you'll get sick of me everyone does

dear arohas

A huge part of you is in awe.

You look at these six boys and wonder, for days and weeks and months, how six boys could mean so much to you in less than a year. You, who has been there since their days of being confined to just the training rooms, and you, who stayed through the cringe-worthy episodes of To Be Continued (and Clap Clap). You’ve been there by their sides during the most important time of their lives and still loved them for all their cheek and socks over jeans. You loved them all the same.

And even if you weren’t there before, even if you had stumbled across these six boys without meaning to on a random, beautiful day, even if you decided to love them midway through their Summer Vibes or Confession eras, you are here, and that is all that matters.

You wonder how it happened and why it did. Idly, you think that the reason you love them so much is probably because of the way they just are. You love them for how they’re just happy to be able to do what they love, and you love them because they’re just– themselves. They are not afraid to be themselves.

Then you backtrack and realise you don’t really need a reason, do you? You just do. That is all that matters.

Three years, five years, ten years from now, you’ll still be here. You’ll look back at the first time you met these six boys and wonder where the days have gone, and then you’ll look forward to the days that wait for you both. You will still be here, and they will always be here for you, too.

Nothing could ever be quite as wonderful.

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  • Octavia: you tortured the first boy I had feelings for to the point where he wouldn't even look at me and then a few days later brought back his dead body
  • Bellamy: i was protecting you, boys are gross
  • Octavia: a grounder saved me and you brought him back and tortured him
  • Bellamy: Grounders are bad
  • Octavia: I fell in love with him and you constantly tried to make me feel bad about it and when I finally felt like I found where I belonged you belittled me and told me that I was wrong and then you threw my soulmate in prison and then, if that wasn't bad enough, you indirectly killed him
  • Bellamy: ok but I let you punch me so we're good now
  • Octavia: I didn't even mention the times you kept me locked in the dropship after I've stated multiple times that I have ptsd from being locked in small spaces my entire life, or how there's a piece of me that still blames you for killing mom, or the fact the you killed an army of innocent warriors but only injuring the one I care about so you can look like the 'good' guy even though she would have rather just been killed
  • Bellamy: siblings always bicker, you'll forgive me
  • Octavia: Don't get me started on how you stole Ravens radio to try to save your own ass after you thought you killed the most powerful man on the ark, leaving hundreds of people to die or when you put sick grounders, that we invited to arkadia, in prison or when you killed everyone in mt weather, including children and the people who helped us or when you decided Clarke was more important than Gina, the girl you claimed you loved
  • Bellamy: ok but Clarke forgives me why don't you
  • Octavia: I honestly don't understand how she does after she came to you to ask for peace and you handcuffed her to a table and tried to bring her to pike and how all your actions were the reasons why the grounders didn't trust the sky people, leading to Lexa's death
  • Bellamy: Lexa betrayed us though
  • Octavia: oh and look at that, Niylah, a grounder, let you stay at her house even after she found out you were the reason her father is dead lmao fuck you I'm out