There are sooooooo many men who will literally say anything to have sex with you. Don’t fall for the bull. Don’t have yourself feeling special based off words and ignore when the actions don’t line up. Please sis
Some days you’re going to feel so unbeautiful. Some days the one you need most is not going to want to touch you, hold you, see you, be around you when you ache, when you need them to choose you without having to ask them to. Sometimes your being a force of nature will go against you. Sometimes putting others before you is going to go against you. And you will hurt darling, how you will hurt. On those days remember how high you have climbed just to feel the sun on your face. How brave you are. Remember sitting on the ledge of that building looking at how far down the ground was and having the confidence in yourself not to fall. Remember staring into the eyes of those who have hurt you and taking away their power by never allowing them to hurt you anymore. Remember clawing your way out of every abyss that you fell into. Now channel that girl, that lioness again. You can conquer anything.
Just a text dump of some thoughts. In the card scene i also think Sangwoo was testing Bum’s trust and intelligence, too. He gives him the right cards and then indicates the wrong one at the most critical moment. It doesn’t even occur to Bum that he’s being set up for a long hard fall. You’d think someone in his position would be suspicious of anything Sangwoo tells him to pick or do, but Bum is pretty trusting:
He says that one’s ‘definitely’ the right card, that is… /not/ the joker. But of course he’s wrong lol. And then in this following scene, i actually think the laughter belongs to Glasses Guy? Bum does ask ‘why is he laughing?’ I could be wrong! But regardless you see Sangwoo looking exasperated, amused, and disappointed all at once as if to say how could you fall for that, how could you trust me.
Sangwoo recognises that Bum’s level of trust in him can be so fucking dumb. It’s a different scenario, but it reminds me of the previous scene where he asks Bum why he didn’t run away when he had the chance: “are you stupid? you could have gotten out if you just crawled…or are you starting to like it here?” That’s what’s interesting about Sangwoo: he is messed up but he has 100% control over his state of mind. He is rational and intelligent - and that’s a part of why he has been so ‘successful’ with all his killings.
I definitely think that Sangwoo always intended for Bum to live in that whole card scene, but i think it’s the small moments that showcase Bum’s naivety and mindless trust in him that appeal to Sangwoo’s warped mine. He’s getting attached to him because of things like this lol. What i like is that Bum gives little morsels of trust that are pretty innocent and endearing, even though he holistically doesnt trust Sangwoo with his life yet. And it’s whenever Bum feels like he has received special attention from Sangwoo that he allows his mind get blurry with poor judgment, or rather, that he loses sight of himself. At first Bum was like ‘Is he helping me…?’ He seemed wary, but then after he pulled all the right cards he was so excited by the knowledge that Sangwoo was taking care of him that he totally overlooked the trap. He says himself he felt giddy and happy.
I think in some ways Sangwoo and Yoonbum mirror each other, but my thoughts on this aren’t fully developed yet so i’ll have to think about it some more lol. But I fully expect for Sangwoo to soon have a level of dependence on Bum too, or atleast a powerfully unstable emotional attachment.
- Put your hands together in prayer for the sunrise
- Burn incense at your front and back doors for protection or as an offering to the sky gods- simply put the sticks inside any cracks in the bricks or wood that you find on your home. (Please ensure the ashes wont fall on grass or anything flammable)
- Light a candle and say a quick prayer at your altar before leaving for the day
- Ritually cleanse yourself in the shower
- Carry crystals to work or school for things you will need help with
- Do a one card tarot reading each morning to see what you need to focus on
- Scatter salt or herbs over yourself or your front doorstep before leaving the house for protection during the day
- Pick flowers or collect natural objects on your way to work/home for use in rituals later
- Put your moon water out for the night when you return home
- Put your hands together in prayer for the moon
- Cleanse your crystals in water/salt/incense quickly before bed
You don’t necessarily get to choose who you fall in love with. You don’t get to choose who makes you stutter when you talk to them for the first time. You don’t get to choose who makes your cheeks burn & turn bright red. You hope they don’t notice you staring but that one day when you look & they were already looking makes you just want to smile & your heart goes crazy. You don’t get to choose who makes your hands sweaty because you’re so nervous around them. You don’t get to choose who gives you butterflies at the thought of them or the mention of their name. Who you fall in love with is completely up to fate. But when you fall in love with them you can’t be anything but happy, because they are your happy & they are finally yours.