yours frank

n1njarapt0r  asked:

Hello, I really appreciate your blog and frank discussion of mental illness. I just got prescribed anti-depressants and will start taking them tomorrow. I am terrified. Any words of advice?

I can only speak to my personal experience, but I think it’s normal and totally reasonable to be somewhere in the continuum of worried to terrified. You’ve gotten used to your brain and your reality being a particular way, and you’re about to begin a journey that will change that. It’s changing it for the better, and I know that you’re going to feel better, but it’s still a pretty fundamental change so it’s normal to be apprehensive about it.

When I started my meds, I was able to take a day off, just in case my body reacted strangely. Luckily, it didn’t, and I ended up watching a whole lot of Adventure Time without feeling like I was wasting the day. But it may be different for you, and that’s okay. Some people need a day or a week to adjust, and even when it’s tough, it’s worth it. 

You may also feel nothing for up to three weeks. That’s also normal and it’s also okay. In my experience, it was less like a switch being pushed and more like a sudden realization that the lights had slowly come on in a very dark room, but they’d come on so gently and slowly I didn’t realize they were on until the moment I could see the door out.

It helped me to have Anne to talk to while I was adjusting to life with brain pills. Maybe it’ll help you to have someone you can talk to who you trust, too.

If you just take one thing away from this, though, please let it be this: it’s completely reasonable to be apprehensive, and I’m super proud of you for having the courage to help yourself get better, anyway.

Let me know how it goes, okay?

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//My Chemical Romance Album Aesthetic// 

| I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love | Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge | The Black Parade | Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys | 

I swear one of my favorite things about My Chemical Romance’s “I brought you my bullets you brought me your love” physical cd is the anti piracy warning:

“Unauthorized duplication is a violation of applicable laws and will result in Gerard coming to your house and sucking your blood.”

MCR THINGS I WILL NEVER GET BORED OF:
  • the beginning of demolition lovers
  • the guitars in early sunsets over monroeville
  • “i photocopied all the things that we could be if you took the time to notice me”
  • ALL OF VAMPIRES WILL NEVER HURT YOU
  • the whispering(?) in helena
  • the vocal effect on the verses of give em hell kid
  • “but i get down with my friIIIIIIIIIEeeeEIEEEEEEEeeends”
  • “trust me, I’M NOOOOOOOOOOOT OOOOOOOOOKAAAAAAAAAAAY”
  • the bridge of i never told you what i do for a living
  • ALL OF LIFE ON THE MURDER SCENE
  • REVENGE ERA FRANK
  • RAY IN LIFE ON THE MURDER SCENE
  • the horn section on dead!
  • ALL OF WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE
  • ALL OF HOUSE OF WOLVES
  • “baby i’m just soggy from the chemo”
  • the harmonies at the end of cancer
  • “just sleeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP”
  • ALL OF DISENCHANTED
  • “awake and unafraid, ASLEEP OR DEEEEAAAAAAAAAAD”
  • ALL OF BLOOD
  • BLACK PARADE ERA GERARD
  • “i’ll be your surgeon, your proctor, your helicopter”
  • “killjoys, MAKE SOME NOISE”
  • the guitar solo in na na na
  • the NA NA NA’s after the guitar solo
  • “GRAVITY” *guitars*
  • ALL OF SING
  • ALL OF TRAFFIC REPORT
  • ALL OF SAVE YOURSELF, I’LL HOLD THEM BACK
  • destroya ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) (you know what i’m talking about)
  • DANGER DAYS MIKEY
  • ALL OF BOY DIVISION
  • ALL OF AMBULANCE
  • “the world is ugly, but you’re beautiful to me”
  • all of the tears i’ve cried during the light behind your eyes
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My Top Ten Releases of 2016

1. Chance The Rapper - Coloring Book

2. A Tribe Called Quest - We got it from Here… Thank You 4 Your service

3. Anderson .Paak - Malibu

4. Domo Genesis - Genesis

5. Noname - Telefone

6. Jay Prince - Smile Good

7. Dave - Six Paths

8. AJ Tracey - Lil Tracey

9. Frank Ocean - Blonde

10. J. Cole - 4 Your Eyez Only