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anonymous asked:

Can I ask a scenario or headcanon of Yurio and Victor with a s/o who has just had an injury but wants to continue training for the next competition? :)

Oh this is a unique request! I’m so sorry for the wait, btw. I hate writer’s block ;-; Anyway, I hope you enjoy! Thank you for requesting :3


[Viktor Nikiforov]

  • This man is so protective over you holy s h i t !!!
  • When you insist on getting back on your feet to practice, he scolds you and takes time out of his own schedule to keep you company and look after you
  • did i mention that he’s the best caretaker in the entire universe? ? ? because he is and you will never need anything with him at your side
  • If you start to feel down because of your injury, Viktor gives the best pep talks and gives you penalty of hugs and kisses until your spirits start to rise again
  • “(Y/N), you might think being injured sucks, but look at the bright side! You get control of the remote, you can eat all of the food you want, you have a handsome hunk like me to take care of you; what more could you want?”
  • and if you argue that you ‘want to keep training,’ he’ll tackle you an smother you in kisses idk fan you asked for it
  • Overall, he just wants you to be happy and healthy, and he will do all in his power to get you back on your feet again

[Yuri Plisetsky]

  • Since he’s so stubborn, he’s going to make sure you follow doctor’s orders
  • He practically pins you down on the couch when you try to leave your home to go practice
  • Yuri tends to take the ‘tough love’ approach when convincing you to rest; he doesn’t try to be mean but this speeches certainly turn out that way
  • “(Y/N), I love you, but you’re dumb as shit. You need to rest and let your body heal, you idiot. but fuck i love you I’m just being mean so you listen to me
  • His favorite thing to do while you rest is bring all of his cats into the living room and pile them on top of you so you become the base of a cat mountain
  • and he takes so many pictures for instagram holy fuck lmao he will bless all of his followers’ feeds with you
  • Yuri may not be the most affectionate boyfriend ever, but he’s there to take care of you and do whatever he can to get your health back in order

anonymous asked:

Do you think we'll see Dean and Jody discuss Cas? Does Jody even know Cas exists? They told her s8 angels exits and she was claire but still i thibk textually they never mentioned his name around her? Im guessing they are gonna discuss Deans feeling about Mary since Jody knew her but Cas?

I don’t know, which I know I say to like basically all questions about speculation but this one is something I don’t really have a clue about and I’m not even sitting on my thumbs pretending not to have an opinion because I’d rather not say anything on the record until I know I’m right or not… I really, genuinely, to the best of my ability to sound it all out and guess from the available information, don’t know :P 

It depends how they handle Cas being gone overall, whether Dean’s openly, loudly mourning him all the time every episode constantly, which is a detail where I’d only be able to offer you a confident speculation on the eve of this episode anyway after seeing the first 2. If Dean goes stoic and jaw-twitchy but quiet about it then probably not but that’s just like… super obvious and short term.

In the mean time, please assume the tin foil hat position you’d take to listen to a conversation that sounds like this:

There’s quite a lot to pack in with meeting Patience, and getting our guys some good face to face time with Jody for any emotional support they need to sponge off her. Sam doesn’t seem to be around so he may be off with Jack, but if he wasn’t, he’d probably want to learn how to be a mom to him from Jody, for all we know :P Thematically it might sort of be that way anyhow - if Patience doesn’t come in direct contact with Sam it seems ridiculously unlikely she’s not going to be thematically connected to him and therefore Jack through an extremely easy join the dots between 13x03 and 1x09. (Sam already kinda went one round with this sort of thing in 12x04 so in a way he’s got his booster shot of dealing with it directly so it can just be storytelling mirrors for him :P)

Certainly Jody is more connected to Mary symbolically and in general the Wayward Sisters stuff has been more about parenting and those dynamics recently, with 11x12 looking at how Jody copes and teasing us with hindsight for Mary’s return with Dean talking to her about wishing his mom had been around, and in 12x06 and 12x22 she and Mary sort of bounce off each other as moms directly in a continuation of that - in 12x16 she’s not around except on the other end of phonecalls but Dean’s carrying on parenting Claire as a hunter a lil bit. 

Of all of those, 11x12 was the only one to make a nod to Cas with Claire holding grumpy cat in one of her scenes, but the show has decided to treat him a lot as just the inciting incident to get her onto the road hunting by dragging her into the life, while Dean does the thing he does around feisty wayward teenagers, and probably was mostly responsible for switching Claire’s amateur detective attempt onto a hunting thing in 10x20. I don’t want to make Claire cringe but I think she thought he was actually kinda cool and inspired her or something, because she had not had any interest in the supernatural side of things before that episode… 

Despite all her connections to Cas I think Dean sort of birthed hunter!Claire, so the story sort of wanders that direction and leaves Cas behind because he’s more like Azazel in Claire’s story than anything, even if a very sad soft squishy Azazel who gave her a stuffed toy for her birthday :P Still they played it like her forgiving and hugging Cas was about the same as Dean finally getting to shoot Azazel, in both case freeing them to go do their job with the angsty backstory resolved…

In any case, I think Cas is probably an emergency contact Jody has for Claire-related stuff, although whether they told her to or not, she’d probably always call Sam and Dean first because she knows and understands them (and has met them), and I think the story is asking us to believe that with this symbolism of Claire getting past what Cas did to her family, she’s in a new stage of life he’s not a part of in the same way even if she does cling onto grumpy cat, and Cas is still family to people who consider Jody as family, who she considers family. Sort of shunting him from awkward dad no. 3 of 4 as per 10x20′s recap and symbolism to a weird uncle or something. (Although if Jody has mom symbolism to both Claire and Dean, that makes them siblings and Cas her brother in law… this found family stuff is really difficult :P)

So there’s all that shaping my expectations - Claire’s not in the episode and she’s our connection between Cas and Jody. Previous episodes have made it clear that Sam and Dean really hate calling even beloved friends with their shit and don’t tell Jody alarmingly huge things like that Mary came back from death. She’s been offering a shoulder to Dean personally while he’s been going through all his stuff, and in 9x08 I think Sam did open up to Jody more than Dean even when they were all in the same room, never mind in that and 7x12 they got split up from Dean and actually bonded (And I think this is also a quote from Kim Rhodes but also just something fairly obvious, that because Sam was the one connected to her more in her intro episode and ended up shooting her zombie son for her, they’ve always had a closer emotional bond via shared trauma). 

I don’t think it’s showing that Sam and Jody aren’t as close now to have her switch focus to Dean but that Jody is determined to get Dean to open up to her *too*. In 12x06 they have really different attitudes about her when Sam makes the comment about Dean’s “animated Japanese erotica” which show how they’ve grown in different directions with Jody. So I think Sam’s closeness to her is fairly accepted fact and now Dean’s the tough nut to crack for her :P Anyway she’s made the offer two or three times now that she’s there to talk if Dean in particular needs her (definitely 10x08 and 12x06… Can’t remember if she said as much in 11x12 although they did also have an actual personal conversation in that episode, so one point to Jody there). I think 12x06 made it clear there’s still an owed conversation of greater than that opening up and spilling the beans on what’s making him emo right now, so there’s that.

And Cas and Mary have been connected all through season 12, in their arcs, in the subtext, in basically everything, and Dean textually named that in 12x22 that in the start of the season he’d “got Cas back, got Mom back” and in 12x23 of course he loses both, again, in a highly inter-connected way, and so again they’re going to be parallel lines to him, though again I think showing how he feels differently about one and the other and hopefully we get to unpack what those individual losses mean by the way of having both at once (and Crowley, who often in these cases is included to put a finger on the scale :P). 

One of the things confusing me right now is of last night’s behind the scenes set peeking which revealed a Turducken Slammer relaunch from the ever-hopeful Biggerson’s, which is not letting frequent murder and mayhem and dodgy meat recalls on its premises stop it from trying. Even if it’s as overall irrelevant to the story in the sense of being mentioned or actually explored as the Mystery Spot sign in 12x01, it’s still telling us something and making connections. I mean yeah it can just be worldbuilding continuity but it’s always picked for a reason and they know what all these signs mean and how to connect them, which is why we have the beer language for example. 

And Jody is pretty deeply connected to season 7 and Dean’s arc. And this connection was obliquely referenced in 12x06 in that moment I already mentioned, where Sam outs Dean’s porn habits to Jody. It was a nod from Yockey that he’d watched past Jody episodes because in every way it was a season 12 style rehash of Sam’s “strictly into Dick” comment, which was from a Jody episode. And… look, maybe this is the best way to explain how I felt the season 12 references were kind of out of this world in their scope and intelligence :P 

For starters, that comment was not just a run of the mill Dick joke, that was a Robbie level Dick joke, which collected up a hilarious character thing for Sam (his fucked up moment when he should have made the barb, his determination to hang onto the Best Zinger Of His Life until Dean next gave him an opportunity and bless Sam’s cotton socks he delivered it like a pro :P) and Dean’s spiralling obsession with Dick as a Dick or Anime thing. Dean’s anime-watching was from 7x01, when he was waiting for Godstiel to blow up the planet in despair, and was at just about the lowest point we’ve ever seen him. In 7x02 Bobby gives him the “You just lost your best friend” pep talk, which is a role of comforting parental figure Dean then went and lost that season when Bobby died. And in the end of 7x02 Dean reveals how Not Fine he is to Bobby’s answerphone, which is important that it’s never commented on again but I think affects how Bobby treats him and in the subtext of 7x09 you have to know all that happened. 

In 7x09 Bobby’s on his farewell tour of comforting advice to his adopted sons, in the last great set of retconning episodes to embed him permanently into their backstory as having always been there for them, to make it hurt juuust that much more than it already does. Towards the end of the episode he has another talk with Dean that mirrors advice Dean will get from Frank and Ness in 7x11 and 7x12, and *that* is opened up by Dean getting drugged by the turducken slammer and going on about how he doesn’t care about how he doesn’t care, and that he feels great for the first time since Cas and the black goo. Like, wow, his depression and hurt and betrayal didn’t go anywhere just because he said he was fine, who knew :P 

And that’s the backstory to Dean’s obsession over killing Dick, who has taken everything from him by this point in season 7, told through the medium of anime and sandwiches and somehow always ending up about Cas and Dean’s feelings for him. The anime was an attempt to not care and not think about it that the slammer actually inflicted on Dean, and was used to get Dean to tell us how he really felt. By 7x12 it’s a joke for Sam to make implying Dean’s into lowercase dick, with one of those false binaries the show loves making. And like in season 13 Dean’s lost a love interest and a parental figure, and now things are really blurry about which one hurts more in this short run of episodes before they both reappear in the narrative and make it confusing. 7x11 makes the hurt most about Bobby. 7x12 subtextually tells us rather a lot about Cas, especially by making a Bobby figure to contrast in the background with the lady in the shop who literally calls Dean an idjit at some point, I think, or some other Bobby-ism, to make it clear that Ness is definitely not standing in for that and all those Cas parallels are probably where it’s at while Dean fangirls over him :P 

And nope I’m not even done unpacking the Yockey Robbie Edlund turducken because of course JODY is all tied up in this completely. She’s incidentally in 7x02 as a useful local beloved character who can get menaced by Dr Sexy and let them know there’s leviathan nearby, and so she’s pretty embedded in the early Leviathan worldbuilding. Of course Edlund being Edlund, while the lil girl leviathan is channel surfing for ideas, there’s a Biggerson’s advert, I think the same one that plays in 7x03 or 7x22 about their pie salad bar (it’s like a salad bar, but pie!) and in the end she lands on wanting to be a Dr Sexy when she grows up. 

(Stop me when you think this might somehow subtextually be about Dean :P)

The Dr Sexy leviathan has an amusingly childlike view on being a surgeon as a result of forming its opinions on that job while being a little girl, and apparently not listening to the memories of the poor guy it ate except to get a frightening knowledge of anatomy. It very much acts the part of being a doctor on TV who can just wheel patients off to perform unnecessary surgery, as per the malpractice of our favourite sexy doctor on TV - and there’s a thing to contemplate about “I’m not a doctor, I just play one one TV” but that’s digressing :P But it goes and menaces Jody and Bobby goes and saves her, and Robbie brings her back 2 more times in season 7, once in 7x06 to thank Bobby for saving her, and to link them romantically so she can even more handily take over the parental role by being romantically linked to their adopted father, which is just a sort of easy association to help. And in 7x12 of course she’s just there and helping and mourning Bobby a lil bit with Sam (since Dean was the one in the focus for mourning Bobby in 7x11), drinking his dubiously won scotch from 11x16 (… Rufus didn’t have to let him have that one, Bobby WAS insisting it was a ghost :P I think he just wanted Bobby to have a win after seeing how down he was.) But that IS a Jody episode so it would have been on Yockey’s list for homework for 12x06 and it contained the anime/Dick thing. 

And, if he’d watched the deleted scene, at the end of the episode Dean makes it clear that he’s not sitting alone in the dark watching anime, he is strictly into Dick, and goes and reads an article on Dick “erecting” a tower.

(I hope it is clear how much I love the Dick references in season 7 by now and I’m not sorry, they started it :P)

So yeah. Jody is already intrinsically linked into a ridiculous chunk of the Dean/Cas subtext from season 7, the absolute wild nonsense that Edlund and Robbie were messing around with with pie and turducken and Dr Sexy and anime and Dick, to create the absolutely most ridiculous, like… no one part of it on its own in isolation doesn’t make you cry laughing, bit of storytelling (that, of course, added up into a full picture, just makes you cry a lot in earnest for poor Dean right then).

To me this is the picture of Dean mourning Cas in season 7, and the unique elements to season 7 are the anime (already referenced in season 12 just as an aside and I don’t think as anything more than a witty reference to past canon except that Dean was “kinda bummed” about Cas being gone (and don’t worry, I’m getting to Berens :P)) and the turducken, and Jody as one of the key characters wandering through all this picking up the emotional baton from Bobby, which she has been attempting to use on them ever since season 9, when they got back in contact with her after neglecting her all of season 8. 

(And, oh gosh, I stared out the window to try and collect my thoughts for the next paragraph and washed up on thinking about Sam going and crashing out on Jody over the Dean in Purgatory period instead of hitting a dog and ending up with Amelia, like Dean with Lisa except by the time Dean gets back Sam’s probably been whipped into shape and is wandering around Sioux Falls in a deputy uniform…)

Anyway yeah, to go back to 13x03 finally… If the Turducken sign isn’t portentous of anything, I’m still seeing the Gas n Sip sign, in the maroon colours rather than blue one, but still, in a Berens episode. And if you can’t get mourning Cas in season 7 via Jody and a turducken related things to stick, you can totally shortcut through the fairly simple steps of Berens + Gas n Sip = 9x06 and assume whatever personal feelings stuff Dean and Jody talk about, this is a great way to cram Cas into the background via the enormous glowing yellow sun that has come to represent him. (And, of course, it was Berens who had the “morning, Sunshine” line for us in 12x03.)

So I think the set stuff and character stuff all have some fairly good slap to the back of the head things for Dean to maybe open up to Jody or at the very least for whatever he says to her to be heavily subtextually about Cas even if Jody asks about Mary. Because Dean’s wearing weirdly Cas-coded clothes, and Jody is wearing the family unity red n blue plaid colours. The maroon Gas n Sip seems to be more about family and even Wayward Sisters, since it was prominently used behind Claire in 12x16 and maroon has been a lot about family because of the infamous red hoodie that Kevin, Charlie and Cas all wore, and that Mary was put in maroon within an episode of getting back (and Chuck tried to cash in on it in 11x21 to make himself look harmless and cute and relatable in the same hoodie). But even in 12x16 having the Gas n Sip sun looking over Claire, with her connections to Cas, made it seem like he was watching over her too. The colours change the meaning in some ways but the overall message is the same. I think in 13x03 we have to remember it’s also going to be about the Wayward Sisters so whether Jody and Dean are having a personal conversation or not, the sun might be about Cas but the overall thing might be a more neutral family building thing for the main arc stuff. If it was a blue Gas n Sip I’d immediately think it was all about Cas and oozing tragic subtext *everywhere* and completely unavoidably.

(it might also just be that they’re maroon because Biggerson’s are and maybe there’s some sort of corporate alliance of Gas n Sips connected to Biggerson’s, because, after all, Dick Roman ended up owning both franchises and by 7x23 you can see that both are involved in his masterplan, which is part of why I love so much Cas is then intimately connected to both later while still in a gloomy penance mood about the whole thing and everything he’s ever done since…)

… So to actually answer your question, I can see some really really convoluted reasons in the history of the show that if Dean and Jody have their big important “seriously how are you” talk in this exact location while hanging out and hugging in front of all these signs, that they might either not mention Cas at all because he’s not a part of the openly stated story going on between Dean and Jody and all this family stuff and Wayward Sisters and everything absorbed into the entire chunk of the show about parental relationships, of which Jody has been a part since 7x06 thanks to Robbie. Or it’s a part of the emotional backstory to Dean losing Cas which Edlund kicked into high gear in 7x02 while dibsing all the important Dean and Bobby conversations which shine a light on Dean’s loss and Cas, also dragging Jody into a ridiculous web of Dr Sexy and stuff that Robbie and then much much later Yockey were playing around with.

Either way,

The Losers Club: Aesthetics/Experiences

Bill Denbrough

Originally posted by grysamobojcow

  • When you couldn’t be bothered to put your jacket in the closet so you drape it over your chair.
  • When you want to kiss someone sensually but you can’t stop giggling.
  • When the teacher tells you you get to pick your own seats and you make eye contact with your best friend.
  • The very second before you’re found in hide and seek.
  • Jumping off the swing set and being weightless for just a second.
  • Having the same pose in every photo.
  • Trying to ride your bike when the rain is just pouring down, and you wonder if you are going to die like this.
  • Keeping your happy things secret because they’re YOUR happy things.
  • Drawing someone you love while they’re asleep.
  • When you roll your feet in because you’re bored of standing.
  • Biting into a lemon.
  • Smudging your drawing with your entire hand by accident.
  • Popping out the collar on a shirt.
  • Kissing away the tears from someone’s face.
  • Watching animals in your backyard.
  • Drinking tea on a cold night.
  • Trying to pick a rose without hurting your finger.
  • Seeing the widest hole in the typewriter and jumping right in and writing something amazing.

Stan Uris

Originally posted by naturegifs

  • Cutting your finger when you try to open up a soda.
  • Sitting up in the front in your favourite classes and sitting the back of your least favourites
  • Putting something on the tallest shelf out of spite towards short people.
  • Running your fingers through dust.
  • When english isn’t your first language and you think in another one.
  • A brisk walk on a chill fall day.
  • Being on the cusp of figuring out something.
  • Watching “The Polar Express” with cocoa, a blanket, and your best friend.
  • Telling a secret you never thought you’d ever tell a soul.
  • A freezing cold breeze on your face.
  • When you insist on not buying any lamps and instead decorate your entire house in christmas lights because you love Stranger Things.
  • Tear-stained faces and red noses.
  • Being the only person in the movie theatre.
  • Climbing up a tree and curling up on a branch.
  • Walking home a secret path because it scares you to walk the path you’ve wandered before.
  • Wearing a religious symbol on your neck and feeling strength from it.
  • Shaved legs and soft sheets.

Richie Tozier

Originally posted by agizasikmalicikolata

  • Wearing sunglasses that are too big for you.
  • Going to a Bah Mitzvah with your friends.
  • Spending six hours untangling your headphones.
  • When it’s a horror movie, but it makes you giggle and your friends are fed up with you.
  • Walking into a new place but feeling like you’ve been there before.
  • Licking and biting chapped lips.
  • Collecting acorns in the fall
  • And then throwing them at Henry Bowers and his twink boyfriend.
  • The way sweat sticks to your eyelashes.
  • Putting so much whipped cream on something that you forgot what you were having in the first place.
  • Trying to write a love confession in sharpie on a balloon, but smudging it before your crush sees it.
  • Being able to see planets on a clear night.
  • Sitting at the back of the bus with all your friends and playing Despacito loudly.
  • Sending people memes like the outdated dork you are.
  • Mario Kart.
  • Knowing there’s several valid reasons for you to go to hell besides your sexuality.
  • Coming out with bad puns.
  • Flipping off someone and running before they can beat your ass.
  • Dropping a slushie and watching it spill everywhere and wishing for death.

Beverly Marsh

Originally posted by surphile

  • Trying to sell lemonade on a hot day.
  • Sharing the shower with someone else.
  • Chipping your nail polish when you’re bored.
  • Trying on a trenchcoat and feeling confident even though it’s too big for you.
  • Walking barefoot with your heels in your hands.
  • Whispering too loudly in the cinema.
  • Those dollar store balloons.
  • Grabbing a handful of glitter and throwing it as hard as you can at your friend.
  • Being barefoot in the sand.
  • Spitting cherry pits as far as you can.
  • Filling your pockets with flowers.
  • Playing records till you know the songs by heart.
  • Your hair fanning out when you’re underwater.

Ben Hanscom

Originally posted by ihills

  • Dividing up your skittles by colour and using the orange ones for throwing at the Bowers Gang.
  • Running after the bus and making it.
  • Taking off in a plane.
  • Hiding a book in the bookstore so you can come back and buy it later.
  • Trying to read two books at once and getting confused.
  • Seeing an orchestra live.
  • When the hallway at school is empty so you sprint through it.
  • Buying coffee for you and your crush before you realise they’re not gonna show up and you’ve been stood up
  • Coming into gym class and taking one look before panicking because it’s gym class and it’s awful.
  • Leaving origami on your crush’s desk.
  • Wrapping yourself up in a curtain and laughing.
  • Falling asleep with one friend holding you.
  • Using corny pickup lines but still getting the girl.
  • The first time you call a hotline.

Eddie Kaspbrak

Originally posted by agent-69

  • Staring up at the stars with a sweetheart at your side and crickets everywhere.
  • Eating berries with your fingers.
  • Sleeping with the window open.
  • Screaming during horror movies and enjoying ones that are so-bad-they’re-good.
  • Wrapping your headphones perfectly around your phone.
  • Loving someone and hugging them bone-crushingly tight.
  • Light shining through stained glass windows.
  • Waking up to a blanket of snow over your home.
  • When your fingers are cold.
  • Opening a book and finding a flower you forgot you pressed.
  • When the towels are nicely rolled up in the hotel room.
  • Disgusted sounds.
  • Grabbing the sides of your sweetheart’s face and kissing them.
  • When you’re looking at a stormy sky and you see the lightning without having to look around wildly.
  • Trying to use a calligraphy pen and staining your arms.
  • Dancing with a feather duster.
  • Going to pride by yourself.
  • Clenching up your fist so hard it turns white.

Mike Hanlon

Originally posted by vvnnie

  • Getting your hair played with.
  • Watching a thunderstorm from inside your home and listening to the rain pound at the window.
  • Satisfaction that overrides all exhaustion after exercise.
  • Swimming way too deeply underwater.
  • Giving your best friend a pep talk.
  • Loving your gender and your race because they’re who you are.
  • Autumn days.
  • The aesthetic feeling of leaning against a brick wall.
  • Saying fight me and not meaning it because you’d never ever hurt a soul.
  • Fields of beautiful sunflowers.
  • Making art with your hands.
  • Texting your friends to let them know you love them.
  • Reading only happy love stories where nothing bad happens.
  • Seeing an owl outside your bedroom window and being like “shit, that’s an owl”.
  • When you know you’re nice and you wish you could just learn to open up around strangers.
  • When a bunny is crawling towards you and eats food out of your hand.
  • Holding hands with someone who’s got either a lighter or darker skin tone than yours and just admiring the contrast.
Stripper!Eren x Levi (Smut)

Written for @xavier-the-gay-unicorn sorry it took so long *scratches back of neck and awkwardly laughs*

Side note: for some reason, the bottom part wouldn’t paragraph.


It was June of 2000 and something so, as you can imagine, it was scorching hot outside. However, that also meant one thing. Exams. Oh the joy. Spending a third of your day indoors learning about trigonometry and calculating the radius of a circle. How stressful and tedious. To one pupil, this was the easy part. The hard part was rushing to work after school to work an eight hour shift. His name was Eren. He didn’t work where you’d expect to find an average lad working, like McDonald’s. No. He worked in a strip club.

It all started one day where he was only there to serve drinks to all of the horny guys who’d just finished work and needed to relax. One of the members of staff had accidentally spilled his drink on Eren. The liquid seeped through his shirt revealing the outlines on his torso.

“Hey kid. If you wanna up your wages… how about you get up there and take that shirt off”

As you would’ve guessed, Eren took the job. It only made sense.

The school bell rang and Eren was already out the door. He didn’t want anyone to see him. He felt nearly ashamed but, some income is better than none.

He turned a corner at an alley way which was very secluded and ahead of him was the strip club. Before pushing the door open, he stared at his reflection wondering if it was worth it or not. He was still a kid but never got to feel like one.

“Suck it up. You need the money so, just go in and do your best.”

These personal pep talks were becoming too regular.

The other members of staff were pretty occupied with cleaning up the place before it opened, Eren was just in his own world.

“Oi. Drink this. You need it.”

“Cheers boss.”

Eren necked his couple shots of vodka and got to work.

“It can’t be that bad”

Finally, opening time.

The locks on both entrances opened and a sea of people came flooding in with fat wads of cash in their fists.

“Where’s that boy with the bright eyes”

“Have you seen his ass?! Just thinking about it gets me rock fucking solid”

Eren sort of liked being objectified, it boosted his confidence. A lot.

However, there was one guy in the crowd, not saying much. He sat down, the three top buttons of his shirt undone, tie loose round his neck, sleeves lazily rolled up and hair wild. He looked like a “try before you buy” sort of guy. Seeing what these beautifully built guys had to offer before he left.

Eren caught his eye.

Loud music started moving through out the club and the guys started cheering.

Eren removed his button down shirt and started caressing his skin and slightly flexing his muscles.

This guy just stared in amazement at Eren. He never knew anyone this beautiful existed.

Eren then removed his trousers, just standing in his Calvin Klein boxer breifs. The guys started wolf whistling, especially when they saw the bulge Eren carried.

It had been a good night for Eren.

“Holy shit, £500…”

He went off stage and began to dress himself.

“That was quite a performance, Jaeger, I’m impressed”

“Thanks, I guess”

“Oh, Eren! Before you go, theres someone here to see you, his name’s Levi. And I’m trusting you to lock up this place, okay?”

“Sure.”

Eren turned round. There he was. That guy from earlier.

He looked like a work of art up close. He had eyes the colour of the sea during a storm surge and his hair was the colour of midnight. Lets not get started on his manly physique.

“So. You’re Eren? I’m Levi.”

He held out his hand for Eren to shake.

“H-hi, Levi” Eren gulped.

“Look, I’m gonna be blunt here. You’re obviously young and you wouldn’t be working here unless you were desparate, right?”

“Yeah…”

“So, how about I help you with your finances?”

“Uh… okay?”

“You have to do something for me though.”

His eyes darkened with lust and mischeif. He wanted to fuck Eren so badly right now.

“Name it.”

Before Eren finished his sentence

“Sleep with me.”

Erens lips parted. In shock but also excitement.

“Right here. Right now.”

“Okay daddy. Anything you want.”

Levi pulled Eren in by the collar and kissed him. His tongue slipped into his mouth. After a few seconds, he pulled away and lightly pulled on Erens bottom lip, just to tease.

He pushed Eren onto the couch and took this as an opportunity to find out what Eren liked.

He kissed and sucked on his neck, hurriedly yet passionately.

Eren rolled his head to the side, his breathing was already getting quite rapid.

“Oh God.” He whisper-yelled.

“Daddy must be doing a very good job, right?” He teased some more.

“Y-yeah…”

Levi sat eren up and ripped his shirt off of him.

“No wonder the guys go crazy for you” he smirked and traced the outlines of his abs.

Levi kissed up and down Erens’ torso, leaving little wet patches. Eren placed his hands on the bag of Levi’s head, tightly shutting his eyes. “We haven’t even got to the good part yet.” Eren was internally screaming. He was about to receive something better than the £500 he got today. Levi worked his way down to Erens jeans, slowly unbuttoning them just to frustrate Eren a little more. He pulled them off along with his boxers and threw them to the floor. His erection was… standing at attention. “Wow. Thats going to be a… mouthful.” Eren tried to supress the blushing and without any warning, he was in Levi’s mouth. Levi’s cheeks hollowed and his head bobbed up and down. His hand was pumping the part that he couldn’t fit. “Oh fuck…” Eren said under his breath. Levi began to circle the tip with his tongue, making Erens’ legs quiver. Again, with out any warning, Levi swallowed him whole. “Keep going, Levi… please, don’t stop!” Eren’s breathing was at its quickest. Levi seemed to pick up on this so, he stopped. “Why did you stop?” Eren interrogated between each pant. “It was a bit… hard to swallow” Levi smirked. Levi held eye contact with Eren and began to undress himself. He just couldn’t wait to get his hands on Eren. “Face down. Ass up. Now.” Eren complied. Levi grabbed Erens hips and slowly pushed his way on. Eren had never experienced so much pleasure. Levi slowly thrusted in and out and with each thrust, Eren pushed back. “Easy tiger.” Levi’s hand forcefully smacked Eren’s ass “Sorry, daddy.” That riled up Levi even more. He began thrusting at a magnificent speed, making Eren’s eyes roll back until only the whites were visible. He took one of his hands off of Erens hip and grabbed his cock, pumping at the same speed. “Daddy, I’m gonna-” 10 minutes later, Eren had come back to his senses. “He kid, you okay? For a minute, I thought you died.” Levi said while buttoning up his shirt. “I’m fine. Actually, I’m more than fine.” Eren grinned Levi pulled out a thich brown envelope from his breif case and threw it on the couch. “Here’s 10k.” “Levi…thank you.” “No. Thank you.” Eren innocently smiled at Levi even though he was still spread out on the couch naked. “Here’s my card. If you wanna go again, just call this number” his infamous smirk appeared once again. “Oh, and Eren?” “Yeah?” “That camera at the top left of the ceiling was on.” He deviously winked and shut the door behind him.

Be your own best friend

You can be your own best friend, give yourself pep talks, allow yourself to vent, to cry, have deep conversations with yourself at 2 am. Be your own hype person, love yourself like you’d share that love to someone else, not because it’s easy, because it’s worth it to know your own worth, you’re worth that love. Don’t wait around for someone else to love you and be a friend be your own. It’s not easy to recognize and to do these things for yourself but it’s easier to learn to love yourself than to accept people treating you like a punching bag, like someone they can throw around and away, like you’re not a person with thoughts feelings and emotions. You are a person and a mighty fine one at that. Be your own best friend because you’ll never leave yourself, and you’re worth love. It may sound like giving up to make yourself your own best friend but it’s indeed the opposite, it’s winning.

Mia san mia - Rafinha Alcantara



“You realise you’re gonna have to face him sooner or later, right?”

“Shut up.”

“Do you plan on just avoiding him like you have for the past two years then?”

“I said shut up.”


“I mean come on, aren’t you being a little childish about all of this? You guys went from being inseparable to complete strangers, despite the fact that Thiago’s your best friend.”

“Pep, I swear to God I’m going to hit you.”

“You can’t even reach me, don’t get your hopes up.”

That earned Pep a harsh slap across the arm, making him wince but grin at his little sister nonetheless. She was literally half his age, and his height, and despite the fact that he’d practically raised her as his own child, you’d think they were only a couple of years apart in age.

“I know you’re nervous - it’s okay.”

“I’m not nervous, Pep. Shut up.”

“Does he know you’re moving back to Barcelona?”

“No - and I swear if you tell him I’m gonna cut you.”

“I won’t - but I can’t say anything for Thiago.”

“I told him nothing!” They heard Thiago call out from behind them, making Pep chuckle.

“He probably doesn’t even care,” Y/N muttered, shaking her head.

Pep arched a brow.

“Maybe you should let him decide that.”

-

Camp Nou was physically exactly how she’d remembered it to be. Nothing had changed the stadium over the past two years that she’d been away, yet at the same time it felt like everything had changed. There was still a magical aura around it - the promise of hope and the promise of victory. The promise that it was a place where you belonged.

Yet all it reminded her of was everything that was lost. And she knew that Pep felt the same sense of nostalgia mixed with loss as she did.

Tito.

As if he could hear her thoughts, she heard Pep emit a sigh. Looking over at him to find him looking down, his eyes squeezed shut.

She knew how difficult this was for him. He was torn between his love for the club who’d raised them both and the club he had a duty towards, a club who he’d spent the past two years trying to bring to the top.

She was certain that whilst trying to want good for one, he felt like he was a traitor to the other.

Perhaps it would’ve been easier if Tito had still been around. It would’ve gone down as a little friendly competition and he wouldn’t have felt so guilty over being happy if the odds had turned out in Barça’s favour.

But Tito wasn’t here. And he had a duty towards Bayern. A match that was being perceived all over as a rematch of the world cup semifinal - the Germans taking on the Brazilians.

And silently, for reasons she’d never admit, she was rooting for the Brazilians.

-

“Pinch me - I’m seeing a ghost.”

Her heart clenched at the sound of his voice, making her turn around of her own accord. His face coming into view and making her sway on her feet.

2 years.

2 years since she’d walked away from Rafinha Alcantara yet looking at him now, feeling the way she was, you’d think none of that had ever happened.

Thiago’s loud cheer of his brother’s name pulled her back to reality and allowed her to regain her composure.

Rafinha’s eyes remained fixed on her, looking at her over his brother’s shoulders despite their embrace. Drinking her in, letting himself cherish the sight of her petite frame clad in a skirt and blouse. He didn’t know why he felt so disappointed upon the lack of Barcelona support visible on her - perhaps he’d thought that somewhere deep down she still felt like Barcelona was her home. The club that had raised her would’ve perhaps still held a place in her heart, but it didn’t seem to be the case. But he supposed it was better than seeing her in a Bayern jersey..right?

She held her breath as Rafinha sauntered over to her, coming to stand face to face with her - well really, face to chest. She had to crane her neck backwards to look up at him - he’d always stood a great deal taller than her and the years hadn’t changed that one little bit.

“I don’t get a hello?” He asked her, arching a brow.

Rolling her eyes at his fake, offended tone, she let him pull her into a hug. Closing her eyes as his arms went around her, holding her to him and surrounding her. Letting herself get lost in him for a moment, forgetting the nights she’d spent wondering where she’d fallen short of his expectations and instead dwell in the scent of him, letting herself catch a feel of home for a second.

Then she pulled away, forcing herself to take a step back from him.

Breathe, she reminded herself. You can’t get used to this.

“You look good, Rafinha,” she said to him honestly. It was true.

The Barcelona colours complimented his tanned skin, his ripped chest and toned arms accentuated by the tight fitting of the shirt leaving nothing to the imagination. He looked like a man built to pleasure a woman in every way possible, which only made her wonder how many women had been so lucky after her.

“I’d say the same for you, but I know for a fact you’d look ten times better if you were wearing a Barça jersey,” he replied cockily.

She let out a bitter chuckle, crossing her arms.

“I don’t own one.” She challenged, making his jaw harden. She felt a twinge of satisfaction as she saw a flicker of hurt in his eyes.

If he’d expected her to hold on to the jersey he’d given her during their time as a couple, he was greatly mistaken. There was no way she’d kept any of his things after he’d practically told her that he’d never imagined them having a future together.

“That’s harsh man. That’s not cool.” He said, clicking his tongue in disapproval.

Before she could snap back a snarky comment about how he shouldn’t have been surprised, Pep stepped into Rafinha’s rescue by dragging her away, outside the tunnel and towards the Bayern dugout.

The game kicked off and she’d be lying if she’d said she was calm about the whole thing. The first few minutes were all laughs and giggles, a clean game as the two FCBs played it off like a friendly.

But then slowly, the competition started. It suddenly got hotter inside of the stadium as the fans grew louder and the players grew rougher. Both teams put up their defences and began their attacks.

Yellows started being awarded, angering the visiting Bayern fans who felt they were being unjustly treated. A missed penalty had the Catalans groaning in response and a frustrated Messi hanging his head in annoyance.

The first half was over almost in seconds and she found herself rolling her eyes as the sound of Neuer’s smug voice filled the locker rooms where she stood beside Pep, boasting loudly over how he was ‘showing Lionel who was boss’. She almost wanted to go up to him and slap him, but held back. He was one of Pep’s best players despite his snarky attitude, and losing him could potentially cost Pep his job.

She avoided Rafinha’s gaze on her in the second half just as she had in the first, taking her seat on the bench and keeping her eyes focused on the pitch. Groaning when Neymar was awarded a yellow and almost broke into a fight with Muller.

She let out a loud gasp as Leo swerved past Jerome minutes later, effortlessly knocking the man over and with a flick of his foot sending the ball flying past Neuer. The stadium erupted into loud cheers and she covered her grin with a hand over her mouth, excitement coursing through her.

Her eyes met Pep’s, who had his lips firmly pressed together, but she could see the pride in his eyes. Bayern or no Bayern, Pep was a Catalan at heart.

Her heart rate picked up the moment Leo scored his second goal - having nothing to do with the fact that she could see Rafinha jumping around excitedly like a little boy before he was subbed on.

The game suddenly became so much more intense, and she was sat at the edge of her seat. Scrunching her nose in disapproval as Pep subbed on Götze in the 87th minute. So very world-cup of him as the German ran around the pitch arrogantly, making her roll her eyes.

Then Rafinha was shoved to the ground, and she found herself glaring at Götze and loudly cussing him out. The world cup champion held his hands up in defence, claiming it had been only an accident and even helped Rafa up. But she wasn’t buying any of it.

Because a few moments later, Rafa was again shoved to the ground and this time Thiago let out an angry shout, walking over to the two men the same time as she cussed at Götze.

She clenched her fist as Rafa angrily stood up, dusting the mud off his shoulder. Anything harder and he could’ve seriously injured his head.

But it wasn’t over.

The moment Rafa went down a third time, she was on her feet. Yelling profanities and curses at the German, ready to walk on to the pitch if she had to as Rafa himself got up on his feet, face to face with Mario, angrily spitting words at him.

Soon enough the two were being pulled apart by their teammates - yet the ref didn’t book Mario. Angering her to the point where she didn’t even realise she was shouting. Only realising it when Pep grabbed her by her shoulders and spun her around, giving her a stern look.

“Stop this. Right now.”

“Pep, you saw he-”

“Not a single word, Y/N, I don’t want to hear a single word coming out of your mouth.”

“He deserved a fucking red for that and you know it,” she hissed back at Pep, her eyes narrowing. Frustrated that his duty towards Bayern was clouding his judgment.

“There’s been worse going on the pitch, and you know that too,” Pep retorted back, angering her further.

“So you’re saying I’m biased?”

“I’m saying that if it had been anyone but Rafa, you wouldn’t be creating such a scene.”

She flared her nostrils, pushing Pep’s hands off her shoulders as she took a step back from him. Refusing to acknowledge that he was right.

“I can’t believe you. He’s Thiago’s brother - you coached him long before you coached Mario - and you’re not even on his side.”

“Y/N-”

“I can’t believe you’d give up on Barça like this. If Tito-”

“That’s enough. You’re either going to go sit at the back with the others, or you’re leaving. Not another word-”

But Pep didn’t finish as Camp Nou emerged into loud cheers and chants. The two looked over at the pitch to see the Catalans celebrating, jumping onto Neymar as the scoreboard read 3-0 in Barça’s favour.

She let a giggle break through upon the sight of Neuer’s face, who looked like he was a little boy who’s candy had been taken away from him.

“Stop it,” Pep scolded her half-heartedly, but even she could hear the delight in his voice.

“Stop hiding it,” she muttered, shaking her head.

“Cameras.” He replied, suddenly making sense of it all to her. The papers would have a field day if they found Pep celebrating for Barça.

The final whistle was blown and she beamed as Lucho pulled Pep into a hug, patting his back before pressing a kiss to her forehead as she congratulated him.

“You’re in my dugout in Munich, I called it,” Lucho told her with a wink, making her laugh and result in Pep rolling his eyes at the two of them.

The two men walked away and she found herself hugging Iniesta, Xavi, and Gerard and wishing them her congratulations. Genuinely happy that it was Barça who’d dominated.

She looked over to see to Thiago and Rafa walking together, a smile on Thiago’s face despite the fact that he’d lost. His eyes met hers and he beckoned her over, and she didn’t have the heart to refuse.

She was pulled into a group hug between the two Alcantara brothers, her heart racing once again as she was aware of every part of Rafa that she could feel against herself.

She didn’t even notice when Thiago let go of her, only realising it once she was completely engulfed in Rafinha’s embrace. She slowly pulled back, her breath catching in her throat as her gaze was captured with Rafa’s intense one. She felt butterflies in her stomach as Rafinha’s head lowered, his nose brushing against hers.

Maybe it was Camp Nou, maybe it was the entire world that erupted into fireworks the moment his lips touched hers. Everything ceased to exist in the moment as she felt herself slipping further into him, the walls around her giving way to him.

Then the contact was broken and it felt like a slap in the face as her ears were suddenly filled with the noise that was surrounding them. She took a step back from a confused Rafinha, raising her hand to where his lips had touched hers, still in shock.

Rafa gazed back at her intently, feeling a longing in his chest. He didn’t understand how it had been so easy for her to walk away from him, how easy it was for her to completely break off contact with him. And there was no way she hadn’t felt that. He could see the effect of the kiss written all over her face - so why the hell was she turning around and walking away from him once again?