youre the only thing that's keeping me alive

I haven’t picked up a pen or sat down and really typed anything in a couple of months and I don’t know if thats a bad thing or a good thing because although writing has always been therapeutic to me, I think I’m done with therapy. I just don’t have anything to write about anymore, constantly writing about a person that is no longer there just to keep them alive in your memories can be so damn draining and I only stopped feeling all these emotions when I put the pen down, when I stopped remembering, when I just lived in the moment instead of writing about what is no longer here and what will never be here. I don’t know how I feel about anything anymore, I don’t think I feel at all anymore but somehow everything just looks a lot brighter lately, I’ve been seeing more colors lately and everything looks so damn alive, even myself.
—  M.I.A 
  • Fuyumi: you stapled your skin back together? That's so unsanitary, you could risk some serious illness!
  • Dabi: yeah
  • Fuyumi: why?
  • Dabi: it seemed like a cool idea at the time
  • Fuyumi: ...how are you even alive?
  • Dabi: I have NO idea I'm pretty sure pure spite is the only thing keeping me on my feet right now

yall are so sweet omg
look, i even did a SPEEDPAINT WOOO youre keeping my youtube channel alive honestly

A letter to inconsiderate family/friends

When you come over to visit, or to celebrate on my Birthday, just know that I’m aware that my gluten free food doesn’t taste good to you. I will try to accommodate for you as best I can but when you joke about being ‘gluten-free intolerant’ and ask things like 'Where’s the bread?’ you should know you are not funny and that I am not intending to make you suffer by providing you with food that won’t literally make me suffer. When I go to your house I bring all my own food, and if by some oddity I don’t I won’t complain when the only thing I can eat is plain rice and a tomato. So if we can just fall upon some agreement, live in my shoes for a few hours, because thats all it is. This way of life you are joking about, its keeping me alive, and I’ll have to eat like this for the rest of my life if I don’t want to increase the likelihood of developing a cancer I still might contract. I’m doing the best I can to cope with an incurable autoimmune disease, sorry the 'bread’ tastes bad. 

Iron Man Sentence Meme
  • "Good god, you're a woman. I honestly....I couldn't have called that."
  • "I'd be out of a job with peace."
  • "As liaison to Stark Industries, I've had the unique privilege of serving with a real patriot."
  • "Did they rope you into this?"
  • "I don't blow on a man's dice."
  • "What do you say to your other nickname? The Merchant of Death?"
  • "It's an imperfect world but it's the only one we've got."
  • "Doesn't it kind of defeat the whole purpose of having your own plane if it departs before you arrive?"
  • "I'm allowed to have plans on my birthday."
  • "You don't respect yourself so I know you don't respect me."
  • "You are constitutionally incapable of being responsible."
  • "You're more than what you are."
  • "Is it better to be feared or respected? I say, is it too much to ask for both?"
  • "They say the best weapon is one you never have to fire. I disagree."
  • "This is the 'fun-vee'. The 'hum-drum-vee' is back there."
  • "What I did is to save your life."
  • "Those are my guns. How did they get my guns?"
  • "What you just saw, that is your legacy."
  • "They call themselves the Ten Rings."
  • "You're a man who has everything and nothing."
  • "Don't waste it. Don't waste your life."
  • "Your eyes are red. A few tears for your long lost boss?"
  • "I'm with the Strategic Homeland Intervention, Enforcement and Logistics Division."
  • "I came to realize that I have more to offer this world than just making things blow up."
  • "Did I just paint a target on the back of my head?"
  • "I just don't want a body count to be our only legacy."
  • "What we do keeps the world from falling into chaos."
  • "Could you have a lousier poker face?"
  • "Is that the thing that's keeping you alive?"
  • "I don't think I'm qualified to do this."
  • "You're the most capable, qualified, trustworthy person I've ever met."
  • "Don't ever, ever, ever ask me to do anything like that ever again."
  • "I don't have anyone but you."
  • "Don't do that. They'll believe that. Don't do that."
  • "I'm working on something big. I came to talk to you. I want you to be a part of it."
  • "I don't want this winding up in the wrong hands. Maybe in mine, it can actually do some good."
  • "Just because I brought pizza back from New York doesn't mean it went bad."
  • "What's the world coming to when a guy's got to crash his own party?"
  • "You look fantastic! I don't recognize you."
  • "I actually don't think that you could tie your shoes without me."
  • "No, it was not just a dance. You don't understand because you're you."
  • "I would like a vodka martini, please. Very dry, with olives. A lot of olives. Like, at least three olives."
  • "Panic. I would say panic is my reaction."
  • "You do not send civilian equipment into my active war zone."
  • "The more you struggle, the more this is going to hurt."
  • "Let's face it. This is not the worst thing you've caught me doing."
  • "You paid us trinkets to kill a prince."
  • "You stood by my side all these years while I reaped the benefits of destruction."
  • "I shouldn't be alive, unless it was for a reason."
  • "I'm not crazy, I just finally know what I have to do. And I know in my heart that it's right."
  • "Your deception and lies will cost you dearly."
  • "When I ordered the hit on you, I worried that I was killing the golden goose."
  • "Do you really think that just because you have an idea it belongs to you?"
  • "What kind of world would it be today if he was as selfish as you?"
  • "Your services are no longer required."
  • "Nothing is going to stand in my way. Least of all you!"
  • "Trying to rid the world of weapons, you gave it it's best one ever."
  • "Just call us S.H.I.E.L.D."
  • "I never said you were a super hero."
  • "I'm just not the hero type. Clearly."
  • "The truth is I am Iron Man."
  • "You've become part of a bigger universe. You just don't know it yet."
  • "I'm here to talk to you about the Avengers Initiative."

Life
I felt most alive when with you.
Laying in my bed
Cuddled up next you in the dark
Thats when i felt most alive
And when id kiss your lips and youd smile after
I could feel life corcing through my vanes.
Thats the most alive ive felt in 15 years of living.
I was happy. Id laugh and smile.
I was glad to be alive.
You were the only thing keeling me alive.

Vs death.
I am dead right at this very moment.
You haven’t actually told me you love me in days.
And i can feel you moving on.
I haven’t even known you 4 months.
And you’re already gone.
And now im dead.
All i can fo is cry.
I dont laugh and the phantom feeling of your lips on mine and your finger tipes dancing along my side’s keeps me up at night.
I feel more dead now than i did before you.
You would think this feeling gets easier. But im not sure.
Because although death can be comforting it makes for terrible company.

At least compared to you.

Thats the difference between life and death.
You are life.
And i am death.
And together we worked.
But apart im just dead while you go on living.


(An original by Me-Faith Getz)

please dont take this out on me,
cause youre the only thing thats keeping me alive,
and i don’t wanna wait for the down set date cause,
i would rather end it all tonight,
and if i mean anything to you im sorry but ive made up my mind