zayn hates this

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

it’s…. so amazing… how people in this fandom (yanno, fans) think they have the right to be as angry about zayn leaving the band as the actual band??? like? i don’t care if you hate zayn or not. that’s not my business do whatever you want. what i do care about is people saying, like, “oh well zayn did (this) therefore i’m gonna hate him” or “well louis and harry shaded him, and i trust them, therefore i can hate him!”

like… i didn’t realize you were in a band with him and had a right to use them as a reason for your emotions, when your experiences with zayn and their experiences with zayn are vastly different, but….whatever lol