youve come

another!!!!brother!!!!!!to!!!the!!!!!puppy!!!!!!!!pile!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just………love how @markiplier came by @therealjacksepticeye‘s panel okay. theyre so precious gosh that tweet killed me

If the only person who sees your progress is you, then thats just as valid as anyone else noticing it.

You’re a person and if you’re fighting every day against something like art block, depression or anything else, and no one notices but you? Good job!! You’re doing great and should feel proud of yourself, because you are the one whose fighting this, and everyone goes at a different pace.

Things will ease soon, and your progress will be out on display in time, keep going!

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I was tagged by the ever lovely @trans-lexi​ & @laura491​ for my 2016 selfies. Its been a hell of a year, and despite the heartache and struggle and pain I’m somehow still here and better yet I’m actually making progress coming out - to my parents, to my doctor, to my friends - so I guess I can begrudgingly say I’m almost kinda proud of myself. May the same continue next year; maybe finally start HRT?? We’ll see I guess! Lets hope 2017 goes easier on us all 💖

I’m not sure whos not done it yet so please if youve not do go for it and also let me know because Id love to see and share your beautiful faces 😚💖

So I finished 13 Reasons Why and I have a lot of thoughts I’m still trying to process to figure out how I feel about it overall and how I feel they portrayed things. I watched the Beyond the Reasons and I’m no longer angry about things I was before but I still don’t know how I feel about it overall.

I’m trying to bounce some of my thoughts off Dan but he hasn’t seen it so he has no idea what I’m referring to.

Sweet Vicious Fic Recs

I’m pissed that it’s cancelled and if you are too this is for you. I’ve made a list of my favourite sv fanfiction to commemorate the end to this beautiful show. find my other pages here and if you know who wrote any of these please let me know so I can give credit

Are We Dating? (by @mrriggerworld): juphelia - this is the cutest thing, the narration is really well done, everyone is beautifully in character, it’s all cute and good and it’s all fanastic, I love this so much

i found it in the wreckage: juphelia - this is short but truly wonderful, ophelia is beautiful and her emotions are cute and everything is amazing

Let’s Give Them Something to Talk Aboutjuphelia - really good, the dialogue is adorable, this feels right, I love how Jules is written -I feel like this really gets her character right

Pinky Promise (by @opheliamayerswife): juphelia - this is sweet and angsty and it makes me feel all of the things, ophelia broke my heart and everything is beautiful 

Clarity: juphelia - genuinly feels like it could happen on the show, it’s not the characters -or just the characters but the whole concept the way it’s delivered, I like it a lot

Hey, guess what?

It is perfectly, 100% okay, to be content and happy with being a mediocre musician. 

If music makes you happy, is something that you get something out of, then you’re good musician. It doesn’t matter how technically well you play- if you make music and it makes you happy then you have achieved your goal. And as a bonus you get to cheer other musicians on as their audience!


It’s also 100% okay to be terribly ambitious and have that intrinsic need to create art for other people in order to be able to breathe.

Set your bar high! Go for it! Be prepared to put in a lot of work, but find balance so that you don’t burn out. You have time, don’t be afraid to take it. Just because so-and-so was doing blah-blah-blah at your age doesn’t mean that you can’t have the same level of achievement someday. Go out and earn your sold-out standing O crowds. As a bonus, you get to cheer on other musicians and be their audience too!


It is 100% okay to fail spectacularly and feel like you never want to perform again.

Take your time, take a step back. Breathe. This is just a moment and it will pass. You will have other chances, even if it doesn’t feel like it. When you feel like you can, go back to music that you played in high school or middle school or elementary school. Remember when that seemed like the hardest thing you’d ever played? Look at you now! Amazing! You’ve come so far and you will be fantastic in the future too.


There is no such thing as a bad musician, just musicians at different times in their journeys.

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anonymous asked:

Best thing about FMA:B is that Nina is still remembered and a very defining part of a lot of their convictions towards people and alchemy. Al's conversation with Gracia highlights even some of the seemingly unimportant plot-related arcs from the very beginning still have large ripples through the FMA storyline. Because Nina originally felt like a lesson in human cruelty, but ended up being a lesson on humanitarianism.

YES. YES YES YES YES

This is also one of my absolute favorite little details. The biggest complaint I have about a lot of long-running, save-the-world type shows is that the characters will go through so many traumatic experiences that–for the sake of convenience–the writers just start to forget the early ones. There will be something so vital, so life-changing that happens in early episodes that just kinda gets…phased out. The writers are bored of it. The writers have decided bigger/cooler things need to happen instead. The writers just frigging forget, or change their minds, because that was still test-phase stuff for their characters and they want to renege on the characters caring so much about “early traumatic event”

Not Fullmetal Alchemist. 

Not Nina.

The impact she has on the Elrics is lasting. It’s consistent. It’s real. It’s never. damn. forgotten. 

The final chapter. Within the final 20 pages of the entire series, we get this

Here Al is trying to overhaul his and Ed’s entire life philosophy. He is attempting to reject the core ideas of alchemy. He’s trying to prove an entire different system of equivalence. Because he has not forgotten Nina. Because Ed has not forgotten. Because they refuse to forget.

Nina died in chapter 5.

And it is her memory that motivates the boys’ final actions in the final chapter: chapter 108

Because the consequences in this series are real, and the effects are lasting, and nothing is done just for shock, and nothing is thrown away

and nothing

is ever

forgotten

You were there with me through so much. You were my comfort, the only place that felt like home. You left me though, You said you didn’t love me anymore and you left. I tried everything to get you out of my head. I got drunk and kissed beautiful boys at parties. I smoked too much I cried, screamed, begged the universe to make the hurt stop. And now youve come back with your mouth freshly filled with promises and sweet nothings and I’m so happy but so scared to be broken again.

anonymous asked:

i also have fantasy heelies and i like to make them light up with prestidigitation and i rode by taako while doing so and i think he took it as a challenge. im rather worried now. i think he thought i was trying to one up him, should i prepare for him to retaliate and if so, should i be prepared to actually one up him afterwards. is this a cycle i want to get into? - j the intern

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we made the barrier for miles kane, we made the barrier for arctic monkeys at T in the park with thousands of people behind us, and finally, tonight at the Liverpool Olympia, @wankfriends and I saw our boys together, the one and only Alex turner held my hand and took my phone for a trip onto the stage and into superstar jazzy shirt aficionado miles Kane’s face 💕💕

okay so. as someone who runs one of the very, very few ocpd-centric blogs on tumblr (not this one, i mean @thatocpdfeel ), its actually so upsetting how little people know abt ocpd, even here on tumblr amongst other mental health bloggers. not to say anything bad abt those bloggers!!! its just not spoken abt much. maybe thats because its not as common as, like, bpd or avpd, but its also because SO many ocpd symptoms are ENCOURAGED by society. i get so many tags on my posts saying “thats an ocpd thing???” or “thats not normal???” or “im not supposed to do that???” like so much of what is killing us from the inside are things parents, teachers, and guardians all think are positive attributes to have, but we internalize those things in such a twisted and intense way that we suffer and yet are idealized for our suffering.
ive had so many people with other illnesses, like depression, tell me how ocpd has its upsides because i can be productive and get stuff done when they cant even get out of bed. thats not how it works.
ocpd is not being perfect.
ocpd is NEEDING to be perfect because even the tiniest mistake means you are the scum of the earth and deserve to die.
ocpd is not double checking your work to make sure you got everyting right because you want a good score.
ocpd is perfecting the wording of a single sentence because if it doesnt imply the exact thought you are trying to get across then it means you have failed and even if it is still technically right and no points are taken off, inside you know that it was wrong and it COULD have been better and your personal standards are ten times higher than the official standards because you know that the goals you need to reach to be successful are leaps and bounds above what the average person needs, not because you are better than them but because you must strive to become better than them at all cost because second best is still a loser.
ocpd is not orangizing your work station before starting a new project.
ocpd is crying and screaming while you trash 42 different versions of the same attempted project and shoving everything off your desk and wanting to pull out your hair or bang your head on a wall because you messed it up so many times already and if you dont get it right this time you will never get it and you will be marked as a failure for the rest of your life, unable to accomplish literally anything and youre so terrified of that thought you take six hours to scrub at your desk and mop the floor and take a razor to that bit of wax thats been stuck on the leg of your chair for a week and half and meticulously organize everything into boxes, counting every ration you put in to make sure they all even out, and listing everything thats there and labeling the boxes then straight up leaving the work area and not thinking about the project for another month.
ocpd is not having a folder of all your important documents because you know you will need them some time.
ocpd is having six folders, each containing vastly different documents, some of which are important, some of which are just old receipts to mcdonalds, some are keepsakes from friends, some of which are just a scap of paper with scribbles that you dont remember what they mean but maybe one day you will, and the rest are just any paper youve ever come across in your life. theyre all just as important as everything else though because the thought of prioritising them is nearly incomprehensible because they are all important and you need them all for equally important things so when you need, like, that paper for your auto insurance you first must sift through six hundred pages of notes your friends passed back and forth in middle school over five years ago and you dont even talk to them anymore but you absolutely cannot get rid of them. its all so important.
ocpd is not being productive.
ocpd is waking up and remembering that you are an inherently flawed and imperfect being, but also that your worth in this world is defined by what you put into it, so even if you cant be perfect, if you make enough perfect stuff or do enough stuff perfectly, it will all give the illusion to others as well as yourself that you are perfect. so you push yourself to do whatever it is you do. regardless of your other illnesses, you work and and try to be as productive as you possibly can because thats your only chance. you go into work sick. you push yourself past your limits, past what you know you are physically/mentally able to do, and you suffer for breaching those limits but all that pain is WORTH it because you are temporarily overcome with a sense of accomplishement and SOMEONE is finally proud of you. you did something right FOR ONCE. so even if you go completely nonverbal, or lay in bed for the next week in pain, or end up in the ER, or seventeen other things didnt get done, there was the most brief sense of absolute euphoria even if its almost immidiately replaced by a sense of overwhelming anxiety about what you messed up, forgot, did wrong, or ignored to achieve that feeling and the cycle of fixing, fixing, fixing repeats itself. ocpd is not being bossy, egotistical, or controlling. ocpd is a deeply psychological understanding that even the most insignificant mistake will reflect back on you in the most exaggerated and horrendous way possible. its knowing that if you ask your friend to go get you a red pen, but they bring you a blue one, and you dont know they got blue instead, so if you write even the smallest mark in that blue ink, even if its technically okay to write in red or blue, you specified red, so the fact that its blue makes it wrong and unnacceptable so in your mind its better to drop what your doing and get the correct red pen yourself even if its right beside your friend and you are already focusing on something else. the concept of asking others to do something, not even something in a manner of helping you but just to divide up jobs evenly, its absolutely impossible. because if they do something wrong, it will reflect on you, then you did something wrong and we both know that doing something wrong is completely out of the question. you would rather multitask four things at once, but the sight of someone else just twiddling their thumbs while you bust your ass is so infuriating! why cant they do what you are doing? why cant they just read your mind and know exactly what you need, when you need it, and be helpful? thats what you would do if they were in your situation! if they were working like you, you would hand them everything. you would also probably go ahead and just put that back for them. well, you could also handle that too. and before you know it, their job is your job and there they are twiddling their thumbs and looking at you for a job to do. its the phrase “if you want something done right, do it yourself” taken to a whole other level. ocpd is so much more than what people think. were more than just a “type a personality” or “perfectionists” and its not just “mild ocd” either. ocpd is painful. please remember that.