete you. You were made complete. 

15. Life is worth living. Go search for a waterfall, a forest, and close your eyes. Submerge yourself in the beauty of this earth when you feel like you need to be reminded why you are here. 

16. Find a cosy spot in your house, school, favourite coffee shop. Wear a sweater and read a book. Relaxing is just as important as anything else.

17. Breathe. You will be okay.

—  17 things I’m still trying to teach myself at 17

So I’m reading A Discovery of Witches. Not finished yet, and not sure if I will.

It started out pretty good: protagonist is an academic lady who got her doctorate super early and wants to get by in the world without relying on magic, has all kinds of hobbies and interests, seems to not back down easily from altercations–I can get behind this.

Enter the love interest. This vampire dude. At first it didn’t seem so bad. He had his own selfish interests for being all up in her business, had a few flaws, but seemed interesting enough.

I’m now about halfway through the book, though, and all that’s gone to crap. This vampire dude–who is oh-so rich and cultured and 1500 fuck-off years old and drinks deer blood well isn’t that nice–keeps interrupting the protagonist’s agency. It started small: carrying her yoga mat, insisting on opening doors, telling other creatures to fuck off while she was trying to study. Him sneaking into her apartment was fucking creepy when he was looking for the manuscript, but I figured that part was meant to be off-putting and it was before they really knew each other. But now she’s fled her studies (he says he has more rarer manuscripts at his house but she’s barely looked at them), he’s spent the last like 50 pages feeding and coddling her and literally carrying her like a child while she passes out periodically (she had a kind of big shock, but still), he’s taken her into another damned country and showered her with gifts while she oohs and aahs and like… this is not what I signed up for, book. I thought this was about a tough witch lady getting a grip on her magic and facing some mysteries about her own past and about the supernatural world in general. I’m not here for Twilight Part Nine. I know it’s some people’s fantasy to find someone who will really take care of them, but to me, this feels infantalizing and just really gross.

I’m going to stick with it a little longer and see if this pays off. There is a somewhat interesting set-up for what feels like a bigger plot involving some ancient alchemy and also some sleeping talents in the protagonist. But if this keeps up, I’m out.