you were only waiting for this moment to be free

You hold onto the hurt, the anger, the resentment, because you fear that if you could let it go effortlessly, then whoever caused the pain in the first place, would be getting away with it too easily.
By holding on, you might still be searching for closure, and needing an apology from someone, again, or for the first time. You want to arrive at the moment with all the baggage in hand, to make sure they understand all the weight you have been carrying around. Seeking validation for your suffering, acknowledgment, and to be reassured, yes, indeed, you really were hurt.
The only problem here is that you will never be free of the hurt, anger, or pain so long as you are waiting for that grand moment to come. The perpetrator has a backstage pass into your mind anytime. You’re open 24/7. It’s like being free on a very very long chain. You can move in any direction you want in a circle, and stretch pretty far, but at any given moment, be snapped back to that time and place, and the one snapping you back is the very person who hurt you, and you are the one that gave them permission to be there.
You gave control of your happiness to someone else.
Does it affect the other person if you are wallowing in misery, crying your eyes out reliving the moment, staring at the cars going by on the road losing hours of your time? Nope!
—  Abraham Hicks (Why We Hold On to Emotions)

anonymous asked:

oh great now i demand a canon very lovely destiel hug wile the beatles song plays on "Blackbird singing in the dead of night, take these broken wings and learn to fly. All your life, you were only waiting for this moment to arise. Blackbird singing in the dead of night, take these sunken eyes and learn to see. All your life, you were only waiting for this moment to be free" I blame you all

oh dear…

sorry? :/

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“Blackbird singing in the dead of night

Take these broken wings and learn to fly 

All Your life 

You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night

Take these sunken eyes and learn to see

All your life

You were only waiting for this moment to be free.”

“Is he singing to her again?” Sam asked as he snuck up on you as you were watching Dean rock your daughter to sleep. 

You just look up at the younger brother smiling on nodding.

“Beatles again?” Sam laughed as you nodded again. “What song is it this time?” 

“Blackbird.” You whispered looking at your husband Dean once more watching him and thinking what a great father he was. 

“Blackbird fly Blackbird fly

Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird fly Blackbird fly

Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night

Take these broken wings and learn to fly

All you life 

You were only waiting for this moment to arise 

You were only waiting for this moment to arise 

You were only waiting for this moment to arise.”

Weekly Horoscopes

aries: things fall apart and come together again but your desires will be foggy until you learn how to clean the mirror with your own hands

taurus: patience is key but don’t let anyone cut you in line
gemini: April is so kind to you, soak your skin with sunshine so that its warmth will last 

gemini: April is so kind to you, soak your skin with sunshine so that its warmth will last

cancer: there’s nothing to run from anymore but life is so good to you that you may not even find time to catch your breath

leo: you have a funny way of licking your wounds so be careful not to leave scars

virgo: ears were made for listening, mouths for speaking, and souls for the words that cannot be communicated

libra: secrets are like balloons, when you let them go they set you free, but you’re never quite sure where they might end up

scorpio: moments are just as beautiful as your voice when you’re half asleep but only if you’ll let them

sagittarius: not once have you made me wait to taste the sweet honey of your words and maybe that’s why life plays so nice with you

capricorn: you’ve never known how to speak with feelings but sometimes you have to feel pain before it can set you free again

aquarius: you’re living in this little safe world where nothing can touch you and you have to stay there if you want to remain in one piece

pisces: sometimes you get so lost in your desires that you forget about what’s really important so when someone finds you, stay found

Fearlessness is not only possible, it is the ultimate joy. When you touch non fear, you are free. If I am ever in an airplane and the pilot announces that the plane is about to crash, I will practice mindful breathing. If you receive bad news, I hope you will do the same. But don’t wait for the critical moment to arrive before you start practicing to transform your fear and live mindfully. Nobody can give you fearlessness. Even if the Buddha were sitting right here next to you, he couldn’t give it to you. You have to practice it and realize it yourself. If you make a habit of mindfulness practice, when difficulties arise, you will already know what to do.
—  Thich Nhat Hanh