at the bunker. Sam, Dean, Cas, and Mary, all of them happily chatting while
they’re enjoying their food, meanwhile Cas appreciating his mug of freshly
brewed coffee as he watches them fondly.
Then once they
are all ready to start the day, Sam leaving for his morning jog, Cas leaving to
check out a possible lead on Lucifer, which leaves Dean and Mary.
staring at Dean once they’re alone, slack jawed, eyes wide, a silent “oh” falling from her lips.
raising his eyebrows at her, not sure what she’s getting at, and asking
“What? Is something wrong, mom?”
taking a deep breath before shaking her head, her face gradually melting into a
knowing smile. “No, it’s just, I only realized just now… You and Castiel,
the way he looks at you… That’s the
exact same way your father always looked at me. I know that times have
changed, you could’ve honestly told me about the two of you.”
followed by Dean nearly choking on his last bite of leftover food, his cheeks
on fire, because they’re not dating, thank you very much.
That first scene in SPN S12 E02 (Sam/Toni) was SO FUCKING DISTURBING. It was intensely
disturbing. I had to stop watching for a minute because I did not expect
that. I did not expect SPN to go there, because, heh, this isn’t
HBO. I just got so disturbed by that I didn’t even care Sam was
shirtless. (!) Nice way to fuck us up, show. I am still not sure how to
feel about that, beyond slightly sick. But here’s why technically it was a good
method: a) it’s trying to trick Sam into telling her things by putting
him in a euphoric/trustful state of mind, b) it doesn’t require actual
torture which she knows by now will not break him, c) it’s fitting to
try and break Sam - who has a long history with dubious consent/assault -
by taking his agency from him. Which screws me up, because do we
need any more Sam-consent-issues? This was like a date-rape drug, only
there was no actual physical anything. It’s still assault. From his
character history point of view, this was a terrible, terrible thing for
her to do. And I liked that when he breaks out of the hallucination,
he’s speechless, because torture is one thing but this? This is low. I hate Toni now.
And I hate that we won’t talk about this again. Because this? This shouldn’t be taken lightly. This is taking the NO away from Sam, once again. And I love that so much of Tumblr is talking about this!