youth in crisis

Hozier sentence meme
  • ❛ Honey, please, try to love me. ❜
  • ❛ I called your name ‘til the fever broke. 
  • ❛ Don’t you ever tame your demons, but always keep them on a leash. ❜ 
  • ❛ It looks ugly, but it’s clean. ❜
  • ❛ Babe, there’s something tragic about you. ❜
  • ❛ Innocence died screaming, honey, ask me I should know. ❜
  • ❛ But I want it, it’s a crime that she’s not around most of the time. ❜
  • ❛ Her fight and fury is fiery, oh but she loves like sleep to the freezing. ❜
  • ❛ I prayed my mind be good to me. ❜
  • ❛ With her sweetened breath, and her tongue so mean, she’s the angel of small death and the codeine scene. ❜
  • ❛ It’s bloody and raw, but I swear it is sweet. ❜
  • ❛ So tired trying to see from behind the red in my eyes, no better version of me I could pretend to be tonight. ❜
  • ❛ Would things be easier if there was a right way? Honey, there is no right way. ❜
  • ❛ I fall in love just a little, oh a little bit every day with someone new. ❜
  • ❛ My lover’s got humor, she’s the giggle at a funeral. ❜
  • ❛ There’s an art to life’s distractions. ❜
  • ❛ I raised a stone to end his pain. ❜
  • ❛ When I was a child, I heard voices… Some would sing and some would scream. ❜
  • ❛ Cause with my mid-youth crisis all said and done, I need to be youthfully felt 'cause, God, I never felt young. ❜
  • ❛ We tried the world, good God, it wasn’t for us.  ❜
  • ❛ I turned and ran to save a life I didn’t have. ❜
  • ❛ But my peace has always depended on all the ashes in my wake. ❜
  • ❛ I wake at the first cringe of morning, and my heart’s already sinned. ❜
  • ❛ Always a well dressed fraud, who wouldn’t spare the rod. Never for me. ❜
  • ❛ I was born sick, but I love it. Command me to be well. ❜
  • ❛ Freshly disowned in some frozen devotion, no more alone or myself could I be. ❜
  • ❛ I clutched my life, and wished it kept. My dearest love, I’m not done yet. ❜
  • ❛ No shortage of sordid, no protest from me. ❜
  • ❛ I have never known peace like the damp grass that yields to me. ❜
  • ❛ Two corpses we were, two corpses I saw. ❜
  • ❛ All that I’ve been taught, and every word I’ve got, is foreign to me. ❜
  • ❛ I have never known hunger like these insects that feast on me. ❜
  • ❛ You’ve done me wrong for a long, long time. But after all you’ve done I never changed my mind. ❜
  • ❛ Honey, you know that’s my love bursting loud from inside. ❜
  • ❛ I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife. ❜
  • ❛ The purest expression of grief. ❜
  • ❛ Lord, it’d be great to find a place we could escape sometime. ❜
  • ❛ Idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on its sword. ❜
  • ❛ I found something in the woods somewhere. ❜
  • ❛ Babe, there’s something broken about this, but I might be hoping about this. ❜
He meditated on the use to which he should put all the energy of youth which comes to a man only once in life. Should he devote this power, which is not the strength of intellect or heart or education, but an urge which once spent can never return, the power given to a man once only to make himself, or even – so it seems to him at the time – the universe into anything he wishes: should he devote it to art, to science, to love, or to practical activities? True, there are people who never have this urge: at the outset of life they place their necks under the first yoke that offers itself, and soberly toil away in it to the end of their days.
—  Leo Tolstoy, The Cossacks.

Sunken, raptured, diseased, they called us by many names. Girlhood like a dagger, girlhood as the peacock poised under tangles of rain. Our girlhood is a battlefield, always a body left to float in the river. Always a crumpled moon. Chopsticks for fingers. Pulse detonating grenades. Sometimes which fit in the throat like skewers, others that drowned us in the bleachers with the inconceivable chorus of a thousand-something people chanting death in the stands. I am Hecate, I am Nyx. Beheading the corpses of stars, shooting their toxic plumes up into the woodlands of our fragile veins still often caught billowing in the wind. The aftertaste of which lingers like blood. We were high school girls playing at gods, wolves. With our heads bowed in shame, doom, reverence. We prayed with our teeth. Devouring the light of ancients with reborn hands. Hearts chambered and personified like a missile fired at the nearest stagnant wall, tripping on the shoulders of boys who rattle our skins like poltergeists, always en route our next mid-youth crisis.

anonymous asked:

Hi! I'm a therapist and after reading your recent post about suicide, I was hoping you could post some numbers I keep on me at all times. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255. HopeLine Crisis Line: 919-231-4525 or 1-877-235-4525. Trevor Project Lifeline: 1-866-488-7386. LGBT National Youth Talkline: 1-800-246-7743. Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender National Hotline: 1-888-843-4564. Sage LGBT Elder Hotline: 1-888-234-7243. California Youth Crisis Line: 800-843-5200

Thank you so much for sending this over. I will post it right now. <3

call it: being afraid of becoming so dangerously who i am that the world forgets how to pretend with me;
call it: sighing on solo walks;
let’s say: i’m young, i’ll find the way, my untravelled road, my journey;
let’s say: it’s okay if the moon doesn’t like me back, that the stars and i have drifted of late…
then: then what?
no door can open if i’m afraid to close my eyes;
so: mid youth crisis it is, i guess;
so: tear away from the broken window it is, then;
alright: breathe, now;
i’ll just have to look for the wind within myself.

- vans.

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Lead levels fall below federal limits in Flint, Michigan: state
Lead levels in Flint, Michigan's drinking water have receded below federal limits, state officials said on Tuesday, although they cautioned residents to continue using filtered water as work went on to replace the city's old lead pipes.

“Tests showed lead levels in the city’s drinking water were 12 parts per billion (PPB) between July and December, below the federal limit of 15 PPB, Michigan officials said in a statement.

Flint, a predominantly black city of 100,000, was under the control of a state-appointed emergency manager when it switched its water source from Lake Huron to the Flint River in April 2014. The more corrosive river water caused lead to leach from city pipes and go into the drinking water.

Lead can cause various health problems in children, and Flint’s contaminated water has prompted dozens of lawsuits and criminal charges against several former government officials.

Even with the test results, programs that provide water filters and related services will continue, Michigan Governor Rick Snyder said in the statement.

“This is not the end of our work in Flint, but it is one more step along the path toward Flint’s future,” said Snyder, a Republican who has been sharply criticized by Flint residents for his handling of the crisis”


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anonymous asked:

you think Deacon's ever had this weird sudden realization hes old? a midlife crisis?

That’s a really good question that I’ll probably overcomplicate, because that’s my signature move: over complicating things. I’m also Tumblr old (early 30′s) so my perspective on this might be different than someone younger, and might be different than someone older (and I’d love to have them chime in).

I personally put Deacon in his mid-40s so he’s midlife for a Wastelander, maybe even older than midlife, I’d say? The thing is, I never got the impression that being “old” was held in the same negative regards as we do in the US now. In the US we’re obsessed with youth and beauty. I haven’t experienced those things being valued in the Commonwealth. 

Surviving to your 40′s might be a big accomplishment in the Wasteland, maybe you’re more respected for your wisdom and life experience? Maybe you know trying to hold onto your youth, or being perceived as youthful, is pointless in comparison to staying alive?

Deacon’s survived many (at least 5-8) attacks by the Institute, however many partners, run however many synths to their new homes, and he’s seen many people he’s cared about, die. Just within the events of Fallout 4 he loses everyone at the Switchboard (at least 10 named people, countless unnamed), loses the people in the simultaneous attacks on four other safehouses, Ticonderoga where he loses High-Rise and all of his people, then Glory and the other agents killed during the BOS attack at Old North Church. He can keep track of the years that have passed based on the number of synths they’ve smuggled out and who they’ve lost to bullets or bombs.

If anything, I’d think this would set his perspective for what’s important and what isn’t important. Being young, holding onto his youth, expressing it by getting a hairpiece, a red hot rod, and dating a young piece of ass, might not be very important to him. It might be more likely that he has a secret case of survivor’s guilt when he thinks about the age he’s managed to survive to, while countless others haven’t.

This a really roundabout way of saying that I don’t believe Deacon would think of being old in the context of a midlife crisis, of trying to reclaim his youth, but more likely that he thinks of being old in the context of the time that he’s spent, the life that he’s lived, and memories of all of the good and bad events that have occurred within that time.

Also, if you believe his story about Barbara, he extra-hated the person he was when he was young. I don’t think he’d try to recapture or relive that time in his life.

legitimately praying and hoping for the safety of american lgbt+ people and communities. you are valid, you matter, you are not alone, and it will be okay. you are valuable. you are powerful. it is not your fault. i believe you, and i believe in you. the sooner we come together as global communities and protect each other the better, hotlines for the usa are below, please don’t hesitate to talk to me if you ever need someone to listen to you.

we will be okay.


usa suicide hotline: 1-800-784-2433

trevor project lifeline:  1-866-488-7386

suicide prevention services crisis hotline: 800-784-2433

suicide prevention services depression hotline: 630-482-9696

child abuse hotline - support & information: 800-792-5200

crisis help line - for any kind of crisis: 800-233-4357

sexual assault hotline (english and spanish) : 800-223-5001

national domestic violence hotline: 800-799-SAFE

national youth crisis hotline: 800-448-4663

national child abuse hotline: 800-422-4453

suicide & depression hotline – covenant house: 800-999-9999

runaway hotline (all calls are confidential) : 800-231-6946

domestic & teen dating violence hotline (english and spanish) : 800-992-2600

Youth & Teen Hotlines
  • National Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663
  • Youth America Hotline: 1-877-YOUTHLINE (1-877-968-8454)
  • Covenant House Nine-Line (Teens): 1-800-999-9999
  • Boys Town National: 1-800-448-3000
  • Teen Helpline: 1-800-400-0900
  • TeenLine: 1-800-522-8336
  • Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663 or 1-800-422-0009
  • Runaway Support (All Calls are Confidential): 800-231-694
  • National Runaway Hotline: (US only) 1800-231-6946
  • Child Helpline: (UK Only) 0800-111
  • Kids Helpline: (Australia) 1800-55-1800
  • Youth to Youth: (UK only) 020-8896-3675
  • Kids Help Phone Canada: 1800-688-6868
  • National Youth Crisis Hotline:(US only) 800-442-442-4673
Hozier Lyrics Starter Sentences
  • "My lover's got humor."
  • "She's a giggle at a funeral."
  • "Should've worshiped her sooner."
  • "We were born sick, you heard them say it"
  • "She tells me 'worship in the bedroom.'"
  • "The only heaven I'll be sent to, is when I'm alone with you"
  • "I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife"
  • "Offer me that deathless death."
  • "Let me give you my life."
  • "My lover's the sunlight."
  • "There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin."
  • "Wonder if better now having survived"
  • "No other version of me I would rather be tonight"
  • "So deep in this swill with the most familiar of swine"
  • "It would be great to find a place we could escape sometime"
  • "She found me just in time"
  • "'Cause with my mid-youth crisis all said and done"
  • "I need to be youthfully felt"
  • "God, I never felt young"
  • "She's gonna save me"
  • "Call me baby "
  • "Happy to lie back"
  • "You knew who I was every step that I ran to you"
  • "Would things be easier if there was a right way?"
  • "Honey, there is no right way."
  • "There's an art to life's distractions"
  • "Love with every stranger, the stranger the better"
  • "All I've ever done is hide"
  • "But you don't know what hell you put me through"
  • "I know that you hate this place"
  • "It feels good"
  • "Oh to be alone with you"
  • "Honey, we should run away"
  • "Get closer to me"
  • "Idealism sits in prison"
  • "Chivalry fell on it's sword"
  • "Innocence died screaming, honey, ask me, I should know"
  • "I slithered here from Eden just to hide outside your door"
  • "Oh what a sin"
  • "I'll be home with you"
  • "I have never known color like this morning reveals to me"
  • "Something isn't right, babe"
  • "So we're slaves to any semblance of touch"
  • "Lord we should quit but we love it too much"
  • "Won't you come and save me from it?"
  • "You're supposed to drag me away from it"
  • "Is that the kinda way to face the burning heat?"
  • "I'm so full of love I could barely eat"
  • "I didn't care much how long I lived"
  • "She never asked me once about the wrong I did"
  • "Heaven and hell were words to me"
  • "I will not ask you where you came from"
  • "I will not ask, and neither should you"
  • "Honey, just put your sweet lips on my lips"
  • "We should just kiss like real people do"
  • "I know who I am when I'm alone"
  • "I'm something else when I see you"
  • "You don't understand, you should never know"
  • "How easy you are to need"
  • "Don't be kind to me"
  • "I will come back"
  • "It's a kindness you can't afford"
  • "I want you baby tonight, as sure as you're born"
  • "You'll hear me howling outside your door"
  • "Don't you hear me howling babe?"
  • "I've no language left to say it"
  • "All that I've been taught, and every word I've got, is foreign to me"
  • "It looks ugly, but it's clean"
  • "The way she tells me I'm hers and she is mine"
  • "Open hand or closed fist would be fine"
  • "The blood is rare and sweet as cherry wine"
  • "I called your name 'til the fever broke."
  • "The night so black that the darkness hummed"
  • "I heard a scream in the woods somewhere"
  • "What caused the wound?"
  • "My dearest love I'm not done yet"
  • "Rare is this love, keep it covered"
  • "All you have is your fire and the place you need to reach"
  • "Don't you ever tame your demons- always keep 'em on a leash"
  • "You've done me wrong for a long, long time"
  • "But after all you've done, I never changed my mind"
  • "Try to love me"
  • "My love will never die"

Today is Bell Let’s Talk Day, a day dedicated to mental health awareness in canada. every long distance call and text message on a Bell/Aliant network today gives 5c to canadian mental health awareness and recovery programs


if you’re not canadian, or not on Bell, please consider tweeting #BellLetsTalk on Instagram or Twitter, as a donation is made for the hashtags as well, or consider donating to Kid’s Help Phone, a confidential phone/online chat line for Canadian youth in crisis.

regardless of where you are, and what your monetary situation is, please reach out to your friends and loved ones today. maybe you need help, or just someone to listen, and they may need the same. you could save a life; i know that my friend calling an ambulance, when i was suicidal and ready to attempt, saved mine.

stay strong. stay safe.

@mentalillnessmouse

anonymous asked:

so im 14 i wanna leave home, but i still want to go to school. Any ideas?

Hey there! Obviously I’m gonna direct you to this post first, which is my How To Run Away From Home masterpost even though it’s obviously meant more for people who can legally and realistically live on their own after leaving. 

Your age and where you live both play a huge factor in what kind of resources are available to you–in general, there are more government-funded services for minors than there are for estranged adults. However, most of them are underfunded and spend a lot of their resources on reconciliation. At 14, they’re gonna do everything they can to get you back with your parents. When I was 15 and wanted to be placed in foster care, social services told me that I was almost 18 so I might as well just stick it out.

They’re probably going to say the same to you.

You’re at the magical age where you can legally decide which parent to live with if they get divorced, you can even get married, but you can’t legally live independently. Please don’t think I’m condescending or talking down to you, but at 14 you can’t live independently–legally or realistically. There are employment restrictions on minors so you won’t be able to make a living wage, you can’t sign up for credit cards or sign a lease on your own, you probably can’t get your own bank account.

You will need someone to be declared your guardian. This is a long and complicated legal process that I am not trained to advise anyone on because it varies by region. But here are my general tips for getting started:

  1. Document everything. Keep a record of any and all abuse. Always make sure you personally have access to your files with police, social services, hospitals, and the school. Keep phone numbers, websites, and email addresses on hand of emergency support (friends, shelters, etc.).
  2. If there is an adult in your life who you trust and who would be willing to be your guardian, talk to them and work with them to connect with social services. Having them with you from the beginning of the process makes everything go a lot easier.
  3. You will need to work with your school’s counselor to a) stay in school, b) help you keep in contact with social services, and c) serve as a testimonial or reference for your situation (and college applications, if that’s what you choose to do).
  4. When in doubt, go to the library. Seriously. A lot of public libraries are starting to have social workers on staff specifically to handle crisis youth and homeless populations. And even if they don’t have someone trained for that, they can help you find out where you can go and what you have to do to go there.
  5. Keep a list of all of the people and places that can support you so you know where to go for paperwork, resources, or even somewhere to sleep. These can be:
  • friends
  • family members of friends
  • your own sympathetic family members
  • social services/child protective services
  • the police
  • crisis hotlines
  • domestic violence centers
  • shelters
  • food banks
  • employment offices
  • clinics
  • college financial aid offices
  • the library, which can put you in touch with all of the above

Some of those are people you can request to be your guardian; some are just places to get started learning about emancipation. Here are some of the resources from the runaway post that would be helpful to you:

It is going to be hard. 

Because of your age, people will belittle and dismiss you every step of the way. If you are truly committed to getting out, and you’re willing to do the work for it, everything will be worth it in the end. But you will have to work. Hard.

anonymous asked:

I'm 14 and I'm 2 weeks clean. Is it bad that I've wanted to kill myself so badly?

im glad youve made it to 2 weeks :) im really proud of you! ive written this out like 4 times and keep deleting it all bc it just doesnt makes sense and i really dont know what to say so im going to go over a few things here and its all over the place im sorry if it says something on here twice  first here are some hotline in case you ever need them :

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Trudeau Was At A Liberal Book Launch During The Indigenous Suicide Debate
The event was at a high-end restaurant a few blocks from Parliament.
By Emma Loop

While MPs were participating in an emergency debate on the Indigenous youth suicide crisis, Prime Minister Justin Trudeau was socializing with fellow Liberals at one of Ottawa’s swankiest restaurants.