i want to tell you you’ve always been beautiful but you’d think it’s a lie and i’m you so a part of me thinks it’s a lie too.
i want to tell you you’re strong, and at least this i can half believe, spin a spider’s web, echoes in the silk of a girl who laid down the knife.
i want to tell you that you’re still young, there’s still time. that the sun always rises and even when it has to set the stars will be waiting-
-but i know you better than you know me and better than anyone i know there is little i could tell you that we’d both believe.
so i won’t tell you you’re young- you’d scoff and roll your eyes, assume i’m just another grown up who thinks they know better. i won’t tell you you’re strong because i know that our strength grew and the you that is you and not yet me might only carry the seed, still just kindling to be coaxed. i won’t tell you you’re beautiful but i hope ten years down the line there’s another us who knows better. maybe she’ll write us both a letter.
instead, i’ll tell you i love you because even if you don’t believe it it’s still true and i know you need to hear it because i do too. i love you.
Today we’re joined by Fishtanks. Fishtanks is a wonderful visual artist who also does some writing. They mostly do fanart, but also do original work. When they’re not drawing, Fishtanks is working on a webcomic and also does zines. They’re very enthusiastic, as you’ll soon read. My thanks to them for taking the time to participate in this interview.
Please, tell us about
I am mostly a fan artist of a company called Rooster Teeth,
but I also do Original pieces, Zines, animatics, and you heard it here first,
I’m working on creating a webcomic right now!
What inspires you?
My inspiration for a majority of what I do is a mix of
determination and stubbornness. If I want to do something someone tells me I
can’t I work ten times as hard to do it! I have people watching me every day,
and I want everyone who does watch me to know they can do whatever their heart
What got you
interested in your field? Have you
always wanted to be an artist?
I actually never thought that I would be an artist in any
capacity as a child. I was interested in engineering and medicine! What got me
interested was in my sophomore year of high school, I started talking to my now
best friend. He was always by himself drawing, so to get closer to him, I
started drawing! Once I started, and my best friend encouraged me, I was
you have any kind of special or unique signature, symbol, or feature you
include in your work that you’d be willing to reveal?
I sign all my works of course, but nothing particularly
What advice would you
give young aspiring artists?
If someone says you can’t do something, do it anyway. Prove
them wrong. Work harder to get there. Know you can do anything you want when
you work harder and look at things from a new perspective.
Where on the spectrum
do you identify?
Regular ol’ asexual
Have you encountered
any kind of ace prejudice or ignorance in your field? If so, how do you handle it?
I have had a few times I have had to stop talking to people
I enjoyed messaging because they either said aces aren’t real, or they don’t
belong in the LGBT+ community, as well as left group chats.
What’s the most
common misconception about asexuality that you’ve encountered?
Me complimenting a person or saying “She’s cute” and someone
responding “But you’re ace.” Ace people can think someone is cute or attractive
What advice would you
give to any asexual individuals out there who might be struggling with their
It’s totally okay to be confused and questioning, and I even
encourage it! Do not worry about saying you are something and then change it if
you think it is wrong. Also, it is okay to not have a label for who you are,
you are you, not a sum of labels!
Finally, where can
people find out more about your work?
So, malak and i are doing a collaborative food zine as you may have heard and we are looking for submissions!
the short of it is we want
the long of it:
the art we want can be comics(!!), it can be photographs, illustrations with your recipes, etc. Collages! If you made it with ya own hands submit it
recipes! we want them to have process pix and a blurb about the recipe itself and why you keep coming back to it
articles! mad about food gentrification in your neighbourhood? adore a restaurant that gets no love? complain about how pasta is sf expensive for what???? FOR WHAT? people made fun of your ethnic food as a kid and now they all think its trendy? obsessed with making the perfect cookie and want to log your result? Write us a 1-3 page article, it’ll be fun i promise. We love complaining but also we love being triumphant and rude.
Its a little short notice but we want it to be finished for february, so it’ll be less of a holiday issue and more of a love (of food) issue but! thats still a holiday so it’s fine haha.
I haven’t been around here much this weekend as it is the Portland Zine Symposium but the last day is today! Here are some of our new buttons that I have been wearing around.
Also, I wasn’t on the witches and Zines panel but I attended it and it was pretty great. A lot of talk about writers block and manifesting art and where it comes from and why. It also fit in well with the Native opening speaker that reminded up we are on occupied land and that white people have our written word but they have oral tradition. The written word is magic and that our even was about that magic and a joke about “they call it ‘spelling’ for a reason” which seemed to shake something loose in me. Like, I always knew that. Where do they words come from?
I talked about my blocks with writing my own witch zine and heard some tools I can use to work on it. It was a good workshop.
I hung out with @lemonbalmgirl and @blue-index and @youlooksosmall and met @kdhume and a few others of you at my table. I wasn’t there much as I was running around trying to keep things from falling apart. A very tired and scruffy Ian B was there and my sister for awhile. Ian B had been up since 4:30 and hadn’t had a shower in a few days but he has been so helpful and great.
OK. Off to the IPRC for the super exciting skillshare portion of the event.