you wanted me to smile

I just want whispers so close I can taste your words. I just want your warmth to surround me like a roaring fire. As we lay in bed lit by only candles and dim bedside laps. As we lay under layers of blankets and darling your eyes are the only place I feel grounded. In their dark onyx with hidden secrets. I want my hand in your bigger, rougher ones. I want to trace your lips and memorize how they curve when you talk and smile at me. Baby I just want you to be inches away instead of hundreds of miles and sweetheart I just want you.
—  i was not enough

anonymous asked:

HERE WE GO AGAIN. -aHEMHEM-.. I- i don't even have a speech prepared. UH. so you are just a really great person and artist and you never fail to make me smile and i just wanted you to know that YOU'RE A FAN-DIDDLY-TASTIC HUMAN BEING AND NEVER EVER FORGET THAT! <3

oH MY GOD????BLESS???THIS ANON????W HAT????? ♡♡♡♡

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.
We throw around the word never likes its nothing but a small rose petal. The word never is a doubled edged sword. On one side it says ‘I will never leave you’ and on the other it says ‘I will never love you.’
—  The Word Never