CAN WE JUST TALK ABOUT THIS HE IS PRESSING HIS HAND AGAINST THE SCREEN AND HE JUST WANTS TO GET TO YOU BUT YOU’RE BOTH IN DIFFERENT DIMENSIONS I’M GONNA RAM MY FACE INTO MY PHONE SO HARD I GET TO HIM JUST WATCH ME
This was supposed to be done by Zen’s birthday, but sadly it wasn’t in the stars >_< Neither was me participating in LovelyZenWeek. I wonder if it would be okay for me to pile a bunch of last minute art together so I technically did contribute.
It’s an idea I’ve had for months. I haven’t seen this idea done yet in great detail, but I wonder if Zen ever saw his and MC’s future in his “psychic dreams.” And I ran with it, revealing my 3 fankids for them. Like a lot of people I think their oldest child would be a daughter who looks like Zen, but afterwards they have a son and one more daughter who look more like their mom.
ANYWAY, I’m sadly still really busy and it’s tough balancing out real life with doing art, school, side projects, and family. So I’ll still need a little time to get back to all your asks and messages but I will make it one day :’)
Have you guys ever seen that post about how the way parents talk to their children becomes their inner voice?
That means that sometimes Zen looks at the mirror and all he remembers are his mom’s harsh words telling him he’s ugly, scolding him for not being as obedient as his brother.
That means that sometimes before he sends a picture of himself into the chat he probably hesitates, because he’s not sure if he really does look good in it. His narcissism is all just a façade to hide the fact that he’s actually so insecure inside.
That means that when you start living with him there will probably be days when he just feels absolutely disgusting, and all he does is avoid mirrors, work out almost to the point of overexertion, and you have to stop him and just assure him that he is alright the way he is.
You’ll start to wonder if the reason why he heals so quickly is because his body’s so used to it.
You’ll start to wonder what it was like before you came along. On good days he would be sweet and loving, but on the bad days he wouldn’t even want to look at you because he doesn’t feel like he deserves to. Because he’s ugly. Because you deserve better.
You’re there with him through thick and thin because you love him, and each day you just have to remind him that you love him and that both of you deserve each other.
One day he’ll learn to love himself, you tell yourself. And so you stay, because in the first place, you have no reason to leave. You’ve got a perfect man. His insecurities don’t change that. He just has to see himself as how you see him.
Just a mini-fic before I go to bed!
I’d like to dedicate this to @zens-ponytail because she inspired me with her previous post here.
If this post actually blows up I’ll do one for the rest of the RFA members + V + Saeran since this was actually really fun to make.
Zen compilation! (1/?) Photography by knightmare6 and Carlos A. Smith
Oh my god Sakura Matsuri was amazing this year! Not only was the weather gorgeous, but pretty much everything was at peak bloom. :) Sunday of the festival included my (and my sister’s) first attempt at crossplay, which I found to be a lot of fun! More pictures to come!