The thing is, I knew he’d leave. A part of me always knew. He told me from the beginning, he didn’t feel anything. He was a stranger to emotions. And when he left, the pain wasn’t from his absence. In fact, when I think of him now I feel empty, indifferent almost. The hurt is from the time. Over those months and months of forehead kisses and surprised laughter, I wasn’t enough. I couldn’t make you change. My words couldn’t make you change, my touch couldn’t, my banter couldn’t. That small petal of hope I held so carefully in my hand is what killed me. Cause when you said to me “Maybe we shouldn’t talk anymore, your feelings will only grow deeper” it permanently shriveled. And so did my smile.
Alright, pals! Time to learn all about pendulum divination!
Strengths: -Pendulums are best known for their ability to give quick yes/no answers! -Pendulums are don’t cost a lot of money and are easy to make. -Pendulums are very easy to pick up and learn quickly… no extensive training needed!
Weaknesses: -Pendulums require a steady hand, which some people struggle with. -Pendulums don’t provide in-depth information, just surface-level answers.
How To Do It: -First, set up a pendulum board. This can be a set board or cloth, or you can scribble it down on an index card. It’s traditionally two perpendicular lines, one for yes and one for no. Other things can be added as well! (Many people include a “Maybe,” “Rephrase the question,” add a circle of numbers or letters, even zodiac signs!) -Grab your pendulum and “set” it to the board. (I usually do this by tapping each point on the board with the pendulum and saying, “yes, no, one, two,” whatever is appropriate. -Give it a test run before asking the big questions. Ask it questions you already know, to make sure there isn’t anything interfering with the pendulum. Try to ask at least one yes and one no question! -Ask your question out loud. Then wait. Eventually the pendulum will start swinging towards your answer!
How It Works: There are a few different schools of thought, here. Some say your Higher Self guides the pendulum, others say that spirits do. Some say the pendulum itself has a consciousness! Other people attribute its movements to the ideomotor effect. Many skeptics will try to discredit it this way. My personal response? So what if it uses the effect? We all know your subconscious is wayyy smarter than your conscious, so you probably know the answer to your question deep in your gut, somewhere and just need to bring it to the surface. This idea only increases the validity of pendulum divination, in my eyes.
Tips: -You don’t need a fancy crystal pendulum. Any weighted object on a string will do! This includes necklaces, keys on lanyards, a needle and thread, you get the idea. -Pendulums are best used indoors in areas without drafts. These air movements could interfere with your reading! -I find it better to weigh my yes/no questions as a positive affirmation. For example, “Jenny likes me.” The yes/no response here would be very clear, where as “Jenny doesn’t like me” raises questions. Is a “No” because the statement is incorrect, or no because she doesn’t like you? Affirmations also give you the added help of gut feeling. If you say, “Jenny likes me,” and your gut feeling makes it feel like a lie, that’s important information. (Remember your subconscious is smart!) - If your pendulum is acting weird, try giving it a good cleanse! Sometimes they pick up “gunk” from extended use and get bogged down. -Pendulums are very useful for contacting spirits! If you hold your pendulum still and call for a spirit, they can signal their presence by moving it. I prefer this over tarot because tarot always guarantees a response, whether a spirit is there or not. Pendulum, meanwhile, is better for confirming your answers are genuine.
If you’d like to see me do any other posts like this one, let me know! :)
Man, you've really done it this time. I told myself not to get attached to you. I swear I did. You were never going to love me the way I needed you to. It was always going to be someone else who could see your feelings better than I could. It was always going to be someone that made you feel things I couldn't. Somehow the shred of getting close to you kept me nearby. I thought somehow you'd chose me, the wild, impulsive, emotionally unstable Leo. The crazy thing is I cared about you the most. Maybe you didn't know that and didn't care. Maybe you knew that and maybe you had to save your own heart before anyone else. I should've let you take care of me more. I should've let you in and stopped playing games, pretending like none of this mattered. I shouldn't have made it a competition of who can mean the most. Because now, I need you more than you need me. I should've known you'd get to me. You're the only one that does.
I love people, knowing about their culture and about their lives and what they do on a friday night. I consider myself a music lover, i love The Strokes, Tame impala… Contact me if you think we can be good friends. My zodiac sign is cancer, btw.
I have no special preference, anyone can contact me
do you remember that time that we went to the river and everyone was jumping off the edge of the bank and we argued for ten minutes about who was going to go first because you wanted to and i said that i did too well i was actually terrified but i wanted to go first and make sure it was safe for you because you mean everything to me
i forgot to eat today i forgot to eat today and yesterday and im sitting on my bed wondering why i can't remember to feed myself and i realised it's because you're not here and i miss you and i know that i should learn to take care of myself but im afraid that if i do you'll never need to come back so please come back before i starve
i used to hate the way that you made me yell down the stairs after i made a loud noise to let you know that i was okay and sometimes i'd yell as soon as I dropped the laptop/desk drawer/picture frame to beat you to the shouting bit but for the last thirty minutes I've been sporadically dropping all of my book down the stairs hoping you'll call up because i want to hear your voice
there's a sound that you make that i try to avoid at all costs because the first time that I heard it i froze i froze inside of it and i let it's beautiful anguish swaddle me until i was sure that i would drown inside you and that was okay but i swore that if i survived i would never make you sad and i survived so please love me back
i've never been able to understand the way that you look at me like you are going to swallow me whole between sips of your coffee so sometimes/always i try to remind you that i'm poisonous and i always try to remind you that i'm defective and you always kiss me hard in the middle of my forehead and i think that's why i'll never stop loving you
let's make a bet that in ten years i'll still be sleeping next to you every night and if you win and i'm not sleeping next to you every night then you get to break into my tastefully large and likely extremely expensive house and curl up beside me because you know i still save the left side of the bed for you and if i win and i'm still sleeping next to you every night then we'll call it even because i already have everything i've ever wanted
every time that you touch me i feel my skin go translucent under your finger tips and i remember what it is like to feel skin against my skin and i know that you can see right through me and i know that you know what I'm thinking but it doesn't really matter because i felt your skin against my skin and i know that nothing will feel real until you touch me again
the last time that i saw you was in a dream and for some reason i thought that if i could talk to dream you then maybe dream you could give real you a message from me and i was just wondering if it worked and if it did then why haven't i heard from you so just in case it didn't work i told dream you to tell real you that i haven't forgotten us
have you ever wondered what would have happened if we had never met do you think that we would be okay like do you think that we would find happiness without each other because i was thinking about it and i think that i would still feel like something was missing even if i didn't know that it was my most important something
So I'm sitting on the curb nursing another twisted knee and i realise that even though i know that you could leave me broken i will still follow you to the ends of the earth and through every stitched cut and relocated shoulder that would have never been dislocated if we had just stayed on the path like i had suggested i'll remember our first night when you taught me to nurse my wounds and fade old scars and it will be worth it
sometimes i wish that i could burrow through your iris to the part of your skull where you feel all of the secrets and regrets slowly spilling into the stomach acid that you pretend you aren't choking on and i'm hoping that you'll find relief if i take some of the pressure but you have to let me in because i promise your demons don't scare me
you've always made the decisions when it comes to what we are going to eat or who's bed we're going to sleep in and i guess it's because i'm never really sure of anything and sometimes i'm afraid of what might happen if i make the wrong choice but with you i feel safe and i want you to know that even though i'm never really sure of anything i'm completely sure of this so maybe just trust me this time
Love can either make or break you, but it’s up to you to decide. Love is when you’re able to accept someone without having to use their flaws as an excuse to get rid of them. Love is when you’re able to run to each other for help at any giving time under any type of circumstance. Love is the feeling of freedom, forgiveness, and fantasy. When it comes to love, Gemini, cherish it. Don’t be afraid to open up and try new things. You have a life ahead of you full of new people to meet and things to experience, so don’t limit yourself when you can in fact go further. Don’t be afraid to be who you are, present who you truly are; you’ll thank yourself later on. Lastly, allow your love to be one of a kind, and of course, don’t be afraid to love.
Hope this isn't too weird, but could I get some CM headcanons about how the BAU would feel about the "Ted Cruz is the Zodiac Killer" meme?
this is the most random and best ask i’ve gotten in forever omg
Reid, of course, starts by listing the times and dates of the Zodiac murders, then supplies Cruz’ date of birth, place of birth and what his age would have been when the murders took place. Turns out that Cruz was born during the killer’s active years, and was also, you know, born in Canada. Of course, somehow he manages to direct his spiel in the direction of time travel, involving different theorems from 5 different physicists and also somehow an explanation about the Tardis to work around how he could be guilty of the crimes. Reid concludes Ted Cruz is not the Zodiac Killer. But not before a long spiel on the cultural aspects of internet humour and the way the internet generation is effecting political transparency and optics. Tara is very interested and participatory in the optics conversation, not so much the one about the Tardis though, that’s Garcia.
Emily laughs mirthlessly and lists off about ten different politicians she’d happily call serial killers and informs the room that Cruz ain’t that special. Though she admits she does get some vindictive glee from the whole thing… A lot of vindictive glee. She framed some of the more insulting posts. The only thing she hates more than a politician in general is one using religion as an excuse to treat others as she’d been in her youth.
Garcia… Well, she actually made a bunch of the meme posts that had gone viral.
Apparently one time Rossi ended up in a poker game with Cruz, and said he was too spineless to ever carry out crimes like that of the zodiac killer, theorizing that it Cruz were a serial killer, he’d only pick high risk victims, would never have the neck to taunt anybody about it, and that in the end, Cruz is probably happier trying to kill people through damning policy than anything proactive like shooting them.
Hotch (who was chief when the meme was in it’s prime) occasionally had to field the odd question about it from an opportunistic young reporter who actually knew what the BAU did. The Hotch glare™ made a stunning appearance.
Alex looks at the transcripts of the supposed Zodiac letters sent to the press back in the day and deadpan informs everybody that the poor grammar is far more consistent to Trump’s poor grasp of the English language than Cruz’. (she’s laughing at the meme on the inside).
Strauss wishes they wouldn’t give credence to calling a politician a serial killer and would like them to Stop Discussing It. They’re professionals in that area, people might get the wrong idea! (the budget is decided by politicians, they need that budget for important things like her assistant agent anderson and coffee. Lots of coffee).
Morgan would rather be renovating houses or spending time with Savannah than looking up memes, but Savannah talks about them sometimes so he’s stuck with his total confusion as to how the hell that one even started.
Kate, Emily, Garcia, Tara and JJ have a group chat where they share their favourite memes, if questioned about it, only the first three would admit to the chat’s existence.
Luke pretends to be above things like memes but curiously knows everything about the zodiac killer meme when the conversation is bought up (He also has a great working knowledge of the doge meme that he hopes Garcia never notices).
Gideon’s ghost seethes from the afterlife at the internet for making a joke of serial killers. He angrily sends the perpetrators of the memes stern messages on Ouija boards, seriously, he was murdered by a serial killer once! It’s not funny!
ur so strong and steady and i may or may not have a crush on u. the lil commentary you do when you’re bored is what keeps me alive and i dont get why youre so underrated tbh, you’re hilarious and strong and loyal and you are worthy of the same kind of love that you provide for everyone else. it’s your season, so go forth!! well staying home is good too, get lots of blankets and candles and order in from somewhere maybe, bath/spa stuff is A+ relaxation material. bottom line just take some time to really PAMPER yourself this season ok? no half-assed ‘breaks’ before going right back into overworking and getting frustrated with yourself. take care of urself and lemme know if u find any good new restaurants.